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2nd no worries, I feel that is part ofd what I am here for....vent away

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Ok..so I'm a year out from last chemo....last rad was Oct 4, 2013. My question is this: how do I know if I'm cancer free..my MO has never used the letters NED or the word remission!  And I've never had any post treatment scans other than a mammo. I did see in one of my post surgery reports the NED letters but that was it. Just don't know how I can be sure without a scan. Also from reading these boards I get the impression that if it comes back, most times it is not in the breast, so I don't understand the lack of scans.

Yes sas go ahead post it here, I dont mind.

Sas, Beautiful words about spirit. I'd love to see the last part of what you wrote starting with: I believe in our spirit ....and all that was written after those words please put them in the box above with our owls bluebird and the other sayings. Well said Sas. Thank you. 

Sas, it needs the rest of what you wrote, ..."why be human and humane? Why the contact? Why anything, without belief"? Adding these questions that you wrote helps us to ponder, question, consider...it just makes sense, it brings us hope.

You guys have your days and nights totally mixed up!  Why do we even have DAYS, if you are sleeping and can't enjoy them?  I mean nights are meant for sleeping and not partying, and pole dancing and whatever it is you guys are doing.

I think your inner sleep rythem is not working....  You have screwed it up.  Now  for this problem you need some kind of outside intervention....and as soon as I figure out what it is, I will certainly post it!

Oh?  And so miss Nettie, I'm ASSUMING that slipping on flat surfaces was directed at me?  Ha, ha!  But yes, but there WAS a rock in my path... that was my down-fall!  Hah!  

And another thought..... I would quit worrying about ANYthing, unless you're one of those where your body parts start falling off.... I mean like your arm,  or any other significant sign, that you are sick.  It's THEN that you must take action..... but don't worry.

All NED means is that there is No Evidence of Disease....  Now that could change by the week, but we don't worry about that.   OR you could develop a whole menagerie of OTHER things that are even worse!   So just go on your merry way, riding that tractor thing, and not caring about anything except looking up and seeing that sun, and those clouds!  You know what I want to do?  My DD and I want to get together and sometime when it is raining, hold hands, and go running up the sidewalk in the rain!  ! 

I don't CARE if the neighbors think we are nuts!   I just think it would be the sweetest thing!  To do that with her, and laugh our butts off the whole time.

Yesterday I was so damn busy, I could only post in one place....  And THEN, Theresa's Son called last night, and wanted me to go up there and see if there was something else I wanted from their home....   Yes, another St. Francis statue, but I am giving it to DD, and some other things, and this beautiful ceramic Eagle!

But I had the funniest feeling, like they are tearing down these old peoples lives, that they have lived there for over 60 years,  and it was just kind of a sad feeling....Seeing all their "stuff".... Tons of it....  Old slides, projectors, photo albums, and everything they have saved over the years!  All their memories are there, and they are  going to be given away!  ..... gone!  

Sure I know the house will be rented Sept. 1st, but .....  oh damn, it's just so hard to look at it like they will never be there again....  

I know it's because I am older.... because closing down our folks house, my Brother ane I.... and even my Grandma's house....  just didn't have as much meaning....

But  we are all going to go through this....  that's why I just want you all to appreciate what you have while you are "here"....  To love every minute you get, even if it's only another week!    And after that week, reach for another month!   And WHAT will I do when I can't watch the damn chickens?  

MAN, I sound like some Prophet or something....  See?  Sometimes I CAN be serious..... Ha!  

SASS!  I think you were talking in your sleep!   Sometimes the things you and I say can be pretty profound.....  ! 

 Shut up Cammi....  I'm so happy you love your job, and your boss and his pregnant wife, and little Joey, and Katy-kat, and the bed, and your phone, and the carpet.... and ...........................

LittlePaws, how are the Furbies?  

And Blessings!  YES we have brains.... it's just that sometimes we prefer not to use them.... they need their sleep... WHICH I might add, you guys don't DO!

Good Morning ladies

Oh I thank the heavens above for Chevy approving that I like everything that this world holds just for me. After all her sage words re not of that to scare off bad spirits like we thought, but to engage in an upper point of view that she has.

I thought everyone knew about my crazy job---I answer phone and email the jobs to my boss and file in the computer all the info. I don't have to go anywhere or dress up, just might wear fancier nitegowns . LOL I'm sarcastic to my boss and the workers nd I have my own list of how they have to treat me. Like if I get something wrong figure it out u'rselves.  It's my cousin's grandson who happens to live about 1 mile from me and he's adorable, so sweet and handsome--his chrm sells a lot of jobs but he also really knows what he's doing. Very smart. That's it.

I do hope u all have a good day, the weather is all right.

And Sas u are wonderful how u help everyone.

Oh Nettie..... here Cammi wants you to believe she has this phone job!  What it IS, is those 1-900 numbers, where any one call call, and she answers to the best of her ability, and her  expertise as a true  woman of the um...... world, are enjoyed by all!  

So she DOES have a very valuable "job".....   whatever that is.....   and Yes.... a lot of "jobs".....   See?   

Nettie, you are worried, that you are not worried?   Don't worry!   There is nothing to worry about..... If there is, I will let you know, and we will all meet somewhere, and have Margarita's.

Ah, those were the days!  We had a huge garden, mom and I canned or froze everything we could. It's a wonder we didn't can each other. Boy, it sure tasted good in the middle of winter though! People today think we are geniuses for knowing how to do it.