Ter. .

MargaretB

Ter, I'm sorry you are having a rough time right now, it's so unfair. I think of you every day, things are very hectic right now. Sending you some big cyber hugs.

Margaret

dunner1

Hi Ter- I read your updates all the time but don't post too often! I think of you all the time and pray for you each and everyday... Now I hope God is not reading this message right now and if He is all I can say is, I hope He has his eyes closed because.... FU_K , F__K, _UCK!!!! Cancer Sucks!!!!!!!!!!! Love- Your secret admirer, Dunner1

ravdeb

Hey Ter..
Hope you are having a better day today.
Thinking of you as I always do...
You are on our prayer list.

PuppyFive

XOXO Thinking, and Praying for You sweetie!!!! God Bless, debbyfive

christineK

Just checking in you, Ter.
Hope your day is better, the pain is less and your are able to get some peaceful sleep tonight. My heart is with you.

Anonymous

Hi Ter -
I hope you're comfortable. Hang in there. My thoughts are with you!
Laura

MargaretB

Thinking of you.

Margaret

PaulaBeth

Oh, Ter, I'm so sorry you're having a rough time. Maybe listening to books on tape would help keep your mind involved without having to use your eyes. They certainly help me.

PuppyFive

(((( TER. ))))) xoxo debbyfive

PuppyFive

Hey Sweetie, just wanted You to know my thoughts and Prayers are with You! xoxo debby

LuAnnH

Ter,

I hope you are doing better! Merry Christmas!

LuAnn

boobbuster

Merry Xmas Ter and hope Santa brings you a special gift! (((((Ter))))) God is able, Boobbuster

PuppyFive

Merry Christmas, my Sweet Sister! XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXX debby

Ter

Oh thank you guys for thinking of me, sometimes I feel all alone, and my sweet dh comes in my room and I try talking to him, he is so sweet, and I try to tell him how I feel and he wants only the best for me, and I feel so grouchy and depressed….and makes me feel like I cant have my feelings, I know I can, he just tries so hard, as I am his only family left on his side, except a brother in OK.

I had an MRI done 2 weeks ago as I decided to play doctor myself…as you all know I don’t care for my onc….but not knowing what to do etc.. Then the pain a few months ago started and I kept my mouth shut, as it was in my back…Ive had 3 back surgeries LONG ago..in 84 I had my orthopedic he ended up removing my L 4-5 disc and after that I was ok…until at 2 diff times 2 diff hernitnated disc ruptured, and had 2 more surgeries within a few years of each other….but I let dear hubby know and my idea was that so many people find out they have some sort of cancer by “accidents”, like a broken arm, a broken rib, and they end up in the ER room , only to be told to later on see an orthopedic ect..as the ER tapes em up etc…and then later they see the correct doc..as they cant diag cancer in the ER, but want the patient to be aware of something else that MAY be happening…..SO that’s why I decided to do my OWN thing…and made an appt with the same ole orthopedic I always have….he set me up since my hip and back are so bad I cant walk etc.. ugly story..but 2wks ago I had an MRI on my pelvic area…and this past wed I had followup with my ortho to find out NO cancer in my pelvic area ! YEA!!!!

NOW, we are going to be dealing with my spine…as I knew and he told me that a lot of times BC patients the cancer sometimes that “MAY spread goes to hips, like mine and also to the spine”. YES I am scarred to death, as I told myself Long ago I would never go thru surgery again on my back…..but he states that after so many years 25 since that surgery lots of things happen, like between the disc’s theres a liquid in there and it could or may dry up and then you can really be in pain like I am now…..so MAYBE that’s the problem I don’t know. But I go in this coming Wed for this MRI and then on Jan 10th I have a follow up with my orthopedic…

I personally love my orthopedic, he is easy to talk to and he listens intently. He is very calming, and caring type of person and even Frank likes him, plus he is soooo good looking, he is tall dark, olive completed blue eyed Italian man, yes my age…and long ago during my 2nd neck surgery I was in his office finding out I needed my next neck surgery, I cried and cried, he said “Terrie, you know it went well and you did fine after that” I said yea I know that and kept crying, as I had been a single mom for many years, and looked up at him and said , yea the surgery is bad, but the worst is that I hear you got married! I thought you’d wait for me! LOL, he chuckled and gave me a big gentle hug..

