So depressed

Is it possible that the Femara is contributing to your depression? I am now 3 years out (almost from initial diagnosis) . After treatment I was put on Tamoxifen. I was same as you fearful constantly of mets and anxious. Of course I'm sure it didn't help that I just finished treatment and felt that nothing was being done anymore to kill the cancer, just to wait until the other shoe dropped. THat itself is a hard hard period.  I couldn't take the depression and anxiety anymore, so I was prescribed Zoloft. I took that for a while and had some sexual side effects I c ouldnlt live with , then I was prescribed Lexapro - same thing. I even tried Wellbutrin and it made me more anxious. 

I was experiencing some excruiciating bone pain at 9 months on Tamoxifen. I had scans, nothing, no mets. Finally my onc said why don't you stop Tamoxifen for a few weeks? Almost the first week the bone pain was gone, at the second week something else happened. I felt like dancing in the streets! Singing in the shower! It was like this cloud lifted and there was a spring in my step. I discontinued my Tamoxifen due to the bone pain. I also realized that I didn't need an antidepressant anymore.

Anyway I'm just saying that maybe it's not just you, maybe it's the medication making you feel this way. I'm not telling you to stop, just saying that it's a possibility and that maybe an antidepressant will help combat the effect (if it is that). The meds worked beautifully for me except for the sexual side effect.

I still have my moments, the I'can't-believe-I-have-cancer-and-it-can-come-back-any-time-to-kill-me. Where I cry, panic...I take a Xanax for those - good for a few hours only but those moments are few nowadays and they do not stay for long...

I hope things will get better, we all share the same fears, you are not alone.

Hi I just completed chemo yesterday. I should be happy but I feel like I have to hold back. While receiving my scans right after my surgery everything was clear except for a 6mm lung nodule. I will have a follow up scan in Sept. The issue is that I have become obsessed with it! I have spoken to four drs about it including my oncologist many times. They all feel it is an old scar from previous illness or allergy. I have also read on these boards about so many women that have had one and it is almost always nothing. I have googled it and having a lung nodule is very common. For some reason I cannot relax and think about it constantly! It is driving me crazy! The other thing is that my husband has advanced colon cancer. He was diagnoised 1 month after my surgery. He hopefully will be ok and is currently receiving chemo and doing very well. We also have two childern (10 and 14). Sorry for such a long post but any words of advice would be more than welcomed!