In shock

Movie - good luck !!

The cockroach did not take me up on my ultimatum instead asked for more time until Thursday or Friday. I called the exterminator today as soon as I give them the $ the proceedings will start. I am shooting for Monday !!!! Hope all is well with everyone !!!! Hugs to u all !!!

Dakota...not an easy road, but one with a "happier" journey for you, when things are sorted out. Bet you will get good benefits from doing that kickboxing class to destress as needed!

Edi...you sound great! Hubby thinking of retirement soon...PLEASE tell us you will insist on making sure you are allowed some regular "Edi" time to do what you want, independent of meeting his every need!!!!!! It is a huge adjustment for many couples!!!

Liefie...no mention of daughter over the weekend??? Did you enjoy some girl time?? 

Websister...thought of you today while I was having another massage....yumyum!!! Felt good for the muscles after a few long hikes recently!

Gotta get supper organized....can't mention all, but am thinking of you all. Especially Movie...resting comfortably I hope, after today's surgery.

Movie, YAAY for being done with this! I wish you a speedy and uneventful recovery, sister!

Nihahi, had a very good visit with DD. A little worried, because she has already put on 25 lbs. (That's what I put on in total with each pregnancy.) Eating helps for her nausea which I hope will be over soon, otherwise I don't know where her weight will end up eventually.

Edi, I thought I could rest today. Then around 9.30 this morning DH phoned in a flat spin. His secretary was off for the morning, and he had forgotten to tell me that I was supposed to work. Arrived there in my gym clothes, quite flustered, and chaos reigned for the first hour or so until things settled down. Will have my quiet at-home day tomorrow - hopefully!

Had a chest X-ray and bloodwork this afternoon because of a perpetual sore spot under my left arm (MX side) on the chest wall. X-ray clear and bloodwork all normal. Next step is a bone scan, then MRI. Brings back bad memories.

Yeh movie. Glad you're home and rest up girl



liefie yeh on the chest xray..hope other scans are soon to get passed this bit.



dakota...good girl.



to everyone else thinking of you. Better get dh ready for kindy!

Edi-love you, you are a ray of sunshine to me! Maybe your DH knows this and doesn't want to share you.....put your foot down-you go, girl! Xo



Liefie, I am sending you a cyber ((((hug)))) to let you know I am ALwAYS in your pocket.....



It is almost 3 am here, but narcotics always screws up my sleep pattern. Too sore in chest area to let go of them just yet, but hope the pain will subside enough soon, to dump them.....



So thankful for you amazing, supportive, courageous, and wonderful women....I could NOT make this journey without you! XO



Love to all......Jackie

Movie..sent you a message on the diep thread...((((((((((((((X))))))))))))))))!!!!!! Rest, Heal, smile!!!!!!

Edi...it is SO important for couples in retirement to have time/space/interests individually. Makes the together time more enjoyable. Even financial advisors here tell couples that spending every moment together is NOT healthy. Did you ever find a yoga class? That might help you in so many ways!

websister....hope you rested up on the long weekend...fall is coming, isn't it...you can just feel it in the air! 

Benny...how's that infection healing???? Have the neighbours spotted the chickens yet??

Traii....when are you going back to work? Soon isn't it???

Dakota....big hugs, stay strong, look to the future.

Caitlin....with family still? Hope the time spent in Canada is renewing for you.

Carla....think of you lots....so glad you've got a great hubby.

Maria....You are getting there...moving through that chemo girl..such a wonderful spirit you have. Mountain hugs going south, straight to you!

Liefie....dang it. Stop with the lump pain....do you think it's diep related??? Maybe you tweaked something deep when you fell into the daisies, or started back at exercising??? Anymore bear sightings?

Morwenna....hope you're enjoying England...need to hear stories when you return..

ok....I know I'm forgetting some.....need more coffee, and will check back. Love to you all.

So much to catch up on!



