Micro-invasion and future possibilities

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percy4
percy4 Member Posts: 477

Am feeling really stressed about the micro-invasion.  I understand it should change my prognosis almost not at all.  Still I have (made the mistake of?) been reading through other catagories on the forum here, and am seeing women diagnosed years ago with a micro within DCIS, treated, and now have a stage 4 cancer.  How does that happen?  Still concerned about them not doing a sentinal node biopsy.  And do not understand the node thing, anyway.  Get that a positive node means it went outside the breast.  But.  If it's in the node, is it stopped there, as the node is a filter for holding/stopping these things, or does it mean it may have gone on elsewhere before being removed in lumpectomy?  Does not removing a positive SLN (or poss. other affected nodes) mean the cancer in that node, left there, can travel from the node into the general system, or does it stay in the node by definition?  RO says incidental radiation when I get rads on breast would likely eradicate cancer in the node if it's just in the one, presuming they don't do the SNB.  They're telling me the only SNB benefit would be deciding whether to do chemo, and they wouln't do that anyway for a micro.  Why not, especially if micro turns out to be HER2+ (pending)?  No one with a micro here seems to have skipped the SNB; did you get lymphedema, how big, how disabling?  These are all serious decisions.  Also saw under another catagory a woman who went to Dr. Lagios (no one is perfect) 15 years ago, he said what the docs had thought was a micro wasn't, and now she has stage 4.  How do you go from micro stage 1A to a stage 4, if it's the same cancer?   Must that have been a different, or more, missed cancer originally? And not understanding how there can be, in my case, a micro in a 4mm area of no high-grade DCIS with no necrosis.  Unusal, but possible?   My elbows have been hurting 4 mo., thought it was tendinitis from waitressing (and when I move the soft tissue away from the bone and just feel the bone, it doesn't hurt, so it probably is) , but knowing I had even a small invasive cancer for I don't know how long, I'm now worried about everything.  Doc says not possible it's connected.  I'm not feeling good about things; getting a little unsteady, here.  And it's my birthday Christmas Eve.  Lots of stuff, here, I know, but  It's getting to me, a lot.

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  • percy4
    percy4 Member Posts: 477
    edited December 2013

    Also, they're telling me they think I've had this good-kind DCIS just 6-12 mo.  Thought it took years for a micro to develop in DCIS.  How did that happen, then?  I think I need some answers here, and also some talking down.  Please. - P.

  • Beesie
    Beesie Member Posts: 12,240
    edited December 2013

    Take a deep breath.  Many deep breaths.

    Can DCIS-Mi develop into mets?  Yes, that can happen.  A microinvasion is invasive cancer, and invasive cancer cells have the potential to move into the body, either through the nodes or through the vascular system (the blood stream).  So it's possible.  But the risk is only about 1%.  And in fact the long-term survival rate for DCIS-Mi is only 1% lower than the long term survival rate for pure DCIS.  The survival rate for both is in the high 90% range (97% - 99%).

    You have to be careful when you read this board because a lot of the case history that you read is not accurate.  Someone might say that they had a diagnosis of DCIS and then went on to develop mets. In fact a lot of people say that. But when you dig into it, you realize that it was only their initial biopsy that showed DCIS but then they had surgery that uncovered a significant amount of invasive cancer and maybe even positive nodes.  So DCIS was a preliminary diagnosis only and in fact right from the start they were known to have invasive cancer.  Or perhaps it's a situation where someone had an initial diagnosis of DCIS but then sometime later had an invasive recurrence.  At that point, they had invasive cancer, not DCIS.  Another thing that often happens is that women are diagnosed with a combination of DCIS and IDC (very common) and yet they state their diagnosis to be DCIS. The giveaway might be if they say they had chemo, or if they list their diagnosis as being "DCIS Stage II" (anything other than Stage 0). 

    Those are examples of what you see here every day with DCIS, and the same is true when it comes to DCIS-Mi.  A microinvasion technically is an invasive cancer that is no more than 1mm in size, but the term "microinvasion" is used very loosely around here - I've seen women with 5mm or 8mm invasive tumors say that they have just a "microinvasion".  Or again, there are cases where someone's biopsy showed DCIS-Mi but their surgery uncovered more invasive cancer, yet they state their diagnosis to be DCIS-Mi.  

    It's hard to tell someone that they don't understand their own diagnosis, but the fact is that a lot of people don't understand their own diagnosis, or at least don't communicate it clearly.  So while I know that there are a couple of cases here where women with microinvasions have advanced to Stage IV, most of the situations that you read about aren't stated accurately.

    Now, to some of your questions:

    "If it's in the node, is it stopped there, as the node is a filter for
    holding/stopping these things, or does it mean it may have gone on
    elsewhere before being removed in lumpectomy?
    "  It's impossible to know.  However if cancer cells have entered no more than 2 or 3 nodes, the cancer is still considered early stage and the survival rate is high.  However it's important to note that often chemo is often prescribed in these types of cases.  The role of chemo is to track down any cancer cells that might have progressed into the body and kill off those cells before they can take hold and develop into mets.

