How bad is chemo brain and does it last? Eye problems?

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sos1125
sos1125 Member Posts: 64

Trying to decide whether to get TC x4 and in the process of gathering information and oncologist opinions. I have an Oncotype DX score of 30, so technically in "intermediate" risk of recurrence range, but definitely need to consider the benefits as well as the risks of chemo. One of the hardest side effects for me to contemplate is the damage that may happen to my brain, mainly the long-term damage. So while this probably seems really insensitive, I have to ask... Is there anybody out there who could share their experience re what "chemo brain" feels like and how it worked out for them over the long haul? Did you still feel like yourself during treatment? More importantly, were you able to recover completely? Hopefully some folks made it through without experiencing "chemo brain"? The oncologist I saw yesterday told me something like 5% of people have significant chemo damage that forces them to go on disability. Gave me serious pause. I have come to realize that my identity is very tied into my brain and I wonder if I will lose myself somehow to the mental fog of "chemo brain." I've read in Susan Love's "Breast Book" that they've done imaging of patients' brains post-chemo and they are actually different from a "normal" brain. Scares the bejeebers out of me.

Also, did TC mess up your eyesight? I am pretty nearsighted, wondering what kind of damage occurs. I've only read that sometimes people develop a twitch or get runny eyes, hopefully that all resolves after treatment.

Thanks for any insights.

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  • Sjacobs146
    Sjacobs146 Member Posts: 770
    edited January 2016

    I did not experience chemo brain. I was quite worried about that myself. My hair fell out, I had taste changes, digestive issues (no nausea though), finger and toe nail issues,and I generallly felt like crap during chemo, but I did work FT and missed only 7 days of work.

  • Jackbirdie
    Jackbirdie Member Posts: 4,693
    edited January 2016

    Dear SOS-

    I'm so sorry to meet you this way. I had an Oncotype dx score of 30 also.

    My MO recommended TC X 6. I did it. It wasn't easy, but I did it. I had no nausea to speak of, but did lose my hair (and it's growing back nicely)

    I did have very dry eyes during chemo, especially the first week after an infusion. Drops and gel resolved it

    I had cataracts already starting that my eye dr thought might take years to need sx, but the chemo appears to have accelerated them. I had one surgery last month (easy Peasy and better than new) and the second one is this Friday. I am not worried at all.

    I joined the thread from the March chemo group right before I started. I never had such a wonderful group of people who truly understood what I was going through. There are no words for the love and support I have felt here on bco.

    Naturally, I was terrified of chemo, and in our group we saw firsthand how differently we all reacted. I don't regret doing it.

    As for chemobrain, I believe it is real. I suffered a bit during treatment, but I am 58 and it may have partly been due to age. I tried to stay engaged on these boards, corresponding with family and friends, old and new. Played Scrabble online. I am an avid reader, and I did notice concentration and finishing a book has been hard post-chemo, but it's improving. I honestly don't feel any permanent impairment. I would frankly have rather lost my hair permanently than even a smidgeon of brain power. But that's just me. It didn't happen.

    It's a decision only you can make. And it's possible that some side effects may not appear until years to come. I am prepared to deal with that later if it comes. I personally did not think I could live with myself if I didn't do everything I could.

    As it turns out, I did not tolerate Tamoxifen, and my doctors took me off. Hopefully I will do better with an AI. But it has ocurred to me that if I cannot tolerate HT at all, I will be very glad I had done chemo.

    Sending you a hug at this very difficult, overwhelming, time.

    💞💗💞

  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited January 2016

    I had chemo brain for a while but weirdly when I switched AIs--from Arimadex to Aromasin--I got a lot sharper! And no eye problems but my eyes water more. Could be something other than chemo; maybe the anti-hormonal I'm taking as well.

  • Spookiesmom
    Spookiesmom Member Posts: 9,568
    edited January 2016

    Have you ever "lost" your car keys? Been unable to think of a word? That's how chemo brain was for me. It's real, it can be worse, or none at all. That was the least of my worries, killing ca was tops.

  • sos1125
    sos1125 Member Posts: 64
    edited January 2016

    Thanks, Sjacobs146, it's good to hear that chemo brain doesn't always happen. Did the other side effects resolve (sure hope so)?

