Here's what cheezed me off today

So here's some cheeze for the day... I'm having hand surgery next week for these crappy trigger fingers that have been going on since last November.  The pain comes and goes, but today it was really hurting so I decided to dig into my ol' breast cancer drug stash and take a Vicodin.  Well, I felt a bit buzzed with one, but the pain was still there and since the bottle says 1 to 2 every 6 hours, I pop another.  About 10 minutes go by and all of a sudden I am so nauseous that I can't even stand up.  There I was hugging a soft pillow to my stomach and wondering WTF?  My good old chemo brain forgot that I got sick the last time I took a Vicodin, but on with my story.

Now I go back to my drug stash because I recall I had some Compazine in there for nausea from chemo.  I read online to see if this will help with the predicament I have myself in.  The drug is good for what I need, but is also used to treat schizophrenia.  Again... WTF??  I had to contemplate if I should take the drug or not due to what it is also used for.  I think to myself... well, you can stay doubled over for the next 4 hours or try to solve this with the Compazine pill.  What's the worst that could happen?  If it can get rid of nausea and stop the voices :-).  So about 20 minutes after I take the pill I start to feel better.

Needless to say, the day was a complete waste.  Taking the Vicodin and then the Compazine kept my mind off my effed up fingers, but never really got rid of the pain.  I think I'll be happily skipping off to the surgery center.  I don't think I'll be questioning whether having them cut into my hand is the right thing or not.

I...Have this group of Knitters I belong to....I really use to LIKE it....a nice get away from it all....and the BAM!! a girl...who does not knit comes in the Knitted Knockers pattern......LAUGHING about it all....like "I guess they stuff their bras with these" and "every house should have a pair of knockers" "need to makes them in Pink" it really did get me down.......thought of telling her off in four letter words or NOT going anymore......Liz

rohanna, looks like you and I are on the same recall pattern in boob world. I go for my 6 month check in a couple of weeks. I swear these 6 months periods are just zooming by. My hand surgery went well. I took off the big dressing today and replaced it with 3 small band aids over the stitches. I'm looking forward to having this issue behind me.

sandcastle, sorry you had to listen to that twit. People say the stupidest things since many of them don't engage their brains first. Somehow I think that even if the one you mentioned did try to engage... there wouldn't be much up there!

sas, thanks, I appreciate the kind words. It's only been a week, but the old pain appears to be gone. There's only the healing pain right now, but that is more tolerable. Haven't been too cheezed off this week, but it's still only Tuesday ;-).

Today....I went to the Liquor Store and bought some wine.....the Clerk a girl asked me if I wanted to Donate To Breast Cancer....I showed her my absent breast and said I have donated a Lot.....She tells me she has a friend who BEAT BC......I said really HOW do you do that.....she told me the friend had it for years and now had breast removed!!?? I said well you know what I called October?? FockTober....She then said I have a bad attitude....so I told her FU!! Glad I had already paid!!....Liz

Morning Ro, I started on 6 month visits at 2years (I think). it's been awhile. Maybe your doc is doing this b/c of the colon thingy?

Rocky continue with hands getting happy.

Sandy bent they won't do that again:) If they due the stupid is incurable

I forgot where I hid the candy

I've given up on candy. We only have 3-4 kids stop by. I just give out quarters. That way no temptation on the house

Today I am cheezed off at bc. I am pissed off because it has robbed me of my desire to want to work. I use to love my job and felt up to the challenge and now with 3 more chemo treatments I am looking at maybe 6 weeks of radation and a year of Herceptin. I am mad because I don't want to use all my vacation time for DR appointment and travel time because where I get my treatments are only open 8-5 M-F. Truth be told I am scared that after I will be done with my chemo treatments and start rads I will be too exhausted to do my job well and I need to be 100% or they write you up. These feelings have been slowly bubbling up to the surface..I know I can't go back to the way I was, but I got to find a way to get my head together and feel better so I can work.

That is shameful they did that to you sas-schatzi I am so sad for you. I hope things have worked out for the best for you. I did go check out the web site. It looks like it has a lot of good information. I have a wonderful social worker and I think I will talk with her again she helped me last time making some choices about work.