Trust?

I am very much a work in progress...will be following your thread, thank you for posting

Hi! I'm new to this site, but not to cancer. I have been a Christian for about 30 years now and according to scripture I'm still human. I think we are all works in progress! The good news is that scripture also tells us that "He is faithful to complete it"! With my first diagnosis, I felt the peace of God pour down over me like a pitcher of water had been poured over my head. As soon as I started thinking, I got angry, sad and then finally came to a place of acceptance. Kind of like the grieving process. I had to let go of what I thought my life would look like. The only thing that brought me to the acceptance phase was God. He was patient until in my mind I pictured His one hand picking me up and putting me in the palm of the His other. With my second diagnosis of mets I was able to get to the acceptance much quicker because I knew where I was. Still in the palm of His hand. There was 8 years between the 2 diagnosis. During that time I realized that I trusted Him much more than ever before. That His plan for my life is perfect. That I wanted to spend every day glorifying God. When we go through hard trials, He always turns things around and allows us to bless others. I have been privileged to walk with, encourage and love other women in my church that were diagnosed with breast cancer. If God asked me if I wanted a "Do over" I would have to say no. It is this trial that brought my faith to another level of trust in the One who made me. The longer you are away from the initial diagnosis, the fear does subside. You won't be thinking about cancer as much. I hope and pray that it doesn't come back for you. But if it does, you will have hope and joy in knowing you are still in the palm of His hand. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me! I look forward to connecting with other Christians as well.