  • sos1125
    sos1125 Member Posts: 64
    edited January 2016

    Jackbirdie, I'm 59, so definitely wondering whether my age will predispose me to more cognitive issues. Glad you feel any "chemo brain" is resolving in your case and that there won't be permanent effects. Was very freaked out at the oncologist's "5% have debilitating problems" statistic, but it does occur to me that those folks may have other health issues that exacerbated the brain effects of chemo.

    I've thought the same thing re "what if I can't tolerate the hormone therapy drugs" (which also scare me and I figure those likely harm the brain, too, since they starve cells of estrogen). If I had chemo and radiation done, then at least I would have pared the recurrence risk down some. I really wish there were more studies to prove effectiveness of non-toxic prevention. But with a life-threatening disease it's pretty hard to disregard the medical community's "standard of care."

    Thanks for sharing your experience and for the support, I appreciate it.

  • sos1125
    sos1125 Member Posts: 64
    edited January 2016

    Claireinaz, I'm filing that away re Aromasin helping with chemo brain. I really need to look into the AIs more, I'm not exactly sure why the drug of choice for me (according to original oncologist) is Femara. My PCP said she has a couple of patients on that and they are pretty miserable. Good to hear that switching can resolve at least some of the problem.

    Thanks for the info., I appreciate it.

  • sos1125
    sos1125 Member Posts: 64
    edited January 2016

    Spookiesmom, I definitely want to kill cancer, but I've come to realize in thinking about whether to do chemo that my sense of self is really tied to my brain... so losing brainpower would be devastating. I definitely weigh quality of life into the equation.

    Thanks for weighing in, I appreciate it.

  • Jackbirdie
    Jackbirdie Member Posts: 4,693
    edited January 2016

    I think one of the reasons it was so hard to get the medical community to accept chemo brain at first was the high percentage of women who are around menopause age when they get BC. So they blamed menopause.

    When younger women, (the increase in younger women getting BC is significantly increasing, sadly) men, and other types of cancer/chemo patients began to complain as well, they were forced into looking at it more closely. They now acknowledge it.

    Having said that, it is still possible that some of the effects we notice are in fact menopause, possiblyexacerbated by chemo.

  • muska
    muska Member Posts: 1,195
    edited January 2016

    I think the so-called chemo brain results from a combination of factors including stress of diagnosis and brutal treatments on top of induced menopause, hormonal changes and anxiety. We can't really focus on anything but cancer. Of course little things like keys will be forgotten. We can't remember what the doctor said after the word cancer at the first appointment - and that is before chemo is even mentioned.

    I worked through chemo and am happy I did. Working helped with the anxiety of the diagnosis and kept my brain busy. My work is very detail oriented and requires a lot of concentration. Had no problems with either and was happy to leave cancer thoughts behind for eight hours a day.

    One thing that I noticed though, were dreams. My dreams changed during chemo - both in terms of content and color. That is almost back to what it was before.

  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited January 2016

    sos1125, the arimidex kicked my you-know-what. I did the "can't find the right word" on it and it was awful--I'm a university lecturer and I felt like I looked like a jerk to my undergrads--but what really caused me to switch was the joint pain in my hands, trigger thumbs, and eventually crazy mood swings. I was angry all the time.

    Aromasin is much more gentle for me, causes less bloat, etc. but others have hated it and switched to arimidex, which works great for them. Go figure!

    Claire

  • octogirl
    octogirl Member Posts: 2,804
    edited January 2016

    Here is some recent research:

    http://www.breastcancer.org/research-news/research...

    Personally, while I had moments of forgetfulness, I found tiredness, anxiety and sadness/depression to be much bigger factors in not feeling like myself than the typical 'chemo brain' complaints. I did work all through chemo, only missed about four days of work, in an intellectually challenging job. Some of my most productive days were the three or four days after each treatment, thanks of the steroids...

    But speaking of steroids, my doc tells me that the steroids are actually what causes most post-chemo vision problems, such as cataracts, rather than the chemo itself. Chemo can provide temporary vision issues (blurriness etc) that resolves after chemo. I did and still do use artificial tears frequently, which helps.

