Fuzzy's Romp Room

Veggy!!!!!  NO RED DEVIL!!!!!! YIPEEEEEEE!  So happy for you.  So happy you have a new MO you are happy with.  BC SUCKS, but at least get a good team on your side!

VEGGY, I am so relieved you have the right doc now, that chemo is tough enough without having to deal with all that other drama.  NANCYnow, I send you love and peace, so sweet to be so harmed.  LOVESSA, I enjoyed hearing the music selections.  And Melatonin sure helped me when I went thru a few years of not sleeping.

FUZZarina, shall we walk down a starlit lane, with doves cooing, lovely lavendar alongside the soft path, and I shall hold your hand when we must climb up a hill.  You'll love this, my owne tru sister, there was a quote from Cassius Clay (Ali) the boxer, he goes, "I'm colorful when I rumble."  Don't you just LOVE that!?!

I got tons more, but I need to stop for now.  I DID get my car in and I did get my groceries, so I'm free now for a couple more weeks.  But I wanted to at least drop in before things got too far ahead of me.  Lovin you all for always, Gail

P.S.  I accidentally posted this twice, thus the below deletion.

A very dear friend of mine, a second father figure, had to be life-flighted to the hospital last night. I am about to leave. I would nover forgive myself if something happened to him and I wasn't there. He came to the hospital for me when I had my BMX traveling over 5 hours. My trip to see him is a little more than 2 hours.

I am still smiliing aout yesterday. I know I am in good hands with the new doc. 

Hugs

Veggy, Sending good thoughts for your friend. Travel safely. (((HUGS)))

Dune-and anyone else..you gotta like coconut to like this drink.I love it but i got good and bad results from friend.

Fuzzzzzz- I used to cheat on tests all the time...i even cheated on the driving test.my sista was sitting next to me and we had the same test so she just turned the page my way and i took all her answers.we both goot 100.lol.

Oh Veggy---no wonder you didnt get my pm...we are supposed to meet tomorrow.....my heart is with you...dont drive to fast please.If you need me you know where ill be....Prayers right now.

always the good,the bad and the ugly....Life is just soooo hard.

My plans for this weekend include a trip to the farmer's market and a visit at mom's house with her and my aunt and uncle. They are coming up from FL for a week. I actually hope I can get to the farmer's market tomorrow. Then, if there is anything else I need, I will hit the grocery store. I'm almost out of veggies.

I have had a hungry day. I guess I should be eating breakfast, but I'm not. Then, after class (aced the test and was one of the first ones done), I was very hungry. I had some carrots with me, so I munched on them on the way home. Still, I was hungry when I got home. I had 2 pieces of toast with butter. Still hungry. Had another piece of toast with butter and jam. Still hungry. I munched on nuts and seeds and raisins. Then I made a salad. I had a couple bowls of salad. I still want to eat. I have no desire to regain the weight I have lost, so I really have to load up on veggies. I did get some salmon out of the freezer for tomorrow. I might go all out and make salmon, quinoa, and veggies.

And speaking of veggies, Veggy, I sure hope your friend will be OK.

Oh yeah, and melatonin -- I take it. It doesn't seem to be helping me to sleep, but then again, I have been using some potent drugs for sleep for a lot of years. I do hope to one day be down to only taking melatonin. It has never caused a hangover effect for me.

This morning I tried to get on bco Romper Room before starting to work on websites.  It said the page did not exist.  I could not get into the discussion boards in any angle, so gave up.  Could have been my computer, it is fortunate I did not beat the laptop over a boulder and wing it into the woods today.  But I am glad now that I did not give up, pleased with progess.  Was so sick, everything suffered, still cleaning up the ramshackle of what was my life.  

Melatonin did work very well, I was able to wake up for a rain storm, bathroom, not groggy after seven hours sleep.  I don't know what it is but this is good for cancer too.  I will check that out later. 

Today at coffee w Hubby the pastry shop had a mad bluebird cookie.  I bought and took pic before Hubby started nibbling away at edges and blaming it on the slobbery dog.  

Veggy - you are a dear one to drive to him, he to you, a very fortunate relationship, not everyone has that in their life.  May he come out better than he went in.  Godspeed.

Fuzzy - using the mama trick, good if it works.  Every one was always in love with my mama too, she was so cute.

Dunes - we are doing the market and organic stands this weekend too, maybe an auction.

Took Danny Boy for walk this afternoon, was so lovely outside.  He is not 100% but better.  Will do the feather Bowen again tomorrow night before he melatonin. 

Granny - so I take it we can get the coconut milk from a natural foods store.  I will do so.

Tomorrow I will go on day paper route with DD in her 2012 rental car she is paying $5 a day for hahaha.  I am taking my crash helmet and megaphone with the siren on to give her a hard time.