    "Does not removing a positive SLN (or poss. other affected nodes) mean
    the cancer in that node, left there, can travel from the node into the
    general system, or does it stay in the node by definition? RO says
    incidental radiation when I get rads on breast would likely eradicate
    cancer in the node if it's just in the one, presuming they don't do the
    SNB.
    "   If there are cancer cells in a node, they might stay put, or they might not.  My understanding is that rads given to the nodes is effective at killing off rogue cancer cells that might be in the nodes - but of course there is no guarantee. 

    "They're telling me the only SNB benefit would be deciding whether
    to do chemo, and they wouln't do that anyway for a micro. Why not,
    especially if micro turns out to be HER2+ (pending)
    "   With just a microinvasion alone, whether it's HER2+ or not, you won't get chemo. That's true.  However if you have positive nodes in addition to the microinvasion, and particularly if you have a positive node and the cancer is HER2+, then chemo likely would be prescribed.  So I don't understand the rationale of your doctors on this one. 

    "Also saw under another catagory a woman who went to Dr. Lagios (no one
    is perfect) 15 years ago, he said what the docs had thought was a micro
    wasn't, and now she has stage 4. How do you go from micro stage 1A to a
    stage 4, if it's the same cancer? Must that have been a different, or
    more, missed cancer originally?
    "  Any of those things could have happened. This could be a case where the individual did have pure DCIS but later developed an invasive recurrence.  Or she might have had pure DCIS but then she developed another primary breast cancer (an invasive cancer) sometime later and this second cancer caused the mets.  Or Dr. Lagios might have been wrong and she did have a microinvasion.  Stage IA can progress to become Stage IV.... any invasive cancer can spread into the body and become Stage IV.  But that's back to the 1% risk that I mentioned right at the start.  Stage IA T1mi has approx. a 1% chance of developing into Stage IV mets.  There is no way to know what really happened without questioning the individual, and even then, you might not get all the right or relevant facts. 

    "And not understanding how there can be, in my case, a micro in a 4mm
    area of no high-grade DCIS with no necrosis. Unusal, but possible?
    "  Yes, unusual but possible. "Also, they're telling me they think I've had this good-kind DCIS just
    6-12 mo. Thought it took years for a micro to develop in DCIS. How did
    that happen, then?
    "  One of the big mysteries is why some DCIS converts almost immediately to become IDC and develops
    from that point on as IDC, while other DCIS develops and spreads within the ducts as DCIS
    and never becomes invasive, or perhaps just a small amount of cancer breaks through the duct after many years and a microinvasion develops. 

    Approx. 90% of IDC starts as DCIS. In most cases of
    IDC, whatever the grade, some amount of DCIS is also found. Usually the DCIS is the same grade, but not always. Most often when the diagnosis is IDC, what's found is just a
    very small amount of DCIS mixed in with a much larger amount of IDC. So in
    these cases it would appear that the DCIS broke through the duct to become IDC very early on, and at that point the DCIS stopped developing
    within the ducts and only the IDC cells continued to multiply and spread.  Percy, this might be what would have happened in your case, had your cancer not been caught when it was.

    Then there are cases like mine, where a
    very aggressive DCIS spreads throughout the ductal
    system for years, and at some point in just one area a small amount of
    the DCIS breaks through the duct wall and becomes IDC. Once my microinvasion developed, if I hadn't had surgery, would I have developed a lot more IDC?  Or would my cancer have continued to develop as DCIS, as it likely had for years, with just that one tiny microinvasion?  

    So those are two completely different models that both result in a diagnosis that includes a combination of both DCIS and IDC.  Both start as DCIS, but in one case the IDC takes over almost immediately and becomes dominant, and in the other case the DCIS always remains dominant.  When a biopsy diagnosis is DCIS, we assume it's the second scenario.  But sometimes it's not; sometimes it turns out to be a case of IDC with just a small amount of DCIS.  If your cancer had not been caught when it was, how would it have developed?  Would it have become predominantly IDC, or would it have remained predominantly DCIS? I don't think there is any way to know.

    "My elbows have been hurting 4 mo., thought it was tendinitis from
    waitressing (and when I move the soft tissue away from the bone and just
    feel the bone, it doesn't hurt, so it probably is) , but knowing I had
    even a small invasive cancer for I don't know how long, I'm now worried
    about everything.
    "  It sounds like tendinitis.  But it's normal to worry about everything.  I remember after I was diagnosed, I started to notice every ache and pain and I immediately worried that it might be mets.  And every time I got a headache... it was mets!  Honestly, it took me about 9 months before I stopped thinking that way.  I clearly remember that there was one day when I had a headache, I took an Aspirin and later that day, after the headache was gone, I realized that I hadn't once thought "mets!"  That's when I knew that I was putting my diagnosis behind me.  It was a big day!  Over those 9 months or so, I found that I couldn't stop the thoughts and worries from entering my mind, but as soon as I was conscious of the thoughts, I would figuratively give myself a little slap upside the head and remind myself that it was just the fear talking and it was silly to have these fears. I got really good at talking myself down within a couple of minutes. 

