In shock

Hi all,

Maria, fills are not bad, but take some pain medication like Tylenol half an hour before you go for the fill. Then you won't feel a thing. You will be amazed at how your boob visibly grows as PS puts in the saline - it was really funny, and I giggled uncontrollably. Maybe nerves had something to do with it . . .you will be fine.

That last picture was so funny, Edi. Seems all the scientists are men who have only one thing on their brains - lol. Time for them to get less selfish! Hope you won big at Bingo! How's Johnny behaving?

Nihahi, the dog destroyed two 'bleeding heart' plants, and a lot of hostas that were just peeking through. This is right by the front door. To add insult to injury, DH organized a man to come and fix our refrigerator door this morning, and he expected me to remember to leave the front door unlocked when I left home so the guy could get in. Man drove 20 minutes out here to find a locked door with nobody home. So I'm in even deeper trouble now - lol. Chemo brain unfortunately doesn't cut it for DH any more. Weather here still glorious - 21 degrees today. Will take dog for another walk with DH to cool him down. Will also cook him a nice dinner - can you tell I feel guilty as hell?

Carla, happy you're almost done with chemo. Yes, there will be a period of feeling unsettled now that active treatments are finished, but the Tamoxifen is also a treatment, and the best weapon in your arsenal to prevent a recurrence. Line up a few nice things to do every day next week to celebrate - it will help! If you're like me after Taxotere, you will still feel weak/breathless with rubber leg 'syndrome' for a few weeks, but that will pass too. Hang in there!

Luvmygoats, we don't care that you are a sporadic poster just as long as you check in from time to time! Good to hear you are doing well. You are like me; I also need alone time when I can just be by myself.

My week suddenly got busy. Have to work at a walk-in clinic tomorrow and Friday, and Saturday have to play organ for a funeral. So put in a good practise this morning - wonder how many calories one burns playing organ for 2 hours - lol. Then went to the gym for 50 minutes of cardio.

It is so beautiful outside this time of year with all the birds returning for summer. Nihahi, we even have fish eagles who sometimes will come and sit near the house in a tree. The blue herons are so stately and elegant, but they catch the fish in the fishpond, so we chase them away. There's Canada geese gaggling and fighting - mating time - and a family of red robins who return every year. The yard comes alive - so wonderful. Also have a feisty squirrel who gets his own peanuts in a litttle basket every day - so cute to watch. He would empty the bird feeder within two days, so we got one that's squirrel-proof. Felt too sorry for him, hence the peanuts. Life is good, and nature is always so amazing . . . just so very grateful to be able to experience and appreciate it. It is almost as if I'm seeing it with new eyes.

Hello Darling sisters,
Edi won at Bingo !!!! full house £ 30,00 better than belt in the mouth as my Mum used to say .
Came home feeling really tired despite three naps. DH on MY NETBOOK ! muttering because the water feature was a bit of  disaster,( theres a surprise, not.) When unpacked looks like it was a return. dents in beautiful chrome tubes so DH not happy bunny.
We took photos of problems and when the e,bay seller receives them they will send us new on and collect faulty one.
Photos couldnt be loaded on ???? so DH seething. Edi went to bed lol.
He is working early shift, yay ! so can catch up with things before it all starts again.HELP.
Feeling pretty good  today and hope you are all the same. Johny Cash day, hope he decides not to visit.
ED has infected sinuses after nasty cold, GD has chest infection too. Both on anti biotics so hopefully will improve soon.
Ed's bifold doors fitted yesterday, look gorgeous, her partner is like DH, there is a mark on them and the wrong handle has been fitted. Think most man should all be sent to same desert island ha ha.

Luvmy, So lovely to hear from you, wow you are one busy lady. So sorry about your dear goat going over the rainbow bridge.   lovely that DH there for support.
Will gladly send my DH to sort out your yard. Can promise that you would be letting weird plants strangle him afetr a few days.lol.
Baba goats coming on great, pics would be lovely if you can.
Know what you mean about losing stuff in the house, do it all the time.DH asks what you looking for I say nothing because he "helps" i.e. turns all drawers and cupboards upside down. and it is usually somewhere stupid like still in the car.
Have a lovely day. xx

Will have a catch up later with you all, must go and tackle pile of laundry xx

For my cyber baby girl Tracy chin up chick xxx

Edi- love them all!!!! Off to the dr for my post op. day off of work anyway !! Have a great day warrior friends !!!!

A real quick check-in again, sending hugs and love to all!



Edi - love all the pics but the camel one is my favorite , hope Johnny Cash doesn't show for his performance today. Rest up!



Luvmygoats - adding my condolences, good to read your update



Nihahi - good to see you posting again, hope that you are seeing improvements daily.



Liefie - busy, busy days for you, sounds like life is good - with the exception of a digging dog



Traii - extra hugs, add my kicks to all the others for that PS



Carlads - big congratulations on last chemo. You will have mixed feelings like all of us do, it seems that while you are going for treatments you are doing something. There were lots of appointments and attention and all of a sudden you feel like you have been abandons and are on your own - all normal feelings. Wishing you minimal side effects with tamoxifen and any reconstruction you choose to undertake



Caitlin - how ar things going with you



Benny is over halfway through her rads now, very similar to Jennie.



Dakota - glad you have a day off, spoil yourself



Bearcub, movie and everyone else - sending you wishes for a good day

Traii, just for fun I googled how many calories one burns with various activities - for organ playing it is 86 calories an hour. Not too bad! But it goes much quicker in the gym. . . LOL. At this stage calorie burn does not worry me any more. Just getting the exercise is what counts, right?

