In shock

Went to see oncologist for 3 month check up - all is well!  yeah!!!  

No cancer in the bone of the arm so I am very relieved! Just need to be patient with the healing process.

Morwenna - thinking of you and your Mom.

Take care ladies and hope you are enjoying some special time with your families. I have eaten way more than I ordinarily do and totally different food - back to basics tomorrow!!

Happy belated Easter to everyone.

adagio, that's wonderful news...patience is never my strong suit either. 

edi....you sound marvelous, you truly do. So great to hear the sound of determination and confidence in your words....YEP...you'll get there. 

morwenna....hoping you are taking care and spending some special "family time"....not an easy situation. We all send you hugs.

Dakota....thought of you with the Boston Marathon run this weekend....Boston Strong, eh!

Had a panic attack this weekend due to a skin reaction after the nip recon, but all is well now. Sheesh.....where our minds go sometimes!!!!!

websister...bet you had a lovely time with family...hope your fatigue stayed away so you could truly enjoy yourself.

movie....hope you are well, and getting some help with mom....you are an amazing woman.

liefie....first Easter with the little one....very special....we want PHOTOS!

hugs to all.

Hi Everyone,

I've been reading a lot of the posts and am trying to tell myself how lucky I am but not succeeding today.

I had a regular mammogram April 1st, got called in for a "follow up" April 11th and they got me in that afternoon, biopsy the 15th Told it was cancer the 16th, saw a surgeon the 17th and after a few days to try and take it all in I'm falling apart. (and here I thought I was doing so well!)

This all came after getting a preliminary diagnosis of Lupus two weeks earlier which threw me for a loop. I have an appointment with a specialist on Wednesday to see about that.

I'm lucky in that it the cancer seems to be stage one -ish under 1 1/2 cm, no evidence yet that it's in the nodes, so evidently I am an excellent candidate for lumpectomy with Rads and Arminidex for 5 years but I'm not sure that's what I want to do.

I can also possibly have a lumpectomy etc with a breast reduction as I have large breast (34F) and don't really like them that much and can get an appointment with a plastic surgeon in a couple of weeks for a consult if I want.

Problem is my gut is yelling for me to just have both removed, it was what I first thought and after days of research and having other less drastic options I still feel I just want them gone. My big concern is dealing emotionally with the scars long term I'm not sure if I can cope with seeing them every day and regretting the decision as there's no going back if they're both gone.

I had a cyst removed 12 years ago and it was the last straw in an eighteen year marriage, he walked out, (I know that still haunts me) so it's just me to consider now when making the decision. My kids are grown, I'm self employed and can take whatever time off I need, within reason anyway (I do know how lucky I am in so many ways) and I have way more options than most (assuming nothing else shows up after surgery)

Any one got any suggestions or thoughts ?

hello sweetie, this the beginning and I and most of us felt what you are feeling now, but this is a great support group here and we will help get you thru alll of thru all of this, I am a 20 yr Survivor(Praise GOD) and I got my cry out and then decided to fight. With support and lots of Positive thinking and HOPE, as I did we can make it thru. Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!msphil(idc,stage2, 0/3 nodes,L mast, chemo and rads and 5 yrs on tamoxifen) 

For the Alberta gals.....spring is officially here!!! (ignore the weather forecast for later this week).....I have found wild prairie crocus in bloom in Okotoks!!!!

Thank you for all the lovely thoughts. I had the MRI yesterday and it was a nightmare. Because I am on narcotics (for arthritis and degenerative disc disease) they would only give me 5mg Valium for claustrophobia. I can't raise my arm over my head because my shoulder is so bad, so I tried it down to the side. They slid me in and I panicked. Get me out! They pulled me out. I can't handle being restrained and having my arm down where I couldn't move it just set me off. They sat me in a chair and brought me another half a Valium. I sat there looking at that dadratted machine, tears streaming down my face, while it took effect, and I figured I could do it if my arm was free and I turned my head to the side instead of looking down. So we forced my arm up and for the next 20 minutes I just lay there trying to get through it while my shoulder was screaming at me. The most excruciating and humiliating experience of my life. They called yesterday afternoon to tell me there were no other tumors in either breast but there are more lymph nodes than just the sentinel.

Oops, I missed an entire page of posts! Welcome sal57 and coolhart. 