    As for the SNB, I am of the belief that removing lymph nodes unnecessarily isn't a good thing to do.  Why put yourself at risk of lymphedema, and put yourself though all the precautions that you may want to take for the rest of your life (no blood draws or needles on that arm, for example) if there is no reason?  Personally, I would not have an SNB if I was having a lumpectomy for DCIS.  I also would not have an SNB if I was having a prophylactic MX.  But your case is different.  With a microinvasion, you have invasive cancer and that means you could have nodal involvement.  It's not likely, but it's possible and it would change your diagnosis and it would change your treatment.  I had a microinvasion, and I had the SNB. My doctor was insistent on it.  Knowing my nodes were clear provided me with tremendous reassurance - with that news, I knew that my prognosis was virtually the same as it would have been if I'd had pure DCIS.  You are very stressed about the microinvasion and I suspect that the recommendation of your doctors that you not have the SNB is adding to your stress, because it leaves some questions unanswered.  Their recommendation is unusual, and I wonder if what might be behind it is that they question the pathology.  Perhaps they think that the microinvasion might not be a real microinvasion, but is more likely to be displaced cells.  If that were the case, I could understand the recommendation.  Otherwise, honestly, I don't.

    Edited for a typo only.

  • percy4
    percy4 Member Posts: 477
    edited December 2013

    Thank you very much.  Very much.  Yes; the uncertainty about the SNB is probably the main thing behind all this stress.  First pathologist wasn't sure, had it checked with 2nd pathologist; they said micro-invasion, 1mm. at the longest side.  It is now being reviewed by a third pathologist with my HMO, also for ER status and HER2 status.  As soon as they are done, I am forwarding it to Dr. Lagios.  Am presuming I should probably be satisfied with whatever 2 out of 3 of them say about the micro.  If 2 say micro (unless Dr. Lagios can give a really good reason why it isn't), I think I will insist on the SNB.  As 2 docs have said not necessary, this will disturb them, and put off radiation, they said 6 weeks after SNB (will be 10-11 weeks after lumpectomy by then, to start rads).  Radiation oncologist says that's a bit long, but probably OK if needed to get all the info.  He's, ironically, the one surprised at no SNB, in spite of the breast surgeon and the MO saying not needed.  When you say displaced cells.  Just want to point out that the micro was found with at least 4mm margins all around, so unless she was cutting all through the lumpectomy (they don't, do they?) the cells could not have been displaced during the lumpectomy, but only during the biopsy, the site of which was recorded as being in my lump sample.  Can cells be displaced by biopsy?  My original biopsy path had suspected a possible micro, and that was ruled out by 2nd pathologist, who said "the atypical focus noted appears to have been traumatically introduced into the tissue during biopsy".  Of course, since that was the biopsy sample and is gone, it's not the same one as this supposed micro.  If they suspect displaced cells and not maybe micro, it does not say that in the report.  Do they communicate with each other about ideas not in the report?  Can fibrocystic changes (as noted?) look like a micro?  Thank you so much, Beesie.  You're very right about how I'm feeling.  I need all bases covered, and the SNB feels like a loose cannon.  Did you get lymphedema?  I know it's less common with SNB; was wondering if it is also less severe, usually, if you do get it, than with the old node removal way.  Many thanks.

  • ballet12
    ballet12 Member Posts: 981
    edited December 2013

    Hi Percy, of course Beesie (and you have covered all of the bases.)  I just want to make one comment.  You said that the RO mentioned that incidental radiation would get to the nodes during radiation.  Beesie commented that radiation to the nodes (axillary area) gets at nodal involvement.  That is true, but what the RO said is "incidental radiation".  I work in a related medical field, and the term incidental  implies that radiation to the breast would incidentally find it's way to the node (s) and irradicate (irradiate) the problem.  I would definitely ask about that.  It seems that they wouldn't have a plan to irradiate the area with the nodes, but the radiation would possibly touch on that area.  I was told that radiation is very very carefully mapped to only get the area in question (the breast).  Yes, sometimes there can be some stray events (mainly affecting the areas near or under the breast, such as a tiny area of the lung..very very, very small effect).  They do SEPARATE mapping to prepare to treat the axilla, and that area is separately treated, which just usually isn't done with DCIS.  I agree with you and Beesie that you have stress regarding their desire to skip the SNB, and it is legitimate stress (not you overreacting). Perhaps you can get the "team" to have a meeting to discuss your treatment plan, with your input included.

    About those women with DCIS going on to Stage IV; again, Beesie covered it really well.  I just want to add that sometimes people do not do the full recommended treatment plan, and potentially put themselves at risk for a bad outcome later.  Mostly, as Beesie noted, it happens when there is a recurrence which is invasive, and then that recurrence is found to metastasize.  I am not passing judgment on people,  because I, myself, have not yet begun hormonal treatments (Tamoxifen, AI's) because of legitmate concerns about side effects. 

  • Beesie
    Beesie Member Posts: 12,240
    edited December 2013

    ballet, I'm really glad you provided the additional info about rads to the nodes.  I never had rads so my knowledge in this area is pretty superficial.  I know that when someone is node positive, they will sometimes get rads that is targeted specifically at the nodes.  I also know that there can be incidential radiation that hits the nodes, but I don't know if that would be considered effective treatment if someone is node positive.  So I appreciate that you provided clarity about the difference between rads to the nodes and incidental radiation that might hit the nodes from breast rads.