Movie - glad surgery went well for you, rest up and heal well



Dakota - sending hugs and strength your way



Traii - I did smile when I read your post about getting DH ready for kindy - know what you meant but it sounds like there might be a few DH's around this thread that might be 'ready for kindy'



Edi - enjoy those massages - you deserve them! So glad you and Liefie were able to Skype earlier today. Enjoyed the earlier pictures



Liefie - that baby shower does sound a little intimidating but you are not in a competition, and the strength, grace and dignity that you portray every day are qualities that are much more valuable and enduring than a fake tan could ever be, you need no enhancements to be beautiful.

So glad the visit with DD and SIL went well



Nihahi - beautiful day here, almost set record temperature! Oh, how I need to make an appointment for that massage. Beautiful pictures



Caitlin - belated happy birthday to you, looks like Canada is treating you well



Today was our 31st anniversary - last year I spent the day having chemo and then counteracting the side effects. Nice to go out this evening for a special dinner

I am really having a time with fatigue, I am supposed to be increasing my hours at work as per the insurance company but can't seem to do it. Even having days off and the long weekend don't seem to be helping in restoring my energy. It is frustrating for me - so glad I have an understanding manager and can work from home some of the time.

I am trying to keep up here but not always posting



Love u all
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Lol websister..i meant Ds ready for kindy...lol

hope u had an amazing anniversary. Mine too is coming up this month!

Hi girls  X

Websister, sending energy vibes across the pond for you. DH and Kindy, wow what an amazing concept lol.
We were out a few weeks ago and one of our hotels had a notice outside saying " The only creche for husbands " leave him here we will feed him and give him a drink while you shop.
We laughed but I laughed loudest.
Glad you had a lovely anniversary and that this year had happier memories.
My energy levels are improving almost three months to the day after all treatments finished. Our bodies have been battered, poisoned and burnt like it says in my cartoon earlier.BC can't hurt our spirit and yours has always shone the brightest.We ALL love you.

Traii, lovely that Kindy fitting in with work. Feel for your Mum though, I live for my day with my little Fairy.
Her new teacher is one gorgeous Dude !! young and handsome and kind to the little ones.All the Mum's were swooning ( some Nanas too ) She said Mummy will see him at parents night, he is almost as handsome as my Daddy.
Didn't win at Bingo, had a false call  my dibber had leaked through onto page underneath, felt so silly.Must get a new one.
When you back at work  are the " Girls " all ok now.?

Nihahi, This morning I said to DH when you retire I would like to go back to dancing, ( we were latin champs in our younger days ) think he will I said I need excercise and he does too.
Going to put foot down re MY days agree with you.
Did you know that in Japan the highest suicide rate is amongst women with recently retired husbands ? My dear Mum had a breakdown when my Dad retired so enough said.

Movie, hope you felling better each day.

Maria, you too.

Benny, how are the chicks ? Has Paddy visited. On her holiday my little Fairy was camping in a field with chickens running free. ED said she worked out that when one was missing it was laying. She would sit patiently by the hen house until it came out, lift up the flap and there was her breakfast. !! How is gorgeous Diamond, I have sourced a lovely riding school nearby so now going to ring re lessons.

Carla, hope you are fretting less, we are all in this together. Fretting gives you wrinkles !!

Caitlin, happy hols.

DH mowing grass so Edi needs to look busy, laundry spilling out of hamper  think that is most urgent.

ALL of you have a lovely day/night X

I am up in the middle of the night...got up to take pain pill and antibiotic (don't want a repeat of stage one debacle).... Need to cough, but can't get any oomph behind it as abdomen so sore and tender.....afraid I am tearing something.........will,have to wait until I see PS later on today to make sure I can cough....love you, Edi! (And the rest of my Bellie sisters, as well! XO). Gonna try to go back to sleep!

For Cockroach.