To bed, good to read all the posts.

LOVEEssa

Thanks for the update Veggy - I was praying all night!

As for the weekend - it's Friday night lights for me (my son is a Jr. in HS and plays on the varsity football team), then I'm throwing a 40th birthday party for one of my best friends tomorrow night!  Gonna be a great weekend! And, even if you don't have a fun weekend planned, find something fun in it!  Even if it's just snuggling under a blanket with someone you love

Ahhhh, my soothing sisters, your leisurely trips to here and there, the kind of talk a gang of good friends share when they are happy, you have all made me feel so fine this morning.  I was talking on the phone earlier, telling this operator that you can tell when a person has had breast cancer, they're colorful when they rumble.  Later she asks what all is sick with me, and I got to rolling out one thing after another, pretty soon I was laughing, and I concluded, "You know, I got just the kinda the stuff that all old people have."  She didn't make a sound.  Must have been her first day.

For those of you who are still rather young, with just cancer (JUST), probably amongst the worst thing that can go wrong with a human, perhaps besides being burned over 80 percent of your body, and I can tell you what my father told me when I was griping about a little ache I had in my leg years ago.  He goes, "It gets worse."  Hahahaha.  SO TRUE, SO TRUE!!!  But I'll add an additional thought on aging, and that's with age comes wisdom.  You see, I'm on a few spiritual journeys, one of which is staying on the path of kindness, so well lit by the Christ, absolutely the most challenging walk there is, but the most important. 

So, to illustrate,  I drive up to the grocery store this week, park in my usual place, and there's this GIGANTIC Budweiser truck blocking up the entire entrance.  Oh, I thought of various things I could say to straighten out whomever demonstrated such an awful, pitiful, disgraceful manner of parking.  But as I trudged all the way around the back end of the length of a football field, I had a moment to remember that no matter what crisis I find myself in, I MUST be kind.  So, I decided not to make a scene, ignore the whole situation, and go about my shopping.  As a result, I felt normal.  I felt like I'm supposed to feel.  Kinda casual and regular.  Only thing I concerned myself with was my long hair and how much I miss tossing the waist-long instant beauty it gives a woman.  Welllllll, a few aisles later, I needed to find a tall manager to please reach something too high for me, and along comes a younger fellow, maybe 30 at most, and do you know he told me when I said I was just too wrecked up to manage the higher shelves, he goes, "I think you're looking really nice."  That made me feel about as good as I've felt in ages.

Now, while showing kindness is high on my list, I have to say that on the other hand, I THINK it's okay for me to get pissed at the TV set.  SORRY, but after all, they can't hear me, you see!  And odd thing is, I get really angry at especially HGTV, a perfectly safe program to watch, but when these empty-headed awful anuses rudely list off everything wrong with a home that I would REALLY like to have, I just blow up.  And I also do dearly love to criticize every politician on there, and I can cite chapter and verse where they're wrong, I can name laws being violated, quote VIPs, a rant complete with footnotes.  And heaven forbid commercials with snakes in them.  Whatsstup with that?  WHY, I ask you WHY do I have to look at a dang snake?  Is that rated G?  Or even PG?  And how about all those commercials?  I've emailed my representatives and demanded legal action, to stop snakes and commercials.  But I THINK it's okay to let go of the anger about what's on TV.  As Maya Angelou said, "Bitterness is like cancer.  It eats the host.  But anger is like fire.  It burns everything clean."

Oooops, I didn't mean to get all amped up like that.  I was going to tell a simple, kind, and calming story to go with all these sweet and pleasant words from my dear sisters.  So, let me close by saying that after a mongrel of a month, I have manged to do EVERY SINGLE THING I had on my list to do (every six months I see docs, so I also do everything else that's hard).  And this means, as of today, I can finally rest, I can at long last just say pretty things to my pretty people that I love with all my heart. 

And VEGGY, I just HAVE to know, if you happen to be single, and your father figure who is all tangled up in the hospital right now, have you ever thought of, well, flirting with him?  SMILE.  You can start by sending roses with a card, the nurses will make mention of it every time they go in his room.  And DUNE, I continue to love hearing about your simple activities, visiting the farmer's market is one I just love since I used to do that on special occasions.  And FUZZola, I forgot your husband built houses, but did you know I've been sketching out houses, layouts, have built a few models of houses (but just kept one I think), and I am crazy about HGTV and when This Old House was all that was on, I was a faithful fan.  But over the years, my dream house has changed a little, partly based on a vision I had when I was on the other side and sitting with one of my dearest friends I've known since childhood who passed not long ago. 