    Percy, no, I have not developed lymphedema.  Hopefully I never will.  Most often lymphedema develops within a short time after surgery (the first few months, I believe) but it can develop any time during your life once your lymphatic system has been compromised.  So I remain relatively diligent - I don't allow blood draws or blood pressure on my BC side arm, and I immediately address any cuts on my hand that could get infected. I'm often getting little nicks and cuts; on my other hand, I usually just leave any cuts uncovered and let them heal naturally.  But on my BC side hand, I always put on the Neosporin and a bandaid.  And if I'm doing gardening or cleaning or something like that, I try to remember to always wear a glove. Some women don't take any precautions; others take more. That's the level I'm comfortable with.

    As for the possibility of your microinvasion being displaced cells, that could happen either with a biopsy needle or with a surgical instrument.  If the cells found outside the duct were in or near the needle tract, that would suggest displacement during the biopsy.  But if that were the case, I would think the pathologist would have been able to tell (I'd think the needle tract would be evident under a microscope). The other possibility is that during surgery, a few cancer cells might have dropped from the scalpel onto the breast tissue, or the scalpel might have brushed along the breast tissue and left a few cancer cells behind.  Given the small size of your DCIS, it seems unlikely that a millimeter area of cancer cells could be accidently displaced - so I'd guess that the odds of this happening are low - but stranger things have happened.  It is very interesting that your biopsy sample also included a suspected microinvasion.  What are the odds that your biopsy would have left behind two areas of displaced cells, one found in the biopsy sample and one found in the surgery sample?  Or if not that, what are the odds that both your biopsy and your surgery would result in displaced cells?  

    This is just a layperson's opinion, but it's seeming more likely to me that you perhaps had one of those cases where the cancer starts as DCIS but almost immediately transitions to become IDC, and then develops as IDC from there.  You were just incredibly lucky that it was all found right at the beginning of the process, when there was just 1mm of IDC.  In another year, maybe you would have had that same 4mm area of DCIS, but a larger area of IDC.  Of course, that's totally speculation on my part.  Amateur, non-medically based speculation!

  • percy4
    percy4 Member Posts: 477
    edited December 2013

    Thanks again, and thanks to ballet.  I am going to appreciate the fact that I was very lucky to have caught this cancer now.  I am not pleased at the conflicting recommendations at my HMO about mammos.  At my annual GYN visit in 2012, my doc said "don't forget your mammogram". It had been almost a year.  But in my reminder for things area on my receipt, it said next mammo was due 8-13 (the 2-year recommendation).  I let it go till JUST after that, as that's what it said, and also no BC (or any cancer) in my family.  Now I regret not doing it at one year.  Maybe micro was not there, then.  They say it wouldn't have mattered, as, and I'm repeating now, they feel calcs  and DCIS had been there to see on mammo only 6-12 mo.  How they know this, I don't know.  I will say that the fact that my micro appeared so soon after DCIS (especially if it's assessed to be HER2+) makes me want the SNB even more.  Wouldn't you agree, if the invasive cancer was aggressive enough to be there so soon after DCIS?  A good reason to present to them regarding my desire for a SNB.  It also makes me more afraid that the invasive cancer may have spread to my body while it was there.  If it did, must that show in a SNB?  Must it be in the nodes first before the general system, or can it skip the nodes and go right to other areas of the body?  If it can, and it was so fast invading in the DCIS, I don't suppose I can ask for chemo (not that I'd like it) if the node is clear, can I?

  • percy4
    percy4 Member Posts: 477
    edited December 2013

    I feel like this has become my whole life, this tiny area.  And, until it's all been addressed properly, it is my whole life right now.  Even though I really can't afford to not take care of other, basic, things in life (which I can't, in my situation, till this is finished).  I will be WAY behind, even more than now, in a few months.  But there possibly could be no life if this is not all done right, now.

  • percy4
    percy4 Member Posts: 477
    edited December 2013

    Beesie; I agree it would be strange to have 2 areas of displaced cells both from the biopsy needle.  On the other hand, maybe the technique of the radiologist doing the stereotactic lent itself to displacement.  As you said before, if displacement was not suspected, why would both surgeon and MO tell me to skip the SNB?  Asking them their deeper motives is not going to result in a good Dr.-patient rapport for them, I'm pretty sure of that.  Ah, how to be proactive, frightened and diplomatic all at the same time!

  • percy4
    percy4 Member Posts: 477
    edited December 2013

    I told my daughter that all I really want from her for my Bdy/Christmas is a firm promise that she will get yearly mammos without fail, no matter what (she's about to be 40).  Especially now that I've had this.

  • ballet12
    ballet12 Member Posts: 981
    edited December 2013

    Hi Percy, if the RO thinks that SNB is a good idea, could you ask him/her to discuss this with the rest of the team?  I would also go to the National Cancer Care Network Guidelines (as provided by Beesie) and review the required treatment for microinvasion, as well as the 10 percent chance of micrometastasis to the nodes, and present the data to the docs.  They should be pretty tough, and there's nothing about your questions that seem in any way crazy, neurotic, etc., especially if backed up by data.