    Good luck in your decision;

    Octogirl

  • Hernie
    Hernie Member Posts: 1,016
    edited January 2016

    Katy is a sweetie. Me, not so much. I'm going to be blunt: If you think chemo brain is bad, try brain mets. Try death. Yes, I AM bitter. I had to get that off my chest.

    For an otherwise healthy person, the decision to do chemo is a simple question of risk. It can all be calulated. Ask for your risk of recurrence and risk of death, with and without treatment. And listen to your doctor.

    I heard of a certain movie star who had a BMX to get a better chance of life. She knew it would be painful, but she valued her life. We are ALL in the same boat, we ALL have the same fears, and we ALL deserve to live.

  • Hernie
    Hernie Member Posts: 1,016
    edited January 2016

    PS. Removal of my brain tumor left me with a major speech impediment. It was a small price to pay for my life. Just a thought.

  • SoCalGrl
    SoCalGrl Member Posts: 105
    edited January 2016

    I finished TC x 4 in October and I have to say that while it wasn't exactly the best thing in the world, it really wasn't the hardest. For me it felt like I had the flu for a few days after each treatment. My biggest complaint was that my leg muscles felt weak. Going up and down stairs was difficult - my legs felt like I did 100 squats. Also my eyes started to twitch a bit. It was annoying at best - it didn't impair my vision at all. I'm also nearsighted and went for a baseline visit before starting chemo. Here I am 3 months later and my legs feel fine and my eyes don't twitch. I never had any episodes of chemo brain. The only evidence I have that I went through it is my hair (cold caps failed me.) Chemo is certainly doable. It's no walk in the park, but you can do this. <3

  • sos1125
    sos1125 Member Posts: 64
    edited January 2016

    Jackbirdie, re "it is still possible that some of the effects we notice are in fact menopause, possibly exacerbated by chemo." I'm betting the AIs also play a role in brain issues as they deprive not just cancer cells but also brain cells of estrogen. The oncologist I saw today said really young women (20s) fare pretty well re brain effects of chemo. Very sad to think really young women (or anybody) are dealing with breast cancer.

  • sos1125
    sos1125 Member Posts: 64
    edited January 2016

    Claireinaz, helps to know that if one AI can't be tolerated another one might not be so bad. Glad you found one you can stand. I also work in a communication field and am going to have serious problems if I can't find the words. But I am surely going to have to try the hormone drugs, much as I hate the thought of those.


  • sos1125
    sos1125 Member Posts: 64
    edited January 2016

    Split-bean, I'm sorry you were apparently irked by my question. Seeing what you are dealing with, I can see where you're coming from... but won't apologize for asking as I truly need and value the input and am not finding the decision to do chemo at all "simple," mainly because the risks and benefits can't be accurately calculated.


  • sos1125
    sos1125 Member Posts: 64
    edited January 2016

    SoCalGrl, thanks for sharing your experience, that is definitely encouraging to hear. Really glad you didn't feel chemo brain and that your side effects abated. Very happy for you that you're past all that stuff. Still thinking (probably over-thinking) and agonizing here, but I know I'll be past this phase of the process, soon, too, just need to work through it all.

    Thanks again for the input, I appreciate it.

  • Hernie
    Hernie Member Posts: 1,016
    edited January 2016

    sos, we are here to help each other. I was never irked by you, not one bit. I was open about my feelings because if you are waffling about chemobrain, there are others doing the same and I want to speak to them as well. It is nice to know what chemobrain is like, but I don't want anyone's life to depend on these reviews.

    The risks of side effects, both incidence and severity, are well known and generally uniform between patients, but that does not mean we can predict if you will have any particular SE or how bad it will be.

    The risks of recurrence and DEATH are very individual, based mainly on your tumor, and yes, they are calculated very precisely based on historical data of similar patients. There are several calculators online for you to look at.

    The recommendation of chemo is based on these known numbers. When your risk of recurrence is high, chemo is offered to lower that risk. It is no guarantee, but that's the best they can do. If the risk is low, the MO may give you the choice and then the issue of SE's will come in play. But when high risk of death is present, SE's become insignificant.

    Whereever you lie in the spectrum in risk, please take it seriously. Don't put your life in danger because of inconvenience. Let's look at the big picture.

