STEAM ROOM FOR ANGER

I F-^<#|€G hate cancer!! I F-^<#|€G hate it, hate it, hate it!!!

Cancer does not discriminate. It attacks without regard to age, sex, religion, income, education, or lifestyle. If you haven't had it, your odds of getting it are 50-50; either you will or you won't. Further more, your odds of dying from it are also 50-50; either you will or you won't. No one is immune, unless you already died of something else.

I am so F-^<#|€G angry that there are children who will not be celebrating this holiday with a parent that the greedy disease took from them. I am angry that there are children worried this could be the last holiday they celebrate with their parent because of this disease. I am angry because there are parents who have or will face the unthinkable; the loss of a child to this disease.

While I am very grateful to have excellent health insurance, I am F-^<#|€G angry that because of the greedy cancer b@$+@|} we are struggling financially. After years of financial discipline, our daughter's college fund is depleted and our IRA's are underfunded because it all goes to medical expenses relating to cancer.

I am just F-^<#|€G angry and I'm just F-^<#|€G tired. I might be less angry if I was the only one in my family affected by this disease. I just F-^<#|€G hate that we will not be able to financially help my daughter with college.

I just F-^<#|€G hate this disease.

That is all. Thank you for "listening". You will now be returned to your regularly scheduled program.

I am so sick of hearing people say lifestyle and healthy living will prevent breast cancer Surprise it doesn't .

I agree! Hindsight is 20/20. What about the here and now? Sorry but it's too late

Marijen, I was at a summit conducted by stupidcancer.org and the star of the show was there. I couldn't stay as long but people got to chat with her. The show however is done, it didn't get picked up for another season.

Not surprised Unbreakable, the whining was terminal. A good lesson in how notto drive everyone away.

ronqt1- I hate that you are suffering but glad you are venting. Does that even make sense? {{hugs}} Linda

I'm new to the boards but I'm definitely glad I found this post in the early stages of finding out my diagnosis! I feel like I have a lot to complain about these days so here goes..... (also, nice to meet you ladies... before I unleash the crazy on you all).

First I'd love to talk about my sister who told me how great it is for her that I have BC, now she has someone to put on her t-shirt when she does a BC 5k in the spring. And how this whole BC thing is only an "inconvenience" for me since the diagnosis is so good. Yes it's quite inconvenient to fight off tears everyday, or think about not being there for my toddler next year. I know my chances of a "cure" are excellent but no one truly knows what will happen with cancer. It could be gone or it could kill me in six months. That's an inconvenience if I've ever heard one.

For the people who try to remind me how much worse it could be, and how thankful I should be for what I have, go F yourselves. I know things aren't as bad for me as for other people but they are certainly as bad as they've ever been and I feel I've earned the right to be as miserable as I want for a period of time.

Phew. That's all for now... I have a feeling I'll be back though. Ha.

aquafriday121 I totally agree. I have not even met with the surgeon yet, but was suggested to by the radiologist that it is "stage 2" and I have already received the "well, at least you caught it early, or at least it isn't stage 3, 4". I mean WTF people. Seriously? I'm not even "officially" diagnosed and I'm being told it could be worse and/or that I caught it early? I have no idea if I caught it early, I don't have all the information and facts yet because of the holidays, so F YOU ALL !!! I mean seriously....F YOU ALL to those people!!! How can anyone remotely think it is okay to diminish your diagnosis? I literally had someone respond by saying "it could be worse". Um, really?

I'm angry as hell. Cancer took my father 3 years ago within 4 months of being diagnosed. So, I'm scared as hell no matter what stage, grade, etc. I am with this beast. So, again F YOU ALL to those inconsiderate jerks who respond so poorly.

*whew* that felt good

Kjones13, do you have a nurse/patient navigator that can advocate for you or a social worker that can tell your Onc that you need to be more alert to spend time with your children and therefore need the Ritalin? I am so very sorry that they play God with your meds and are not giving you what you need! That is so not fair. I will keep you in my thoughts but wanted to tell you not to give up and to keep haunting your doctor until they give you the meds you need to function. If they are worried about addiction, that is patently absurd and really F'd up. Hugs dear lady. Keep on calling until they listen!!!!!!!!

I think I would just like to scream so I don't regret writing something, OK? Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm a glass half full person 99% of the time but...recently had my SIL nail me for not attending a party for her to celebrate her 1 year anniversary of sobriety that was hosted by her sister. Never mind that I explained that I had a prior commitment that had been on my calendar for 3 months. Her sister sent me a note to inform me that I had been selfish; that my brother and SIL were hurt that I didn't show up. You can call me a lot of things but selfish isn't one of them; I won't go into the detail but I am a regular volunteer with two local non-profits that I enjoy, have a full-time job, am a single mom of two boys (one still at home), went through cancer diagnosis, treatment and aftermath ON. MY. OWN. 17 year old (at the time) had to step up and manage the household, shopping, yardcare, snow removal, etc...when I couldn't function. Had a strong support system but, no one there at 2am when the ugly beast roars the loudest, no one else covering insurance and financial needs, no one else to care for my boys if I couldn't. I thought it odd that my brother was hurt and thought it was OK to call me selfish...I sort of pushed him to tell me what was really going on. Turns out the family felt like I didn't do enough during the time that my SIL was in treatment, that I marginalized their issues, that I had no compassion and sensitivity to their crisis, that I made my BC a competition...sort of like, my medical issue is bigger than yours so I'm not impressed enough by your alcoholism to care or pay attention to your needs. UGH, her treatment coincided with my major reconstruction surgery (DIEP) and a time when I was just getting to catch my breath after finishing chemo, surgery and rads. Still dealing with the fear of cancer coming back; what would happen to my youngest if something happened to me, juggling strained finances with need to maintain/manage a normal life. And I am suppose to remove those barriers in my own life so that I can pick you up from the mess you made of your own. How dare you say those things to me, how dare you expect me to forego my own fear and concern for my life and that of my children, how dare you think that I marginalize or don't care about others suffering; I am more compassionate and sensitive to others in more ways than I've ever seen from you. How dare you make me defend myself from your accusations. I am angry that what was once a good and loving relationship is now tenuous at best, that anything in my life (good or bad) must take a back seat so that you feel supported and cared for. You have a double standard, the times you've failed me in one way or another were just minor inconveniences, nothing to be reminded of whereas one perceived slight from me and the world as we know it ends. You must be joking! I will not let you take away my pride in survivorship or the struggle to overcome these obstacles, I am a good friend, mother, mentor, daughter, sister and human. I am strong, you are weak and I will not apologize that it is so...