    About whether cancer can spread elsewhere without invading the nodes, the answer, unfortunately, is yes.

    Is all of this likely to be happening to you, not at all.  You just need the reassurance that the nodes are negative.


  • percy4
    percy4 Member Posts: 477
    edited December 2013

    Will do.  It's just really hard to be told I can skip this.  Wish they'd left me no choice but to do it, as is usual, because there's only a 10% chance of nodal involvement, and I'm inviting lymphedema forever, which is no small thing at all.  However, if it's between a 10% chance of lymphedema and a 10% chance of invasive cancer in the node, then it's really a no-brainer, isn't it?

  • percy4
    percy4 Member Posts: 477
    edited December 2013

    Of course, the first step is to make sure I really do have a micro-invasion.  Though it looks like it, am not trusting much right now; will determine this through next 2 path reports.  One step at a time.  Being your own advocate is a full-time job.  What happens to women who just "go along"?  Luck?

  • ballet12
    ballet12 Member Posts: 981
    edited December 2013

    Percy,  when things are straightforward, at most one second opinion is necessary.  When you are dealing with these tiny amounts of tissue, and some of the confusing statements made on path reports, then the second and maybe third opinions are necessary.  Even with all that, with certain aspects of your treatment, you are going to end up just going with it.  It's very stressful to question absolutely everything. Like when they told me they might "nick" the lungs with the radiation to the right breast, and it might show up as fibrosis on an xray, I just said that this is minor collateral damage and I'm going to just go with it.  I haven't had any problems, and my lung function appears to be quite good (really excellent) almost a year later.  My RO is the best of the best.  Sometimes her residents don't state things as accurately as she does, so I do, sometimes, reiterate to her what they say to me, just to be sure it is accurate.

    About the risk of lymphedema, that's a really scary thing, no doubt, but you'll have to go with the risk, and use the precautions.


  • percy4
    percy4 Member Posts: 477
    edited December 2013

    Thank you.  Yes, I will have to manage the lymphedema risk.  Still, as I said, compared to the 10% chance of invasive cancer in the nodes, it's a no-brainer.  Amazing, and wonderful, how going over things with the women here clarifies the mind.  I'm very lucky to have this place to come to.

  • percy4
    percy4 Member Posts: 477
    edited December 2013

    It is difficult that every decision has benefits/risks.  But, I agree with you, usually benefits outweigh risks, and you have to go along.  For instance, my RO said that as a former (not heavy) smoker, my lung cancer risk now is probably about 4 in 1000.  After radiation to (irradiated part of) the breast it's 3 times that, so now my lung cancer risk would be 12 in 1000.  A risk, but still worth it.  We just don't normally have to calculate these risks in life.  But maybe they're really happening all the time.  Like, if I drive longer distances to commute, my chance of a car accident is this much more, if I do this or that, my chance of whatever is that much more.  From this, I am getting, after much questioning, that what I need to deal with is this cancer, at this time, and not an imagined scenario in the future.  This may be really life-changing for me, in general, about how to approach life, which is never certain.   I'm beginning to feel a new kind of peace, a fringe benefit, because of this.  I may write about it, as it really is something.

  • Blessings2011
    Blessings2011 Member Posts: 4,276
    edited December 2013

    Yeah, what Beesie said!!!  

    Hi, Percy4... you're right. This is your whole life right now, and I'm sorry. As you continue to gather more information about your diagnosis and treatment plan, you will be moving into the "starting to get things done" mode... which eventually leads to seeing your BC experience as a bump in the road in your rear-view mirror.

    Two years ago I was diagnosed with multifocal DCIS in the left breast. One area of DCIS had two micro-invasions of IDC: 1.5mm and .5 mm. Because of personal history and a host of other reasons (including uncertainty about the right breast on the part of my Radiologist), I chose a bilateral MX with immediate recon.

    At the time of my surgery, I had no idea whether or not I would need radiation (if the tumors were close to the chest wall, or they couldn't get clean margins) or whether or not I would need chemo. I did have an SNB and the nodes were clear. I dodged both rads and chemo. The interesting thing is that no IDC was found in my final path report. They said it must have all been removed by my two ultrasound-assisted core-needle biopsies. In the past two years I have not developed any lymphedema whatsoever.

    Unfortunately, women with my dx do go on to become Stage IV. It is a reality of breast cancer - there are no guarantees.

    But here is my situation: I believe the cancer was removed from my body on December 5, 2011. I believe that I am staving off a recurrence by taking an Aromatase Inhibitor for five years. AND - my MO says my chances of a recurrence are LESS THAN one percent. But she always laughs and says -"But they're not zero, so I want you to take the drug."

    Today I believe I am cancer-free. I plan to be cancer-free in the next five years and the next ten years and when I am 90 years old. If anything changes in the future, I'll deal with it then. In the meantime, I'm moving on.

    Wishing you a rapid recovery and most of all, peace of mind. Big hugs to you!!!