  • sos1125
    sos1125 Member Posts: 64
    edited January 2016

    Split-bean, thanks for taking the time to clarify. For those of us in the "intermediate" range of the Oncotype DX test, the decision about chemo becomes quite complicated as medical oncologists may "strongly encourage" chemo and yet at the same time they cannot advise what the benefit will be; meanwhile, chemo is basically poison and there are significant long-term risks to consider. I am at the top of the "intermediate" range and have had three opinions re benefit: 2-3%, 2-4%, and "there is no way to calculate benefit accurately, you are in a 'gray area.'" All three oncologists said there is no real data to assess what chemo benefit will be, they are making the best educated guess they can make. The online calculators don't factor in Oncotype DX score, so it's hard to figure how much you can rely on those stats, which give me a much lower recurrence risk. As you indicated, response to chemo and SEs are very much a crapshoot for anyone, so risk vs. benefit is anything but clear, but it's important to think about risk vs. benefit. I'm not talking about "inconvenience," more about potential serious long-term effects.

    Since my tumor size is fairly small, I'm guessing I'm at or near the bottom of the 15-24% recurrence risk Oncotype DX shows on the first page of my report. Who wouldn't like any percentage decrease in recurrence risk, but I want to make an informed choice about my treatment and all of its implications and not just go into chemo in a blind panic and unaware of the risks.

    Some kind soul on this board suggested that I inquire whether CMF would be an option in my case (rather than TC), and oncologist said that could work. Have just begun my research, but so far, CMF seems close in effectiveness and the potential side effects seem less severe. I really appreciate all of the information offered on this board. I know some folks can just take their oncologist's advice right off the bat and be comfortable with that. I have to do my own analysis and look at treatment in a more holistic way. In my experience, cancer docs are laser-focused on cancer and less so on the whole person and the broader implications of treatment choices.

  • sos1125
    sos1125 Member Posts: 64
    edited January 2016

    Supersis, thanks for this information, it's great to get more corroboration that chemo brain can resolve in time.

    Your signature line is heartbreaking. Praying for the recovery of all of the folks dealing with mets. I know new treatments are in the pipeline, can't get here soon enough.

  • sos1125
    sos1125 Member Posts: 64
    edited January 2016

    marieB, thanks for sharing your story. Really hoping there can be some improvement in your situation. Have you investigated accupuncture for the neuropathy?

    What I truly hate is that (at least in my experience) the oncologists tend to soft-peddle and minimize the SEs. Patients really need to go into treatment with their eyes open and should be told about the stats re incidence of neuropathy, permanent hair loss, heart damage and the like, and should be given options if a certain drug combo is not the only alternative. I had to ask about CMF, the option was not offered to me up front.

  • JuniperCat
    JuniperCat Member Posts: 658
    edited March 2016

    Sos1125:

    Hello! I just read one of your posts and am wondering how you are and if you decided to do chemo. I have very similar stats to yours: stage 1 ER+ PR- Her2- IDC. I was told by one MO to do chemo if I wanted toand then by a second MO who said to definitely do chemo. I decided to forgo chemo because of the side effects and risks. I'm going ahead with radiation in a few weeks. I haven't seen too many people on the website with ER+ PR-. Be well!!-JuniperCat

  • sos1125
    sos1125 Member Posts: 64
    edited January 2016

    Hi, JuniperCat, I ultimately decided to skip chemo. Had a pretty confusing situation with my score of 30: first oncologist used a "physician calculator" on the Oncotype DX website and told me my benefit from chemo would be 2-3%; second onc said chemo benefit would be 2-4%; third onc said couldn't calculate benefit, but strongly encouraged chemo. I researched the recommended TC protocol and decided the likely side effects were too severe and I would not do that for a small benefit... But was still afraid about the score of 30. So asked about an older CMF protocol that was slightly less effective (so I figured maybe a 1-3% benefit), but had slightly less severe side effects and was told by all three oncologists that this was possible. But when I stepped back from the fear for a minute, on a gut level I had a problem with using this one test conducted by just this one company that promotes the crap out of their product to the point where you basically cannot find any information on the web that didn't originate from one of their press releases as the sole basis for making a decision to do something as potentially life-altering as chemotherapy. I did do a lot of searching for more information about the test and the basis of the assumptions it uses.