Sal…you have a big decision. But you have time to consider your options. I had a double MX after new primary in my right breast. I do not regret my decision. Sure there are scars, but my PS did a much better job than my general surgeon. My situation is I just never wanted to see another mammogram appointment…but now I have CT scans…Whoopee! Try to make a decision that will give you the most reassurance, medically and emotionally. (((HUGS)))

Edi - I had my last radiation on April 23rd, 2013 - and I ask myself the same question - where did that year go? I guess if it went by quickly, that is a good thing!! I am going for my 2nd haircut next week - thinking this may be the end of the chemo curl when they cut all the curls off! I have actually loved having the curls and I will miss them greatly.  I just need to get this arm and shoulder working again after my fall - so I am going to do physio again, and hopefully it will work better this time. I got my eye measured in preparation for the cataract removal, but unfortunately it won't happen until the end of the year, so I can forget about that for a while - unless there is a cancellation! Glad your energy levels are good - too bad about the nails - have you tried taking extra calcium or silica to help with them?

mo, I am so sorry to hear about mom. God bless. Prayers to you and your family. 

Mo, so glad you got to say good bye to your mom. What a good decision to go there, and it all worked out. Big hugs to you and your family!

Welcome to the new ones here. This is a place where you will find comfort, and a listening ear from people who get it because they've all been there. Magdalene, keep us posted.

My Easter weekend was really wonderful. On Monday when I had to say good bye to little Emily my tears flowed freely. Cannot believe that I have fallen in love so totally with that sweet baby. She's smiling now, and beginning to respond - we are all spellbound. My youngest son held her in his arms Friday night the whole time while she slept, and would not let her go. Even the uncles are charmed and mesmerized - lol.

Nihahi, how are you doing? Things beginning to look better?

Adagio, hopefully physio will help a lot to make that arm and shoulder better. Yes, those chemo curls are good. Lost mine long ago. It is a learning curve to be able to do one's hair again. My hair always had lots of body, but now it does not. The flat look better come back soon . . .lol.

 I'm not posting so much any more, but reading your posts every day. All the best to each and every one here!

Morwenna, no words can ease your sorrow but it was so lovely that you were there. Safe journey home.X

Liefie, little Em is such a cutie 😊 no wonder you cried, she is casting her spell over the men already ! X

Nihahi, are you feeling better ? X

Adagio, after hair cut yesterday think remnants of curls ended up on floor 😢 came home popped in some Velcro rollers, by the time I went out bubbly curls again 😁 like you I loved them.Only took  few minutes and I had lots of compliments. Happy anniversary to you too. Will start trying to strengthen nails next x

Off to help in charity shop, sun is shining so don't feel like it at all 😕

Love to all, must dash off and get out of PJ's.

Oh Morwenna, I am so sorry to hear about your mom, but it was good you got to be there for her last breath. 

My mom died at 12:30 in the morning, waking me up half a city away. I had left her only hours before, and she was expected to last another couple of days. The phone call came shortly after, and I drove over to the nursing home. When I arrived she had the most beatific smile on her face, and not a wrinkle anywhere. (She was 85.)

I got a call yesterday morning from my son, telling me that his adoptive mother passed away in the night, from cancer. There is no way to describe the grief. I asked if I could do anything for him; he replied, "Stay alive." So that's the plan.

I placed him for adoption in 1970 at the age of 6 weeks; we have been reunited since 2005. I love him so much it hurts sometimes, and knowing he is hurting is just horrible.

Magdalene, BIG HUGS to you. I cannot begin to imagine what it must feel like to give your baby up for adoption at 6 weeks, but you so obviously put his well being above your own, an act of total unselfish love, and for that I salute you. So glad you have your son in your life again!

Hubs and I last night at a 50's birthday party. False lashes, plastic Walmart jewellery, and wigs - what fun!

hi ,

Hope you are all enjoying your weekend. Sunny here  DH sawing and hammering out in the garden, he is making me a " squatty potty " no laughing ladies. I read the reviews on the internet and as they are pretty darned expensive  He has decided to make me one. After my children were born I have always had problems going to the bathroom TMI but this will help and I thought he would just roll eyes up to heaven and laugh but no !! He is designing one and making it from some of the wood he has stacked in the shed.It helps you go in the way nature intended, so will let you know how it goes ha ha.if you google it you will see I am not completely "potty" video on you tube too. Designed by a lovely man in Utah.

Liefie, LOVE the pics, Emily is adorable and you two looked amazing. 

Magdalene, hope your DH is coping.

Morwenna, you too.

Quick question ? Boob that had rads is still painful, odd shooting pain which takes my breath away. Also weariness back and won't lift. Just feeling bit cheesed off thought that after a year things would be getting a bit better.

Sorry, love to all x