  • Beesie
    Beesie Member Posts: 12,240
    edited December 2013

    Percy, you just hit the nail on the head.  We all face risks every day; we just don't normally think about them.  It's just part of life.  But then we are diagnosed with breast cancer, and suddenly the risks associated with the diagnosis and treatment are front and center and it becomes difficult to not think about them. But many of the risks that worry us so much, and preoccupy our minds, might not actually be any larger than other risks that we have that we may know about but choose to ignore, or perhaps other risks that we have but don't even know about.  

    The fact is that when you are diagnosed with cancer, you face a lot of choices and a lot of uncertainty.  Every choice comes with risk - every treatment has risks and side effects, and choosing to pass on treatments comes with it's own set of risks.  So in the end you have to weigh the risks vs. benefits, and decide which risks you can live with most easily.  And you have to learn to live with the uncertainty.  

    I posted recently in another thread that once we are diagnosed, we live from that point forward with a sword hanging over our heads.  The thing is that the sword has always been there - but most of us had never looked up before to see it.  The good news is that with DCIS-Mi, that sword is held by some really strong wires and over time you might even forget that it's there.  That just takes a while. 

  • percy4
    percy4 Member Posts: 477
    edited December 2013

    You know, Beesie, with this new tech age, I have made a few friends I've never met in person.  Now, say, you and ballet, among others, are these.  I think, in the old days, they used to call them pen-pals.  All I can say is I treasure the friendships I've made here, and do not feel them any less real than the acquaintences I've made in person.  Thank you so much for being my dear friend.

  • percy4
    percy4 Member Posts: 477
    edited December 2013

    Thank you, Blessings.  I, also, feel that when treatment is done, and with all being exised (if I get negative nodes) I am cancer- free.  While I appreciate that this may come back, until/unless it does, I will feel normal.  Big hugs back to you !

  • ballet12
    ballet12 Member Posts: 981
    edited December 2013

    Just want to add, this is a beautiful picture that you have posted of yourself.  See, you are braver than some of us, to put an avatar up (I think that's what it's called. I'm definitely not a techy).

    You have come to some amazing insights, that will surely help you face the challenges ahead.

    Once, again, I agree with Beesie that we have the known risks and the unknown risks, with bc and with life, and we've just gotta keep putting one foot in front of the other.  You will get to the other side of this!  And we'll be there for you, in whatever way is helpful to you. 

  • percy4
    percy4 Member Posts: 477
    edited December 2013

    I have a dear young friend who has just become HIV+.  He was careless, but no reason to point that out to him now; it's done.  I've let him know that he can live a normal life for many years to come.  As with me.  I will make all the right choices (haven't I been a great advocate for myself?), but I still have to live with future possibilites, and eventually put them into a small corner, and go on with my life.   Still; things like getting the SNB, though it is a small chance it will cause lifelong lymphedema, are really hard.  I asked my son which he would do.  10% chance of lypmphedema, and 10% chance of invasive cancer in nodes, and he said he'd just rather be unimpaired.  Young, and silly.  I would also like to be unimpaired, but I've seen enough here to know I don't want a 1-in10 chance of dying.  I'll handle the lymphedema risks (not liking them).  Did not think life would get more difficult than it already was, but it has, and, as I said, though unfortunate, there are reallly good benefits to going through this.  Would just like to hear a resounding "YES" about me getting the SNB, though they are not recommending it (I think they're remiss; don't know why).  Just please, if you feel it, say "Yes, Percy, that's the smart thing to do for your life".  No one in real life wants to make a committment; they are afraid of leading me one way or the other, but you ladies are stronger.  You can give me your opinions, anonymously.  I need to hear it.  Some women would just take the easy way out, no SNB recommended, but I have a bad feeling about that.  I am scared about unnecessary lymphedema.  Sorry so needy, but I am very isolated in my physical life.

  • percy4
    percy4 Member Posts: 477
    edited December 2013

    Thanks, ballet.  I 've usually been considered attractive, in life.  My BS is going to be so surprised.  My biopsy showed only low-grade DCIS, so, while I was concerned about it, I had no reason to think it was life-threatening.  So.  If it wasn't, I did have a concern about how the breast would appear after.  After all, if your life is not threatened, why not care how you would look?  Now, with the micro, I am seriously concerned about my life (a normal progression).  I did not appreciate her saying I was "obsessed" with the appearence of my breast.  I was not obsessed.  I just thought I could have both a good medical outcome, and a good aestheitc one.  The MO said, after my lumpetomy, that she was glad I decided to do it.  I pointed out that I was always going to do it.  She seemed surprised, that idea given by the first surgeon I spoke to.  I never said I was thinking about not doing it, just asked questions.  Apparently, asking questions makes them feel you are uncertain.  Not true .  I am just thorough.  So.  They presumed the wrong idea about my priorities from the beginning, and are now going to be surprised about how careful I am about my medical care.  I believe I bother them 8 ways from Sunday, and I assure you, I have minimized my questions down to very few.  When I asked my MO how long the samples were good for, she said "I don't know" (RO answered that easily).  When I asked the MO about why a micro was found in a small area of good DCIS, she said "I don't know".  When I asked the MO the real chances of the micro, as opposed to a displacement of cells, she said "I don;t know".  I hate to insult/alleinate anyone, but there are too many "I don't know's" for me.  Same MO told me no need for SNB, as it's in the singe digits.  I pointed out the single-digit odds had not been in my favor recently; she said "that's the standard".  I know full well it is not the standard to not do the SNB.  I think I have an attractive, nice MO here, who doesn't know what she's talking about.  Would just think that, but my experienced breast surgeon also doesn't recommend the SNB, and that's downright weird.  I agree with Beesie.  I think they may doubt the pathology, and to not tell me that is criminal.  I WILL get to the bottom of tihs.  Still; need to live in the now.  My birthday is Xmas Eve; haven't even thought about it.  Am going to bed, now.  Thanks for listening,all my lovely ladies.