    Eventually I realized/learned the following about the Oncotype DX test:
    1. The patient cohorts they used to come up with the recurrence score charts include people with stages I and II cancer, grades 1-3, and with tumor sizes up to 5cm. So within the category that matches some biological markers of your tumor, there is a wide variation in degree of disease.
    2. Physicians have access to a "Recurrence Score-Pathology-Clinical Calculator" in which they can input patient age, tumor size, tumor grade, type of hormone therapy (tamoxifen or AI, they assume ER+ and node-negative). That's where my oncologists got the 2-3% or 2-4% benefit, because my recurrence risk on tamoxifen is estimated at 11% and on AI at 9%, and chemo is supposed to reduce recurrence risk by around 1/3. Genomic health states that the recurrence score obtained using the calculator is more accurate for the individual patient than using the recurrence score alone or pathology findings alone, however, they also state that the calculator has not been validated according to industry "Clinical Laboratory Improvement Amendments" standards. You can read more about the physician calculators and access the user guide here:
    https://breast-cancer.oncotypedx.com/en-US/Profess...

    I was curious what my 11% recurrence risk on tamoxifen alone would translate into as a recurrence score, and eventually found out that this would put me at a score of 17, or at the top of the "low risk of recurrence" category. Reviewed all of this information with my PCP just to get a reality check, and she agreed that my recurrence risk really isn't as high as the score of 30 implies and it would make no sense to hazard chemo for such a small benefit. So after two excruciating weeks, finally had my answer. Phew. On to radiation therapy, dreading that, but it does appear to offer a clear and significant benefit for the risk involved.

    BTW, while reading Susan Love's "Breast Book" as part of my research on minimizing recurrence risk, found out that a program of pretty moderate/doable regular exercise can reduce recurrence risk by 6% (or more according to some estimates), so I am swapping out exercise for chemo, and very happy to do that. ;o)

  • JuniperCat
    JuniperCat Member Posts: 658
    edited March 2016

    Dear Sos1125: I'm so impressed with your analytical skills and your tenacity! Thank you so much for taking the time to share all of this information. I'm going to go over all of it carefully. Today I decided to forgo chemo because frankly it seems as though the risks outweigh the benefits. It's really amazing how confusing this cancer care maze can be, especially with the Oncotype conundrumthrown in. Like you, I will be going through the six weeks of radiation fairly soon. Please do keep me posted as to your progress! Many hugs!

  • sos1125
    sos1125 Member Posts: 64
    edited January 2016

    JuniperCat, if you would like the calculator run using your stats, don't see why your oncologist couldn't do that. I had two oncologists mention that "it is not validated," however, Genomic Health specifically indicates that the results are more accurate for the individual despite this. I have also read that one of the doctors involved in developing Oncotype DX felt there was some discrepancy within the "intermediate risk" results, I'm guessing that may have been one of the factors that drove the development of the calculator. As you can see in the pie charts in the user guide, when they ran the analysis using patients from their studies, 33% of those moved out of the "intermediate risk" category.

    Not sure whether I'll be getting 3-week or six-week radiation therapy protocol, guess I will find out at my sim next Tuesday. We can do this--hugs right back to you!

  • momand2kids
    momand2kids Member Posts: 1,508
    edited January 2016

    I found that the combination of lupron and letrozole made me far more "fuzzy" than chemo did..... it is hard to tell.... so many things happen at the same time and you are just trying to keep up. I had 4 rounds of A/C and worked throughout and felt reasonable sharp, if not tired. However, when I went on the lupron/letrozole (I was pre meno and could not take tamoxifen) I definitely had a sense of "I have lost my car keys, can't find my car" That has subsided---- although I still always forget where I left the car!!! I had a top notch memory, never had to write anything down. Now, while my long term memory is still excellent, short term is slightly challenging, but only I notice it.... and I write more things down now.... but no one else sees this in me. And I wonder if it is part of getting older (I was 48 at dx). I was in the intermediate range on the oncotype and having chemo cut my recurrence risk in half--it was a no-brainer for me-- but an individual decision for everyone.


    Best of luck

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