So that’s what is going on for me right now..taking it easy or trying to, and thank G*d for Frank, if it wasn’t for him I don’t know what Id do, he has done so much for me, in keeping the house up, laundry up, I try to help fold when they are inside an Im laying in bed or sitting up a bit, and he tries so hard to bring small meals to me as I cant sit too well…I couldn’t ask for a better husband in all the world…and I didn’t even have time or energy to get him a present….as if we need anything we just save and go get it, as I don’t need for anything except to be out of pain…and yes having so many of you rooting me on and thinking n’ saying prayers for me, what more can one ask for?

Love you guys
Hope your holidays go well and may you all have in store a wonderful and healthy new year!
HUGS
Ter

auntgina

Bless you, Ter. Virginia

LuAnnH

Terrie,

You crack me up with the the ortho doc. I didn't see it coming that you were crying about him being married! That was precious!

I hope you and your hubby enjoy your christmas holiday! May it be pain free and enjoyable!

Take care and keep me posted. I look forward to hearing from you again soon!

LuAnn

ravdeb

Hey Ter..I'm all for falling in love with the doctor! Why not! Hey..when I was hospitalized and they were taking blood all the time and I had no more veins..the CUTE resident came in and said I'm gonna take the blood from the...uhm...groin area and I'm like...be my guest! HA!

Ter and everybody on here..have a wonderful, wonderful New Year! Remember..smiling is the best therapy.

Mary58558

Ter,
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. Your doctor does sound dreamy!!! Laugh, Love and Live! Mary

PuppyFive

Ter. I hope You don't mind , But I asked for Prayer for Frank, gotta get Him Moving in the right direction, for the both of You!!! Love talking to You, will send You some mail soon, XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO Puppy ( my new name Puppyfive, worked to hard to get to #5 so I plan on keeping it for ever)

Anonymous

Always thinking of you, Ter! I will email you some pics of Teryn.
I am glad that Frank is there for you!

LuAnnH

Happy New Year Terrie! Hope you enjoy your holiday pain free!

LuAnn

PuppyFive

Hi Sweetie, been having some PC problems, as soon as i get things in order i will e/mail you!!! You know what Iam talking about!!! how is Frank, and Yourself?? Miss You, and can not wait to see those pictures!!! Soon Sweetie, Soon!!!!!! xoxoxoxo Puppy

LuAnnH

Terrie,

How are you? Hope you had a wonderful holiday season! I have finally motivated myself to clean off an old desk and am really getting into my scrapbooking. I have started with a book about me as a baby. My kids will each have a book about them as I move along with my project! Hope you are feeling well!

LuAnn

Ter

Just wanting to wish all of you guys a Happy New year...ours was pretty quiet, which was fine, my son came over and actually the the day before I wanted my mom and son here, so I knew i couldnt do it, too much work for 4 of us so i ordered from our grocery store a whole turkey with the works, and it was already cooked and perfect, and all we had to do was put it the turkey ih oven to warm it for 2 hrs, its was great, we had plastic plates and Frank made the table looks so nice...and my sis sent a small center place from a florist and the company was great, it waas me, Frank, my son, mom and her sis my aunt....we all enjoyed ourself....


Right now Ive been antsy pantsie with waiting for results on my spine nad yea in pain, but resting as all my doc suggested, adn it feels better keepijg up with my meds and Im eating a bit...and yea i lost some more weight....thats ok...

Do you see i have an avitar? I figured it out on the first time and poof there i was..that was last week after a hair cut a week ago aferwords..too short but it will grow...

Getting cold in evenings here, and reading alot and no not doing scrapbooking, the position is the pitts on the back and I am doing what im suppose to do rest....

From now on I dont have to worry too much about eating as i decided it was worth the couple dollars as were eating schwarnns frozen food where they come to you, which saves me as i cant shop....and dh tries to go and get fresh veggies when needed....

