Too scared to function....

I know it's long but if you could please read....I'm so scared.

Hi everyone. I went to to Dr for a regular check up....but was also have some issues with my left breast. Slight pain, not really pain but more of an awareness my breast was there...if that makes sense. Then I was in the shower before the appt and noticed my nipple point just slightly down. When l looked in the mirror and raised my arms, I noticed my skin under the nipple sorta crumple up and the nipple invert. From this moment, I've had a type of sinking feeling that I've never had in my entire 52 years.

Anyway, off I went. She was very pleasant and I felt just toooo nice. She checked the breast and made an appt for the next day for a diagnostic mammo and ultrasound. Still smiling and saying not to worry. Well, this set me into panic mode but I kept it together enough to seem like a normal person, though I wanted to crumble.

She continued with my pelvic and as soon as she looked in, she was surprised to see something on my cervix. At this point, I went into fantasy land and didn't really hear or was able to put her words together to makes sense to me. The words growth, cyst, and polyp came out of her mouth. She couldn't be sure and I sure as hell have no idea what she was talking about. At this point, she sounded like Charlie Browns teacher talking. She got the pap and said the results would be back this week. BUT, she also made another appt for this Friday for another pelvic exam by another gyno.

The diag mammo and ultrasound were last Friday. They found the lump, told me it was not a cyst and due to the change of shape, they were very concerned and that it's a strong possibility for cancer. Biopsy tomorrow, Tuesday and was told I'd know by Thursday or Friday. Why would they tell me about their concern and that it's a strong possibility I would've thought they'd wait to say anything until sure.

And, if the gyno took a Pap smear, wouldn't they wait for it to come back abnormal or cancerous first before making an appt a week later? Did she already know something even without the pap?

I'm sure I would've asked all these questions if I wasn't in shock and I know I'll find out all for sure by the end of the week....but these last few days, I'm a wreck, can't focus and seem to be breaking out in tears for no reason at any time.

I'm so glad I found this site and wish you all the best.

Priscilla

sounds like the docs have it planned out. at least you don't have to wait and worry a long time. from the time I finally found my lump to the doctors office the next day for a regular appointment, to the surgery was only two weeks for me. after the surgery I found out it was stage 4. no tie to worry till I got home and looked up stage 4 breast cancer on google. what a mistake, had me so worried I almost did away with myself. I have been on a pill a day for about 10 months now, and the cancer is fading slowly. this is a much better site than google or others, people with real experience, up to date experience,

I have no advice but I'm sending you hugs and positive thoughts!! The beginning stages are the worst!! Once I had a diagnosis and started treatment I was able to calm down and get ready to fight!!

Hey there:

I just want to reach out and hug you too. Waiting for test results is the most difficult, anxiety producing time of this whole experience.

I can relate to being so afraid that you can't function while you wait, not knowing. Coming here to this site and getting support really helps me. I am so glad you found it.

I think your doctors are moving pretty quickly in the scheme of things. It doesn't make it any easier on you though.

Once you find out what exactly you are dealing with in terms of your health and what treatment plans (if any) are, you will feel better.

Hugs again

wallan

Priscilla, please keep in mind that BC is very treatable. This may very well be just a small bump in the road for you. This is the hardest part, waiting for test results. Once you know what you're dealing with, you'll feel much more in control

Pricilla: I also had a hard time dealing with the waiting, and I understand completely how you feel - how you want to know, but also don't want to know, how everything is different now. I learned yesterday that the results of my biopsy were benign, and I am wishing the same results for you. (Hugs)

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Well, it's breast cancer, IDC. Will find out more particulars today. Calling breast doc this morning and for an added bonus, I also get to today to the gyno this afternoon about my cervix, if find out if that's cancer or not. Good times, good times...

Its gonna be just a fab day.😔☹️😞

Hugs to all.

Hi Priscilla:

Big HUGS to you, my dear! It sucks. I am so sorry. Just know that its treatable and this site is wonderful for information, support, love and encouragement.

As your treatment plan unfolds and you start to be treated, you will feel much better.

wallan

Hi Priscilla,

Just checking in to see how you're doing and to see how the appt with the Gyn went?

Remember, no matter what news you get, the Drs will have a plan, a whole range of very effective treatments and you will get through them and get your life back on track much soon than you expect.

Sending you warm hugs.

Lucky

Wildwoodbaby74, welcome to the BCO Community. What is your situation with breast cancer? How can we help you specifically?

Hi! I totally forgot about this post and website and am so sorry for ignoring everyone.

First, hugs to you all. Then, wow...reading my original post totally took me back to that feeling. Amazing how fast things went, physically and emotionally.

So, to catch up....It was breast cancer, stage 1B....ER/PR positive/HER2 negative. Had a skin saving mastectomy on the left side and tissue expander is in. The cervix issue came out fine....just a polyp so no cancer there.

Seems chemo wasn't necessary from the Oncotype test but have started Tamoxifen. Doing okay but mood swings started kicking in. Dr offered effexor with it, to help with possible side effects but I opted to wait. I wanted to know what side effects were caused by what.

For sure I've got the "rabid dog" side effect...or I could be mistaken for an actress prepping for her role in the remake of The Exorcist! I literally scare myself and have no idea who I will be from one min to the next! So thinking effexor may be worth a try.

Reconstruction in early June then hopefully, life can move on for a while without all this nonstop drama.

Hope you all are well and sorry for not paying attention.

Hello, I am new to this site but following for years....all the time scared myself. Really had to sign up and let it be known that every story rips at me but also shows the strength and love in all of you. I cry inside when I see how the worry from family dogs at you. I have had abnormal mammos for years, but bodybuilding always kept the worry at bay till reasons show up again . I am 46 with hx of lumpy breasts and the latest report was asymmetries with no mass or calcification 😶....what now...what in the world is that? Fatty areas are being looked at it and I am now literally sickened from confusion! Negative for the gene but mom had breast ca...keep thinking why all the issues every mammogram and sono! Waiting for results. Tests were done Friday...breast compression mammogram and sono. I am embarrassed to say I have told no one of my worry....except you all. Really need to get head on straight. Ca is horrible, but women in here are truly superwomen and help me realize ish happens and must be dealt with! Thank you ladies for being you.

MT Woman ....thank you so much for your response! I am truly grateful. Dread that mailbox after long day of work. Awful feeling and how bout at the same time these worries burden you, all kinds of other weird things happening. Rash on the breast, and tingling too. Lol! I am like what next? Wayment....you don't want to know what is next Lol! Feel awful for saying I have death traps sitting on my chest! Thank you again for listening and I will keep talking😳....Big hug👏😇

MtWoman...thank you but I am dreading this. Here at work not sure what will be in that mailbox when I reach home. You are really kind to respond and I already know the been there and done that so you totally understand. As I said you all are very strong, and I as well. The supv in mammo told me by Friday. So I am trying to wait and shut up! Also , I meant to say earlier I am sorry about your experience and joyful a soul like yours is still here to talk about it and help other folks👏😇