Wrote a poem as I was feeling down!

This sums up life since diagnosis! I am doing great and never ever thought I would be where I am today! Healthy happy and moving forward! I am sure all of you could relate to this so I thought I would share! Anyone just starting out on this journey just know it does get better! I had heard this so many times and said yeah right how could this get better BUT IT DOES! My smile is back and see sunny skies!



It's called



The Crook!



I fought so hard,

the fight is over.

But for me I must sit guard,

Because you see it's never over.



I close my eyes try moving forward,

But my dreams turn to nightmares. 

I can't see sunny skies coming toward.

All I see is the awkward stares. 



Oh! my she looks so good,

God bless her for her outlook.

If they only new just where I stood,

That my heart was stolen by a crook. 



That crook was ugly and came so fast,

I don't remember life before. 

The crook stole my heart and my past,

I try to smile and close that door.



It' s just so hard you can't imagine,

I just want to be happy and be me.

But, it does not happen. 

My heart and spirit will never be free.



Not like before,

The future bright and sunny.

The crook won't let me go through the door,

I try so hard but it turns my tummy.



This crook you see was breast cancer,

I never thought it would happen to me.

I asked WHY ME?, there was no answer,

I fought so hard, to be free.



The doctor told me I was cancer free, 

To live me life and move forward.

Oh thank you LORD, how could this be! 

I try so hard , but this is not what I had ordered.



I was supposed to be happy and carefree.

Not angry and scared.

I worked so hard, to get back to me.

We love you mommy my kids declared!



We want you back, they did not say it,

But I could see they needed me.

So I told the crook, to go and sit.

I have a job,I am a MOMMY!



I look at them and forget the crook,

I will move forward and stand tall.

Yeah, that crook is ugly for what it took,

But I am Strong and will not FALL!