Hope your all doing good..

love and hugs
Ter

Ter

Its Friday the 12th and its late "again", been stying up too much..I did have to let you know as i let yu know about my MRI on my pelvis, and it was NO cancer : )...then my ortopedic ordered an MRI of my spine due to all the surguries Ive had in my life, and I know that alot of bc patient the cancer goes to hips as i how have mets in my left hip, But I so haves some good news as he "my orthopedic" ordered an MRI of my spine due to all amy pain, and I waited 2 weeks, first week was due to having itg done , the 2nd my ortho told me he was taking a week of to recoop..so Wed dy and i went in as I for the longes time have been unbearable to live with...well I got my resuls on my spine, NO CANCER in the spine as well, so lots of prayrs were answered...the only thing he found was that i had lots of spots, and ijn them he "they" found 3-4 herniaed disc's in my spine, which is hot good...we are not going o jump to surgn as I am learning to relax and let those minor things go...and doing so I am wearing a corset he had them up for me, boy is it tight... but it relieves quite a bit of pain and some wobbels I have, yes even w/my walker.. Plus I am going to continue as i have for past couple days is take it easy, which i have beeh but NOT the kind i should take....so i keep my sofa set up, hAVe a few books stated..not ready to work on my scrapbooking, but Im not there just yet, I thik I will know when my body is read to sit more..

Mu orthopedic adn i talked alot and he wants to see me in 6 weeks, and to see my onc..ugh, but i asked him what he thought of him and he cant really talk bad about his collegues..but said his bedside manner and attitude really does not work with mine..but he is an excellent onc..but if i wanted to change there is one ther at teh cancer center than my ortho thinks our personalities would work well...and i explained to him that i didnt want to hurt any ones feelings..he explained that some of his pt want 2nd opinions which he feels good about and then thee are some that the personality thing is just one of those hings and not to be worried over it...so i have an appt to see my reg onc on feb 5th, and to take my results to him as my onc has no idea i went ahead of him and overhim, it wasjut something i had to do..and if he doesnt like it then ask him why HE didnt order one, as to me i felt like he was dig without sending me to an ortho...so I over stepped him..too bad if thats all the bad i do then im one lucky lady..

must so as my hip is sore nd i want to go to sleep but wanted you guys to know that for the past 2 days i have been actualy taking care of myself as much as i can, even wih heat pad and herbal wrap, plus you would be happy to hear that my attitude is changing a bit, I had to as i was falling apart, so I do what i CANand when i do whatever its something i can do and i dont do much when i do it...and ive even smiled a few times as taking my meds on time is relly helping, plus the good news helps..sure it can be working somewhere else..but I am trying it not to get me down so bad;...and overall that makes me a happier person..cant say what tomorrow will bring just today..

love n' hug
g'nite
Ter

celia088

Hiya Ter---

I am so glad to hear that you are taking better care of yourself. I know that is hard to do when you are depressed and in so much pain. Gonna try to call you this weekend. I got your beautiful card!!! Thank you so much!! Talk soon!!! xoxoxo

peace and hugs,
celia

PuppyFive

Ter. , Hang in there Sweetie!!! xoxo Praying and Thinking of You Always!! Puppy

PuppyFive

Ter. Always in my prayers!!!! xoxo Puppy

Ter

Hi
Its Sunday and Im laying on sofa, so thats a good one, as I have been in bed all week not being able to move much...Not sure what it is, part of it looks like my RSD has decided to spread to so many parts of my body, tody i can move my fingers...

what the heck is it with this disease, so many women that started out well, "get bc" next thing you know even after they are doing well, their bodies are deterioriating...Petrsonally I am not doing too good with it, about caught my bak on fire with heating pad the other nite...damn! gotta be more careful.....Im beginning to feel like a burdun to Frank, and I cant bear the thought of asking him to do everyrhing, he would and his body just cant do it.... LIke grocery shopping..sure Schwanns is ok at times , but going broke using them, and doing normal grocery shoping shoot I could buy $50 worth and he ends up with !150...not good...he tries...

I guess im just having a pitty party today as i am so sick of being sick, if it isnt one thing, the next day its something else...my feet are so swollen purple/red shinny and i cant barely wear those squishy sockies that are loose, and i have to keep them warm....then i found anothe lump under my arm of my first masct "again"...really scares me, and i hate this sH!! its changing me so much and 2 wks ago i evn started taking vitamins centrum silver...no difference...

hate to bore you anymore....and i know "Janis" in chicagoland, Im not suppose to be here..and I appreciate you telling me that the other night...but i was just laying here. so i will sign off for now, and try to eat something.

sorry for venting.
Ter

VickiTN

Ter,
You have every right to feel the way you do....and please don't apologize for venting....that's what we're here for, sister.

I'm so sorry that you're not doing well right now...I wish so much that I could take your pain away. I hope that you know that I keep you in my daily prayers.

hugs and love to you,
vicki