  • Swimmom2
    Swimmom2 Member Posts: 169
    edited December 2013

    Percy  - happy birthday, Though you have given me a gift. This thread is exactly how I feel.  My BS said there was suspicion of 1 MI in my final pathology, but they believe it was excised during my biopsy. I was told it doesn't change my treatment plan as I had a BMX. BS said it changes my chance of survival from 99 to 98%. Quite honestly wouldn't anyone want to live with those odds? Intellectually, I understand (like you mentioned) we all do things in life that put us at risk. Unfortunately our doctors are just quantify it for us. That being said emotionally I live with the fear of that one POSSIBLE MI. It's what keeps me up at night. I think what beesie said is best.  Time is the great equalizer. 

  • Beesie
    Beesie Member Posts: 12,240
    edited December 2013

    Percy, ditto to what ballet12 said - your picture is beautiful. I
    just can't figure out how it is that you have a daughter who is almost
    40!

    I don't think you are being needy. I think you are asking the
    right questions. As ballet12 said earlier, when things are
    straightforward, at most one second opinion is necessary. In your case,
    things are definitely not straightforward. Your diagnosis is unusual -
    the fact that you have this microinvasion in with such a small amount
    of non-aggressive DCIS - and the answers and recommendations that you've
    been getting from your doctors are confusing and inconsistent.  So of course you have lots of questions and are struggling with the decisions. 

    I've been thinking about your situation with the SNB, and more particularly, your doctors' recommendation that an SNB is not required.  One possibility, as I suggested earlier, is that your doctors may think that the microinvasion isn't really a microinvasion but was caused by displaced cells.  The other possibility is that although on average the risk of nodal involvement is 10% for those who have a microinvasion, your doctors may believe that your risk is considerably lower because you have such an early, undeveloped cancer - just 4mm of non-comedo DCIS along with that microinvasion.  

    I think that's certainly possible.  Your risk of nodal involvement might be quite a bit lower than the 10% average.  But there is another possibility that you also hit on that's been rattling around in my head.  What you said was:

    "I will say that the fact that my micro appeared so soon after DCIS
    (especially if it's assessed to be HER2+) makes me want the SNB even
    more. Wouldn't you agree, if the invasive cancer was aggressive enough
    to be there so soon after DCIS?
    "

    Yes, I would agree. One of three things has happened in your case. The first possibility is that you really didn't have a microinvasion, but just had displaced cells.  Since your biopsy sample was suspicious for a microinvasion and your surgical sample included a microinvasion, I am doubtful that this is the case.  The second possibility is that it's a complete fluke that your microinvasion developed in with this small amount of non-aggressive DCIS and you really do have a harmless cancer that has a very little chance of nodal involvement. The third possibility is that you caught this sucker at the earliest stage of development, but had you not, you would have developed more IDC, and the small amount of DCIS would have become incidental to the IDC diagnosis.  In this case, the IDC might be quite aggressive and could present a real risk of nodal involvement. 

    Which is it?  I think it's impossible to know.  I believe your doctors are banking on the first or second possibilities, and I'd guess that the second one is probably the most likely.  But if it were me, I'd be wondering about the third one, and that's what would lead me to choose to have an SNB, as much as I would prefer not to have an SNB done.

    I guess the one thing I would do first would be to really probe my doctors on this, to get a better understanding of why they say the SNB isn't required.  As ballet12 suggested, I'd go in armed with the NCCN guidelines, which do not distinguish between T1mi tumors vs. any other T1 tumor when saying that an SNB should be done in any case where invasive cancer is found in with DCIS.  

    (((Hugs))). 

