Husband Doesn't Understand Stage 4 Emotions

I just turned 40 a couple weeks ago. I've been stage iv for 6 years nearly to the day. I have no children which is why I usually have trouble getting the help I need. Many articles focus on being a mom with cancer. Times are tight financially & my husband thinks I should go back to work. (It's been 6 years.) I live in a VERY small town where the only jobs are sales or driving a truck. I no longer feel relevant. But my problem is trying to get my husband to understand my emotional roller coaster. I just had a good scan, the radiation worked. I'll still get treatment every 3 weeks, no change there. Thing is, I don't want to go back to work. There's always this fear of if I go back & my cancer comes back I'll have wasted time.

Basically, how do I explain my emotional side effects effectively to my husband. He's not the "caregiver" type, he treats me most of the time as though nothing has changed...except my employment. I'm really struggling. I'm hurt, scared, worried I won't live my life, worried my time is almost up...it's been 6 years!