Dakota, Soooo proud of you, well done xx

Good day all,

Man has this week been jam packed. Mon. cards with family, Tues. Melissa Ethridge concert, Weds. My DH headlined at one of our comedy clubs here and tonight is the Denver Bronco football opener. Feeling a little exhausted but so much fun. Makes  me realize how lucky I am to have so much friends and family.

My girlfriends DD has been diagnosed with Acute leukemia, she is in her mid 20"s with 3 young children. She is in the hospital on 24 hour chemo. I went yesterday to visit her and give her some encouragement. So sad her poor body is full of big bruises and she is so scared. I can only hope I helped her feel a bit better.

Edi, I love the pic you posted for Dakota. Yea for dancing hope you get to do it. Dancing is one of my favorite things to do.

Movie I hope you are feeling better real soon and get a good report from your PS

Dakota, stay strong it gets easier just have to give it time.

Websister happy anniversary 31 years thats awesome. Our 4 year is next thursday, I have treatment that day (boo) so I think we are going to try and do something this weekend.

Liefie very cool you and Edi got to skype technology rocks.

Carla how are you doing?

Nihahi, Caitlin, Benny, Traii and all I missed thinking of you hope your haveing a great week

Hi everyone,

I had a lumpectomy on Friday. The good news was clear lymph nodes. The bad news is the margins are not clear. I go to see the surgeon this Friday. Not looking forward to more surgery and more waiting. I lost it at my primary care doctor's office when she said things seem to be going quickly for me. It has been two months of mental torture. So dr says she can give me meds for anxiety...don't want more meds just answers and a plan of action.



Scouser47,

No I didn't try the bras yet but hope to stop and get one after my appointment today.



Liefie, thanks for the feel better words. I was scheduled for a lumpectomy and thought they would check for clear margins up to two times while I was still in the operating room. I was totally surprised to find out that I was closed up and had to wait 7 days to find out if the margins were clear. They are not clear so I meet with the surgeon today to discuss what to do now. It is currently 4 in the morning and I can't sleep because I'm thinking just go for the mastectomy and get done with it.



Thinking of Dakota , Jackie and Trail. How are you doing?



Nihahi, beautiful pictures. I live in Michigan but am an Arizona snowbird and I do miss the mountains. Hope I get to see them this year. I may be stuck here in the snow for the first time in many years if we don't get my treatment show on the road.



Carlads, I am changing oncologist also. The first one said his printer was not working when I asked for a copy of my stereotactic biopsy. So I started to write down what I could see on his computer screen and he asked me what I was doing. I told him writing down the information and he said I didn't need to be doing that. RED FLAG warnings going off in my head!

Jo....take the anxiety meds. It's not for the rest of your life, and this is one of the hardest parts of the "bc thing". I was surprised to hear they didn't ensure clear margins during your lumpectomy, sure hope that's not the new normal! 

Edi...imho...the time to "put the foot down" about "your share of the relationship pie" was yesterday, but, failing that, today is a good start. I know I sound harsh, but.....you are important to us, and I keep thinking about all the good you could be doing as a volunteer, all the people you could be helping, and the personal satisfaction it seemed to bring to you.

Maria...I love Melissa Etheridge's music! Don't care much for her "philosophy" re:why people get breast cancer, but every has their opinion.

websister....it's been a tough, tough summer here to feel energetic. Weeks of rain, then the devastation of the floods, thunderstorms that wouldn't quit, then high heat and lots of humidity. Hope the typical fall weather of sunshine, crisp morning air and alberta blue skies helps you feel a bit better. (Sadly, today isn't a good example of blue skies and clear air....).

Question for you Calgary ladies...the neighbour I've been driving to her chemo appts., now is getting a port put in next Friday. She's a bit hazy on the details...do you know how long a procedure it usually is, where it's done (Tom Baker or day surgery in Foothills???, what I can expect her to be feeling like afterwards? She is an extremely thin lady, and her veins have pretty much said "no more".  Any info is appreciated.

Benny....what's up buttercup???

Hi to Dakota, liefie, movie, carla, caitlin......EVERYBODY!!!!!