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jenjenl
jenjenl Member Posts: 948
edited June 2014 in Stage I Breast Cancer

I am still waiting on my HER2 status to come in.  I have an MRI tomorrow.  I meet with the chemo guy on Tuesday.  I have the bone and ct scan on Thursday.  My fear that it has spread is starting to consume me.  I had the genetics test yesterday and now that my Dad is able to to talk to me he told me how many of his family members died of cancer....WTF didn't he tell me this before!!!!  My back is killing me and I just hope it's from stress.  I question everything I am doing, the approach, working, everything.  I don't know up from down.  I just want something to happen and all I can do is wait and it is pissing me off.  I'm rambling I know.....I am scared out of my mind.

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  • juliaanna
    juliaanna Member Posts: 1,043
    edited November 2012

    Jenjenl,

    Please keep breathing.  Your world has been turned upside down and it looks like everything is moving at warp speed.  I certainly understand the feeling. The good thing is you aren't having to wait weeks for the tests to be done.  When you do get all the results, please take time so you can process everything.  Ask questions of your doctors, of the women here.  We'll help.  As many a wise woman here has said, "stay away from Dr. Google."

    When I had my biopsy, surgery was scheduled for a lumpectomy and a meeting set up with the Radiation Oncologist.  After the lumpectomy, my diagnosis changed and so did the game plan.  I was able to get the MRI, CT, Bone scan quickly as well as an appointment with a Medical Oncologist.    My BS wanted to do the mastectomies right away but I opted to do reconstruction at the same time.  Surgery was delayed from the end of April until June 1.  Granted, my sentinel node biopsy was negative, so I feel there was a rush to get the surgery done.  

    Waiting is the pits-probably the hardest part of dealing with breast cancer.  Try not to get wrapped up planning until you have some all the information from the tests.  One suggestion I have for you is to start a notebook or file and keep all your results/information in one place.

    Keep posting.  We'll be here to help you through.

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  • fifthyear
    fifthyear Member Posts: 225
    edited November 2012

    Jenjenl,

    I was where you are five years ago. My head used to play tricks on me, but things got better once I had my treatment plan in place. I am not an expert, but it's very likely your backpain is from stress.

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