Ter. .

Ter, thinking of you and hoping you feel better. Prayers and comforting vibes sent your way! Joan

Oh Ter- You can vent all you want!!!!!! Life is just not fair sometimes! As I lay my head down I will say a prayer for you tonight and I wish I could take all your pain away. You are always in my thoughts! Dunner P.S. You can also do me a favor and say a prayer my my DH who was just diagnosed with myeloma. Yikes- me and now my hubby... Surreal

((((Ter))))

oh stephanie, that sounds so good, as i basically quit cooking, i might do toast and tea, and we tried Schwanns foods which are good, but pricy, just a good home cooked meal sounds good, not at this min as i think im still trying to kick this bug or what ever...

Im seeing the doc, my internist with Frank tomorrow we both have appts one right after the other..as we use to use same room, but this gives us privacy plus our chart work doesnt get mixed up. yes I have a good size list made up for him...plus my results from my MRIs of pelvis and the spine....

Just frustrated, as dh thinks I should be up and doing and going at times, im surprised that weve made it this long being together 24/7 for 7 years since we both became disabled...he is so good to me, yet Im one who likes my privacy, and feel i can read him like a book lol...he is a sweetie..

im off to try to sleep, I slept all nite long, woke up at 3am for a potty call and was in pain, took a pain med, went back to sleep and was cold-cocked out of it til 3PM this afternoon, now this is not right, as i feel im wasting my days away in bed..and when im up Im too tired to do something here...i think part is my potassium, and yes sometimes i feel like i do have an MD or FACP at the end of my name...

thanks for caring all you guys,and Stephanie you know its not far from TN to CA for "take out food" LOL but I dont eat much, never have, just do tiny meals, and lots of crackers these days..

hugs to all
Ter

Wanted you all to know I talked to Ter. She initially sounded very tired but did sound a lot better by the time we hung up.

Ter went to the dr. He wants to see her in 2 weeks, had her do lots of blood work,and is trying changing some of her meds. She has no energy because nothing she eats stays with her more than a few minutes....

Oh, I think Frank doesn't really cook so if you have some recipes that are not complicated and only a few ingredients, maybe you can post them for her.

Margaret

hi,
its sunday late evening and ready to go to bed...been doing a bit pueny...letting you guys here know that I posted something in mets and reocurrances called "Relaxing", take a look please and maybe you have an idea.

Going to bed as my sleeping is nil, Ive been up since 3am today...new meds to help along with my lexapro to boost it instead of taking more and more xanax..as the xanax is going to get me quicker than this BC and everything else..

Short tonite, maybe more later in week.

Love you all,
hugs
Terrie

Just a quick note to say that I am thinking of you and sending you healing thoughts... I pray that you get a good night sleep tonight!!! Love- Dunner

Ter, I'm so sorry. I wish I could make it all better for you. I'll call you in the next few days.

Love,

Margaret

Ladies, I just got off the phone with Ter. She is very tired and not doing real well right now. Keep her in your thoughts and prayers. I'll post more as I get updates.

Margaret

As I lay my head down for the night, just know that I am praying for you Ter!!! God Bless-Dunner

Thanks everyone , its 4:30 AM been up all night....the "new" meds doc gave me to help with other meds, well what it did was cause more pain,as we called the doc, my doc wasnt on call, but found out that the meds he gave me which were to eliminate having to take more Xanax and we knew it was also to help me have an appetite, as i don't have much, well not even a week on it and Poof, here i am with such swollen hands that are red shiney etc, just like my RSD in my feet, and my hands look like huge sausages, and they hurt so bad, so i stopped taking them, not just per his request, and trying to drink alot of H20 and Gatorade to flush as much as I couuld out. I think I'll stay on my xanax as much as i have to, I hate changing meds as you spsend a fortune, then to find out they dont work, and we have to pay in full, then later get reimbursed....after lots of paperwork. Seems like right now the heat that was so severe this morning is subsiding a bit, thank G*d, and I bet I sleep all day, or at least rest on the sofa.

