please pray for me

First of all Deb, it is "okay" to be a "big old bawl baby". Secondly, we might all seem so calm and together but that's because you don't see us in our showers, in our beds late at night, at those moments when the tears flow and the "together" falls apart. We all have those fears and we all have those days when "calm" isn't happening and those niggling fears and uncertainties come to pay us a call.

Saying that you feel sometimes the fear is greater than the faith? That's normal too...I think we all question that at some point. But being able to say it doesn't mean that you have to let it in to visit for a spell. It can knock, but you don't have to answer the door to let it in.

I'm sending you lots of positive thoughts, lots of spirit and energy and (((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))) to help you over this difficult hurdle. I'm glad you asked for our help so that we can all join together to help lift you and carry you when you haven't the strength. I'll say extra prayers for you, as many and as often as you need. And then some.

DEB, i think we all go in this direction some time in our lives. please do not be so hard on your self. you have a lot of sisters praying for you, and i am one of them. debbyfive

Dear Deb,
How often I have felt my own prayers didn't pass the ceiling! We all know those feelings of fear and desperation, You just have to remember that God is still in control of the universe. He loves you so much and hurts with you. I will pray for you Deb, for strength, and faith and mercy. My mom told me the way to increase my faith was to pray and read my Bible. She was right. My favorite story thru this all has been of Joseph. He went thru so much, and then had the opportunity to repay his brothers with evil. Instead, he chose forgiveness and his words to them were something like "What you meant for evil, God used for good." He will use this trial and you will be stronger, even though it doesn't seem like it now. Remember, when you can't see God's hands..... trust His heart. Love and prayers and hugs..... and tears go out to you. Pam

Deb,
I wish you could see all the nashing of teeth many threads had on this board. There has been so much bawling like a baby you would not think it so. When they added all these threads they took so many good threads away that showed so many in turmoil of faith, hope and love.

We are human, we are in this world but not of this world. We are called to a higher purpose which makes it more difficult at times. Please know you are not alone in your struggle, it is very normal. I promise!

You will get through this rough patch, it is (I know you hate this phrase.. but it is true)character building and when you are finished you can help others in the same struggle.

My aunt used to tell me that her struggles were "opportunitities to learn how to minister", because it is so much easier to connect to someone that has lived your pain. She was a survivor of three types of cancer, including BC twice.

I am praying for you it is a priviledge!

Deb I
will add your name
to the prayer chain

WE are here
for you

gentle hugs
xoxo
Patti

Still praying Deb, and I think many need to read this thread for understanding of the ups and downs of BC.

Hugs for you Deb and keeping you in my prayers



Carrie

Deb, you are in my prayers...Sending hugs..



Hugs and God Bless,
Cherie

xoxo
Patti

prayers going up for you Deb

Still praying for you Deb!

PRAYERS on the way, thinking about you and praying for you. debbyfive

Prayers for you while you wait. May God calm your waters and help you be steady during this trying time.

I am praying for your surgery to go well, and that you get well soon. debbyfive