Ever get so mad, you make yourself nauseous?

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finallyoverit
finallyoverit Member Posts: 382
edited September 2018 in Stage IV/Metastatic Breast Cancer ONLY

Yup.. me, today. I feel completely betrayed by those I felt I could trust. I will let this go eventually, but tonight is not the night. Tonight, I’m pissed as hell!

F cancer and f those who betray someone’s trust. Karma will find you... I just hope I live long enough to see it

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  • bigbhome
    bigbhome Member Posts: 840
    edited September 2018

    Finally over it, I am so sorry that someone has betrayed your trust like that! What an awful feeling!

    Yes, I am like you, the first place I physically feel such powerful emotions is my gut. I get nausea, then cramping, followed by diarrhea. I have been that way my whole life.

    I do believe that what goes around comes around! One day, a few years ago, I saw a horrific video of an accident that was done on purpose. The end result, was a horse that had too be put down and a rider who is paralyzed for life. The driver got off with a slap on the wrist! I became so upset, it was overwhelming! I believe in our Lord and heaven and hell, and I have always pictured St Peter or the Archangel Gabriel, or Jesus standing at the Pearly gates! I picture this person dying and standing before one of them and they say to this man, in a very forbidding voice, " what makes you think you are welcome here? You are not sorry for what you did, only sorry that you got caught" . Then they reach over to a beautiful lever and as they are pulling the lever, they say " you don't belong here" . The lever opens up a trap door to hell and as he falls they say "he is all yours now".

    It might sound hokey, but it makes me feel better! I hope that it brings a smile to your face!

    Claudia

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  • pajim
    pajim Member Posts: 2,785
    edited September 2018

    Finallyoverit, I'm so sorry! One of my old bosses used to say that it's not a secret if more than one person knows, but there's no excuse for betraying your trust by telling things you've said you don't want shared. It's a sad way to learn that you can't trust someone.

    When I get angry it's red haze and fists. I lash out. If you're getting nauseous you're internalizing your anger. Unlike my expression of anger yours will keep you out of jail.

    Karma is a bitch. I like Claudia's approach.

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  • finallyoverit
    finallyoverit Member Posts: 382
    edited September 2018

    Thanks for the support ladies. I'm still pissed as hell. Was driving today and it was on my mind.. was so pissed a few tears fell. I am sooo incredibly hurt and angry. I will make myself let go of this because I'm not burdening myself with it. I did nothing wrong.. aside from trusting. One day I will hand this over to God to make right on my behalf, but today isn't that day either.. I'm still pissed as hell and I'm going to allow myself to feel it for a few days. After that, I'm done with it and with them. Hope it was worth it to them. It's near impossible for me to trust again after something like this. Never again.

    Edited to fix typo

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