Waiting to do biopsy on Wednesday

As much as this feels like the ultimate roller coaster ride, your doctor is doing you a favor to get all the experts lined up as fast as possible.  There will be less time between the 'suspect is wrong' point and the time when you know if anything is wrong.  And the less time, the less time to be totally stressed out.  I'm sorry you're going through this as I know what it feels like.  My best advice is to try to take your mind off it whenever you can and be kind to yourself.  Easier said than done, I know. 

Sophie, I have developed a slightly outside-the-box way of thinking about the waiting times... they actually don't have to be stressful, if you can think of each waiting period as a "time out" -- a "vacation" from worry -- because your worry serves no purpose, and instead of thinking obsessively about the "what-ifs" you can decide instead to relax into the knowledge that whatever is happening with your body is just plain happening... and that you are in competent hands, getting the best of care, and right now, just finding out the necessary information to make your choices later. 

Yes, there will be decisions to be made once you know what is up... but RIGHT NOW there is no decision to make.

Right now you might try to just enjoy your life to the fullest. Go see a movie. Go take a walk. Go do ANYTHING that you love to do... bubble bath, candle-light dinner, lunch with girlfriends, where you just have fun and set the worry aside for now.

Some people may say "it's HARD to not worry" -- but honestly, it is just one of your many many many choices. You can choose to worry, or you can read a good book. You can choose to worry, or you can sit in the back yard with the sun on your face and listen to the birds and feel the wind in your hair. You can choose to worry, or you can look up into the night sky and lose yourself in the stars... So many choices other than 'worry'!

Plenty of time for decision making later-- once you know for sure what is happening. 

But "waiting" doesn't have to be "hard" if you can view it from a new perspective -- as a brief respite -- like you have permission to "skip school" for a day or too -- My advice is to 'play hookie' as hard as you can, girlfriend!

Wishing you good news on Wednesday... and remember that you have the power to ask for a second opinion... the first surgeon (if you need one) may not always be the right fit for you. Quick treatment is good -- but you can slow things down if you need to. 

This is your body, and your experience, you can remain in control of your choices.

Linda