Hello- my firs post, can't be calm:(

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nataly100
nataly100 Member Posts: 3
edited February 2015 in Stage III Breast Cancer

Hi to all the great survivors and thank you all for your help:)

Im recenly finish neoadjuvant chemo and surgury with reconstruction, im 30 years old. Before treatments, we know that

i had 2.5 tumor and 2 lymph node according to all scans (many). I am stage 2a, grade 2....

The pathology come back and my doctors seems to be very happy and optimistic with me and given me a good prognosis.... but im still so

confused and scared to death....

My pathology show: Mucinus carcinoma and dcis....with 2 lymph node from 8 with microscopic cells. no vascular invasion or extracapsular

invasion. 100% er, her2-, pr +. ki67= less than 5% ( in the start was 10%).

The oncologist and surgeon say they were surprised because didnt thougt that the chemo will work so good on me, because of the "not

so aggressive" nature of it.

Im still concerned and my had cant ket down to all this bad thoughts....if it will come back....bad pathology....and all this bad things around.

I just want to be around my little kids another 20 years at least...and many more....

Am i realistic? it can never come back? i just want to know if my pathology is so bad and if my doctors are just calming me....

Thank you very much......


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  • angelia50
    angelia50 Member Posts: 381
    edited February 2015

    my doctor told me they do not have a crystal ball and frankly, they are giving you the best information they have based on the data they have. I do know how you feel, it is scary. Logically, I think, nobody knows if or when they may get cancer initially, just like we don't know if and when ours will return, but that doesn't help me with my fear. My diagnosis was in July of 2014, so I do find that as time goes on, I don't dwell on it as much as I did and I hear of people with far worse things, like a friend has just found out he has ALS, so he knows there is no hope for him. Putting it in that light, at least i have removed what we hope was all of the cancer, so at least I have hope that whatever caused my body not to fight it off before, is gone now and that my body will kick in and do its job in the future.

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  • yogamama
    yogamama Member Posts: 39
    edited February 2015

    nataly100, I'm so sorry you feel so fearful today. No matter what they tell you, I think fear of the unknown is just going to happen. From my own experience, the farther I move away from the treatments, the more moments I have during the day where I'm not consumed by the trauma I've been through. It'll get better. You have to spend a lot of time reminding yourself that you are with your kids NOW and you must make it the best you can for them. I know, easy to say, but hard to do.

    I'm not a doctor, but just based upon the fact that you have no vascular invasion or extra capsular invasion, is a great thing! Take control of those things in your life that you can do to prevent a recurrence like eat a plant-based diet, exercise daily, don't gain weight, lose weight if you are overweight, don't drink alcohol or smoke.

    Get yourself to the Stage II boards with folks in your similar situation, and write often. Lots of ladies here to support you on this journey. I wish you the best send you much love.

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  • nataly100
    nataly100 Member Posts: 3
    edited February 2015

    Thank you dear ladies....i just so scared....

    Did you know woman with a such pathology who survive for many years? its not so badasit seems?

    I know the statistics sais 93% survivol, but it still scared me....

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  • yogamama
    yogamama Member Posts: 39
    edited February 2015

    There's many, many posts of women who have survived for a good long time. I think that many of them have gone on with their lives and don't post as often here, but they are out there! Look for the topic headers of 'survivors 5,10, 15+ years for inspiration. It IS scary! You are allowed to feel that! But, you are here today. Don't let something that may or may not happen in the future take away today from you.

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  • pupfoster1
    pupfoster1 Member Posts: 1,484
    edited February 2015

    Nataly,

    I am so sorry you have had to join us. And OF COURSE you are scared. I would think it would be abnormal NOT to be. I like to tell people just beginning this journey, that finding out you have cancer is being told you HAVE to learn a new language, and WITHOUT a teacher! It's true! So much lingo, so many different scenarios, and each person's cancer is uniquely different. And as such are all treated differently. This is the same with how people cope with the treatments and outcome. Just remember you are NOT a statistic!

    I was ER/PR+ as well with A LOT of node involvement and have been on Tamoxifen for 5 years now. I would be lying if I didn't say I have my ups and downs as some of these ladies can tell you, but it DOES get better with time! Soon there will be a time you might even goes days at a time with out even thinking about cancer! That WILL happen.

    Stay close to us as you need to and ask away. Trust me, no questions are off limits.

    Take care,

    Sharon

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