Oh Mena, the chocolate? cant have a day without, but with all my "stuff" going on, it too does not stay in me....so I guess I can eat as much as I can, and I guess I can consider it 0 calories..LOL

hugs to all
Ter

Hi everyone,
its late after midnite Thursday, and tomorrow I go to cancer center for the blood lady, then wait til the fist of March for more results....yes Im scarred, as they think the cancer has now reached "possibly" my abdomen, and I had found 2 lumps underneath my first masct armpit..does not feel good for real as yesterday i had to get out and do the doc thing at he orthopedic place, oh that doc, not only is he adorable, but he is so kindly sweet and soft spoken and listens to every word I say. I asked him about epiderals to my spine as I cannot do anymore spine disc surgeries, as they will keep going on and on with time, and I asked him about epiderals and he said they might work, he does not do them, and no longer do back surgeries...but he suggested we wait til the first of March to see what these test turn out like, THEN make a plan, which we put in order, as my bc, with no breast and I thought that part was all gone, except to my mets to my hip area...but now it is so itchy and i look like a monkey itching...overall not funny, and all my tops are way too small as the arm hole rubs against my skin which irritats so badly....but once we find out if the cancer has come back then we will see what we will do....yes i have lots on my mind, then with those results we will see IF I may be a candidate for an epideral on the spine....well see, as i told my orthopedic I would not have one done at the pain center at the cancer center, as they are good at doing hte meds for pain, yet i have frinds going there for epiderals and are not too happy, yet I have an older doc, no he's not old, he's a pain doc who left the place he was at, as all the doc's were leaving there due to the owner, and this one i stated to see at the end I liked, and went into businss himself, and my orthopedic knows and said he was a good doc...so just that in itself means alot to me...but also i may not be a good candidate for it this time, as last time no cancer....well see..

also with this orthopidic, yea the good looking one, also said to me, that he could see me in so may weeks but doesnt really need to, unless i need refereal etc, but asked me if I wuold call him personally to talk or write a note to let him know what is going on with me, which i thougt was such a good gesture of him. Yes I also got a hug from him....

with this pain and itchy so badly and according to my onc no infection, and i am scarred to death...

yesterday was a big day, the doc, then I had Frank take me across street to a craft store to get some paper for my scrapbook, as I am staring to cut some pictures, at last! not alot done, as I keep trying to organize it....

got some good ideas for it and a good part of it is goign to be my "journey" of bc....to start this journey part is going to be one page its a 12x12 boook, and the start is goign to be called at the top: HOW LIFE WAS SO SIMPLE AND EASY WHEN I WAS YOUNG..and some young pics of me and things like that, then the page that will face it, is like a small bio and hopefully a decent pic of me, and at the bottom of it a few small pics of me first when i was bald, then new growth then another...and I picked up some cute stickers etc for it, and found for the other pages of white with pink ribbons on it...I am kind of getting excited about working on it..i did a bit today, but so tired from yesterdays excursions, as not only the doc, and craft store, but grocery shopping..oy, I hit the bed at 6:30pm, woke up at 9:30pm then 12:oo am then 2am then 5am....very tired...but at 8am got up and lalagaged aroud here and thru the day i even made dinner, meatloaf and red potatoes...it was good...but now must go to sleep as I had found yes thru my bath and body works a spray of sandlewood/rose and you lightly spray on your pillow for sweet dreams....oh yes and my sweet dh left for 5 min tonite and got 2 sacks of 3 musketeers, oh they are so good right now...can you see me tying to shar them with all you, the chocolae is oozing thru your screen LOL

til later all you sweet ladies..

lotsof hugs
Ter

Sweet Ter. checking in on you to see if you heard anything yet. I will check in our special place! I am always with You {{{TER}}} Always! xoxoxoxo Puppy

Ter. I keep checking in to see how you are doing. I just wanted you to know that one more out here thinks of you and I believe you are an inspiration to me. I just popped a dark chocolate and if I had Merlot that would be an added delight. Hang in there.