Edi, that camel picture is sooo hilarious! Yay on the Bingo win!

Will talk more later. Have to shower and get ready - I'm a working girl today.

Lol liefie 86 calories!! You make me laugh



Websister thankyou! Hows mum...bed back at your place now?



Dakota hope your post appt went well and you had fun the rest if the day!

Hello ladies,

Edi I love the pics.

Carlads woo hoo for you way to get through the journey.

Dakota I hope your apt. went well. Let us know

Traii glad you had a relaxing day.

My first fill went well way easier then I thought it would be.

Weather here in Denver is starting to look up went for a nice walk with the Dh, Son and Beagle after dinner. Trying to get out and walk I'm use to being on my feet all day and walking lots at work. This is only week 3 of no work and I'm really going stir crazy.

Congrats to you, Carlads!  Happy for you that it is all done!  I did not have to do chemo, but after taking the drastic action of a BMX, I was expecting to be put on the drug for menopausal women that is like Tamoxifen.  My MO said "No need".....made me very nervous.  I got a second opinion-same result.   Yet even after that, I am fearful that I have not killed the bitch.  Maybe with time we will get over the fear....I hope so!

Liefie-you are so going to be ready for DIEP!  Like Nihahi, you are very active, and will be able to deal with the physical challenges the surgery brings with it.  Plus, I love your attitude!  :-)

Maria-glad your fill went well, and that you are doing well.  Glad the weather has improved there in  Denver....my 24 yr. old daughter lives in Ft. Collins, and mentioned that it was warming up there. :-)

Traii-glad you got the day off.....and got to enjoy with the family.....the day you get your date we will ALL be celebrating....I am sending vibes to the PS to get going and get you on the books!  Waiting sucks!!!  :-(

Dakota-I'm guessing Edi won about $45 or so.....I could do with that! Hope post-op went well, and healing on track.....you gorgeous girl, you!

Nihahi-you will read my post on the DIEP board....and to that I will add on the blue days I would imagine myself on my favorite hike in the world so far.....(Iceberg Lake-I'm sure you know that)I have done it enough I can imagine walking along it in my minds eye....actually very soothing, if slightly crazy.  I am sending you a cyber (((hug))) and a note to be kind to yourself-you are so much further ahead of where I was at this time.....you are doing great!

Edi, lovely Edi......put that money on something just for YOU!!  You sweet lady! (And lucky, too!)  Your DH and ED's DH sound like my worst nightmare (when I was and Interior Designer)  Oh well, can't blame them, they want to get their money's worth......when my husband puts up a stink about something, I usually just want to crawl in the closest hole, and pull the top in after me.....seriously, it's ridiculous!  I hope you are doing well......and I loved your pics....especially the camel!  I laughed so hard my ab incision hurt for a few minutes!  I am starting to save my pennies to show up on your step!  :-) 

I am trying to get a new business off the ground....so kind of crazy (Not the wedding business-can't do that without you ladies!), and I have my 3.5 month appt. with PS on May 1st.....afraid he is going to want to start the "tweaking" process sooner rather than later.....as he mentioned May at the first meeting......so I have a lot on my plate right now.....not really sure WHAT I want to do.....only thing that could postpone it is if he feels the scars aren't healed enough (I know I can refuse to do it, but not sure I can afford to wait too long, as I have yet another surgery after this one, for "touch up".)  Will let you all know (of course)what he says....I may need advice-so many angles to consider.

Websister, Caitlin, Jenny, and all-hope you have a wonderful evening,night!  :-)

Namaste and  God bless - Jackie

For beautiful Carla, well done fellow warrior xx

That is super cool Edi

Hi Everyone,

Edi- Love my cake!!

Thank you everyone for all the end of Chemo wishes! I will be back to catch up on everyone!!

Love you all,

Carla

Hi girls dh on early start so stayed starfishing in bed,didn't expect to go back to sleep bit DID !! woke at almost 9 am. so about 10 hours sleep altogether feel like a new woman. Bet DH wishes I was. ha ha.
Only yuk bit two huge mouth ulcers have erupted on bottom lip, good news is they don't interfere with tea intake. Took tablets prescribed Tuesday every six hrs for six doses, even through the night but hey ho. Knew I should have done my bicard/salt mouthwash but didnt    Have started now and sitting with corron ball soaked in solution on them, ( not a pretty sight ).
No workmen at weekend so cookie jar getting a rest.
May have GD later YAY Ed and partner going to look at sofas in Liverpool, even though she is quiet as a mouse still easier to leave her with Nana, got popcorn and are having a Movie at Nan's.

Liefie, you sound a bit nervous ? don't blame you but you are one tough cookie and will steam through anything they do to you. Think the fear is worse than the experience, know when i had my op I was rigid with terror but it was really a great experience. Know yours is very different but everything crossed for you.xx

Movie, Working on cake design for you after stage 2.
Oils are wonderful and you will soon be able to afford the jet for wedding business lol.
I had a sore and swollen hand after nurse missed vein my lovely Reiki/Aromotherapist made me a cream with lavender oil added and next day totally back to normal. I often put oil on cotton pad and inhale when stressed too.
She swears by them and so do so many of her clients.
Road Drills such fun, not.
You like Liefie are one tough cookie xx

Carla, well done to be all through, hope no se's xx

Gonna rest and have fun today, hope all sisters do the same xx

For Traii xx

Venue for my nephews wedding,later this year so excited going looking for an outfit Monday with my BF,