Well, until next time, same time, same place, I shall PROMISE to behave and bring only lots of flowers and cloud-floating daydreams, and just lots of love for you kindly people who love me regular.  May God bless each and every one of you, for you are all blessings to me.  Love to you all forever and always, Gail 

My Dear Gail - I laughed and continue to laugh at me flirting with the father figure of my life. I am soon to be 48, married with two sons. He is soon to be 70 with a wife. It would never work out. All my life I have known him and his family and they are like family to me. I remember when he got married. I was so mad because I wanted my mom to leave my dad and marry him. I used to put my arms around them and force them to kiss.

I just came home from doing a little grocery shopping, had a little bit to eat and now I have to start dinner. I made a loaf of bread and its still rising. Yes, sometimes I become Betty Crocker and make a loaf of bread from scratch. I hope you are all drooling!   And this afternoon I am meeting up with GrannyDukes. I'll probably pass out tonight.

Hugs!

for what it is like to ride with DD during her paper route, there are no words.

but we had fun.

LOVEEssa

going to bed with my melatonin.  I like the stuff.

Veggy i for one am drooling for sure:-) nothing like fresh bread too bad i'm no baker. Special thoughts to you and your dear friend.

Hi Nancy. I did apply for SSDI, but I really don't see myself waiting for that. No, I am waiting for a thing called disability retirement. You have to apply for it right away when you go to retire. So, since I felt I had to take early retirement because of health problems and the lack of understanding from my employer, I applied for disability retirement. If approved, I would be paid the same amount of money as if I had stayed another four years for full retirement. As it is I am only getting half that. This process is not federal; it is Maryland State retirement. The estimates for their making their determination were not as long as the SSDI is. They were supposed to decide in 3-6 months. Unfortunately, the psychiatrist effed with me and made me wait an entire month to see her. This put the paperwork a month behind. Then she didn't fill it out right, so they sent it back to me and I had to send it back to the shrink and they had to send it back to Maryland State Retirement, so that took a couple more weeks. Sooo, I wait. That's the game isn't it? And if I can't get work when I go looking for it, I have already started the SSDI application process. I'm a few months into that. I don't know. Something will work out. It is best to think positive, as long as we don't get stuck in the normalcy bias.

Oh, DUNE, one of my most favorite peoples, I feel your frustrations.  Please, if it's allowed for the kind of retirement disability thing you're going for, if they turn you down, reapply and battle whatever it is they didn't think made you a candidate.  I did, it wasn't retirement tho, it was straight SSD, and I was accepted on the second go.  I also would like to boss you around some more and give you a tip.  Let's see, within just a few months, you shall perhaps take the A+ certification test in your computer thing... do I understand that you are going to use it at those computer-type places as a tech of some kind?  If so, good.  If not, then you could ask the people who are schooling you to help you get a job doing what you now know how to do.  ALSO, I have to put in a powerful good word to your old work where you made friends with some folks at the Help Desk.  I had that job, tech help for AT&T, I got people connected, and I LOVED it.  No drama, was real proud, so put that in your bag of goodies to pull out when you finish your schooling and are ready to find work.  By the by, I KNOW you will get work if you want it.  The rest of your story, only time will tell if you get some Gov Aide of some kind (may he be tall, handsome, rich, and keep birds).

LADIES, I was recently looking for a picture I stuck somewhere in BCO, it was a fantasy picture of snow and bunnies and doves and a winged lady, I think.  I'm still at it, a little each day, and I swear, I cannot BELIEVE how rocked out my poor little head was (and is) on getting people's names right.  So, don't know if I confessed this or not, but I have a glitch in my brain, it's called "aphasia," and there are a gazillion kinds, mine is the one where I get the category right but the word wrong, so instead of saying "road" i'll say "sidewalk," and instead of saying, "Nancy," I'll say, "Veggy."  So, please just fill in the blanks as I scramble my eggs on the fire of pain and skip over whatever makes no sense!

I have had some physical problems lately, so many improved by my change in meds, but I SWEAR it just never really goes away altogether.  And even tho I arrogantly said goodbye to cancer this summer, it's truly something a person never really gets over.  And the human condition, oh mine is perhaps not as bad as my husband's, but I'm here to confess that I hate it that I suffer, so NOT like me, but sometimes a short walk to the creek helps.

I was driving home down a hill where I can see the tallest peak visible from Asheville, Mt. Pisgah, and this cold front had blown thru the night before, so a bunch of billowy clouds settled along the base of that range of mtns, and near the top of Pisgah was a drift of floating pinkish white clouds, what gives the "Great Smokies" their name, and the white pink clouds were against a soft pale-blue sky, and instead of feeling like fall, it felt just like it was spring all over again.  It is, isn't it?!  I think it is.  GG