  • TB90
    TB90 Member Posts: 992
    edited December 2013

    I am going to write this, but hope that Beesie reviews it for accuracy.  I understood that even the tiniest bit of MI have a totally different look under the microscope than DCIS.  It has to change to become MI or invasive and is not simply misplaced.  You can cut up DCIS into bits within the breast and it will still look totally different than MI cells.  I know I read this somewhere as I could not simply know this, but am not certain enough about my knowledge yet to defend anything against Beesie's knowledge, so I hope she reviews this. I am still waiting for my pathology report as my DCIS had a suspicious focal for invasion. This has been very helpful for me too to get prepared for whatever they present to me on January 9th.  In the meantime, I am trying to be thankful for such hopeful results and realize that each time I get in my car my odds are likely worse.  And it doesn't stop me from driving :)

  • percy4
    percy4 Member Posts: 477
    edited December 2013

    Thanks for the support, all.  Just to clarify, the reason I said I've been thought attractive in life was to begin my story about the surgeon thinking I was more concerned about appearance than health, not to boast.  I did tell her I cared a lot about how the breast would look, and sometimes wonder if when one is "an attractive person", others think you are only interested in being attractive.  Not true.  As I said, I cared how the breast looked, and expressed that, but care FAR more about my health.  So, with me being so interested about the SNB, I feel she's going to be surprised (she shouldn't).  That is where my real interest lies.  And I don't know if I'll EVER be comfortable, knowing it could have skipped the nodes and traveled elsewhere.  Just woke up worried about that, hope that doesn't last forever.  Thanks, Beesie.  I had 2 children before I was 20; I'm about to turn 57, my daughter is 39.

  • april485
    april485 Member Posts: 3,257
    edited December 2013


    Percy4, for what it is worth, after reading everything in this thread and Beesie's response and explanation, I would want the SNB too. I did not have a MI and I still was uncomfortable not knowing if any nodes were involved (and YES, I do understand that DCIS is confined to the duct and can't get to the node) because those that have mastectomy with DCIS get SNB's and because I chose lumpectomy, I was not offered one so, if I were you, I would go after that piece of mind you deserve to have. 

    I have a few "what if" moments where I think they could have missed something and I really had a MI, but I know it is silly and I am getting better about it, but, in your case, you should know exactly what you are dealing with as no matter how small a chance, there still is one in your case.

    I wish you the best and I wish you peace.. Happy early Birthday!

  • ballet12
    ballet12 Member Posts: 981
    edited December 2013

    Hi Percy,

    Please don't feel the need to apologize or defend what you say here.  We understand.  It's perfectly understandable that someone would be concerned about the appearance of their breast.  Surgery on a body part, particularly one with such symbolic significance as a breast, is a very scary thing for all of us.  You have said that you are single.  That, alone, would justify concerns, and not just "vanity".  I am not single, so I was able to plunge into multiple surgeries which did ultimately leave significant cosmetic /physical changes that others might not tolerate.  I see those changes every day, and even though it was my choice, it is taking time to adjust. I know where your concerns come from. They are real and you are not vain.  You are a woman.  Period.

    Second, we are here to support you in your treatment decisions.  We can guide you, and Beesie can really provide you with the very detailed information you need to make a decision.  Ultimately, it boils down to you really going deep into yourself and deciding which are the risks you are willing to take.  If you don't do the SNB, will you be plagued about it, paralyzed by fear and unable to move on, or will you just try to absorb that risk and move on?  If you do the SNB, will you be willing to take the precautions to try to avoid or mitigate lymphedema, and will you be able to face the risk of getting it?  Sorry you have to deal with all this on your birthday and Christmas eve.  What might help, and what has helped me with the hormonal treatment issues, is to imagine myself after making the decision.  Which of those images gives you a bit more comfort, is a bit more tolerable to envision?  That's probably your answer. I wish you the courage to confront the doctors and try to get some straight answers. I would find that task very daunting.  I hope the second and third opinions make this easier for you.

    All the best.

  • percy4
    percy4 Member Posts: 477
    edited December 2013

    Thank you, ballet.  Again, it is a life-saver for me to be able to come here.  My father understood my concern about appearance well, but is now thinking I'm being neurotic about having more than my HMO's opinion about my pathology.  He is appalled that I would borrow $650 for Dr. Lagios, as I'm very in debt.  He says "Just do what the doctors say".  He is unimpressed that a SNB is standard, and they are not recommending it.  My mother is very supportive about me getting to the bottom of the pathology and SNB recommendation.  She does not take the lymphedema risk lightly, as she has that in her leg, and it has, sadly, been life-altering for her.  On the other hand, she has not understood at all my concern about appearance, and says breasts are for feeding babies, why do you care how you look, what's wrong with you?  No wonder they were divorced when I was one!  My children, thankfully, understand both concerns, but my son, as I said, thinks it would be foolish to risk imparing my right arm (I am, after all, a right-armed waitress, and will have to use that arm strongly and without reservation for a very long time to come).  As far as my very life possibly being involved with no SNB, he says one-in-ten is worth the risk, we don't need to live forever.  This is his personal idea about life; he does love me very much.  So. You see why it's important I can come here.  I love each and every one of you. - P.

  • percy4
    percy4 Member Posts: 477
    edited December 2013

    If you can believe this.  SF pathology back, my MO out with the flu, requested on-call MO to call and give me the results.  Was supposed to be about 4 or 4:30.  By 5:30, I'd given up for her calling today, and went to pick a lemon from the tree downstairs for my dinner.  In that 1-2 minutes she called, and said call us back (not today, and, with the holiday, not maybe for a week).  Oh, boy.  Hopefuly, some MO is on tomorrow, Christmas Eve, my birthday.  Would love to get the good news that they are not certain about the micro (not counting on that) but also concerned it may be yet again upgraded in some way.  Should not have left to pick the lemon.   Really; you have to laugh.

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