Fuzzy's Romp Room

Havnt been on for a few days.was in the hospital with this friggin diverticular disease....no tv,no phone just lil old me doin lots of thinkin....have to do a followup with my gastro dr.who insists i do the surgery...laproscopic (sp) in the very near future.

And of course while i was in the hospital sweet Marybe passed away...I knew her quite well and she was one of the sweetest sistas you ever wanted to meet.So between the upcoming surgery and the death of Marybe im really in a shitty mood.On top of the pancreatic deaths call me imposible to live with.

im sad,depressed and in a foul mood.Ill be back!!!!!

Granny - said hi to you at the bonfire.  Did you know if you had just looked in your pockets you would have found you had company?  This has been a rough month for you, very rough, we are here.

Veggy - you had me going, I even enlarged the picture!  Stinker.

ETA - LeahLea - I remember when Hubby drove me home, I was in lala land and usually am a frigging freak from his driving.  I know.

Dunes - You have hunks wallpapered into your living room?  Cool.  You could sepia them w stain, shellac them then frame them w black frames and keep them!  Then we could come party in your hunk room.

Ducky - imagine she came all the way to America to end up in the middle of the prairie on a farm, never in her wildest dreams.  I know I would not have gotten out of the truck either, I am too loyal.  But for my daughter, if it had been her, I would have been saying go go go, it will all turn out for the best, just go.  Me, I would say stay stay, you have to take care of everything and everyone.   So I understand her.  My DBIL said he wentw DSIL to watch that movie and he wanted to pull out his teeth he hated it so much.  LOL  I made him re-watch it with Hubby and I and woke him up saying pay attention, this is why you are now divorced.  I am so mean.

Trying to get some packets ready for mailing, not doing so well, brain is befuddled, disorganized.  But I keep practicing here, I know I am better.

Did take a nap sitting on sofa beforethe sunset, Lacey girl was snuggled on my lap under the blankie.  Here is her new picture online.  She is eating 'ants' which is insectivore food, an omnivore nugget, 2 cherry tomatoes, a few blueberries, cantalope, cucumber, zucchini.  She had a few non-sprayed almonds, raw, but ate those first.  And she has a dropper of CoQ10 on each plate which is sweet water-like so she licks that up, it helped her get better after we moved away from that outside woodboiler, she was all sick and yellow striped and heart seemed bad and shedding terribly along her sides.  She seems good now, looks good, always out checking out the place for snacks. And that is what pet skunks get to eat, feasts.  Tonight she had chicken, cherry tomato, tiny organic green beans, almonds and some yogurt w flaxseed oil that I mixed the red and black raspberry powder into, she loves that too. 

LOVEEssa back to work

Broke my heart when he said ......This kind of certainty comes but just once in a lifetime"..........oh be still my heart..............and his name was Robert Kinkaid...........got that ass backwards......

The movie is Bridges of Madison County, Fuzzy.  Ever watched that one?

Another movie that has a grret seduction scene is Ethan Fromme, but that is the damn most depressing movie ever.

A movie I cannot forget is When Harry Met Sally, just a good one.

Got my packets ready for new customers and packed one ebay box w tablecloth, seems like it took me all day, beefuddled brain.   But studied a lot today too.  And napped, meals, dishes, etc.

Fuzzy, every time I think in full about the surgery, biopsies, mammograms, all of it, I get mad all over again.  I have issues.  Doctors not doing their jobs, not listening, whatever.  And I have issues with out state for not protecting us from the outside wood boiler furnace when the smoke was killing us in our own home.  I get really really mad.  My friend said, well you know you can't do that when you have cancer, but I am anyway, there is no meditating it away.  Cluck it.

Off to bed after I check the mega millions numbers, we play 2 tickets a week, so gotta see if we won anything at all.

LOVEEssa

PS Click this for a feel good moment.  *_*

Yes, GG, you are truly rich.

Thanks for "It's a Wonderful World" Essa. I never get tired of that song. Did you win? I hope you did. That wood boiler furnace sounds worse every time I read about it. It even made Lacey sick. What state is that in? Bad neighbors can really make life difficult, but this one was trying to kill you. How horrible! Oh yeah, and no, the hunks are not wallpapered in, they are just pictures hung on the wall. I thought it was a cute idea for a while, but I'm ready for something different. I'll just tuck them all away in a drawer somewhere. LOL. However, they may as well stay there until I am able to redecorate. I need money for that. I hate needing money. I wish the state would just make their decision, in my favor of course, and give me a proper pension. Oh well. I have to learn to trust that everything happens for a reason. I must learn to go with the flow. It is not healthy for us to be stressed. Cancer loves a stressful environment. It loves cortisol. We must not give it what it loves.

Here's a question for the group.

 A friend of mine was just diagnosed. What do you remember was very helpful and what was not so helpful in the very beginning?

Hi CHH. What was not helpful: being told about people you know who died from breast cancer. LOL. Did anyone else get a lot of that?  Also not helpful: my boss telling me to watch my sick time (the week I came back to work after the mastectomy). Yah. Right. Helpful: People not ignoring it. One girl made a special trip over to the computer room to give me a hug. A friend drove 2 hours to come see me and take me out to lunch -- or wherever I wanted to go.

Oh, girls, here is a pic of my wall of shame. I know. I'm weird. Truly, the whole thing started with a psychotic break. A lot was going on and I got to thinking that the only answer was to retreat into fantasy and my fantasy happened to involve Telly Savalas, well not Telly Savalas as much as Kojak. LOL I bought at least a half dozen pictures of him, then eventually realized that was too weird. So, somehow it made more sense to buy more pics, of other stars, and use it to decorate the wall where I have all my DVDs stored.

I remember one thing I did not appreciate was "yeah, my mother went through that, you'll be fine." I was 50 so i didn't like that comparison.

CHS-helpful= second opinion

not helpful...oh you have early stage cancer...you are so lucky.

Did anyone watch stand up to caner tonite...100% of the donations go for finding a cure.

ohh Nancy, thanks for the hugs.  You're right about DH, he's really wonderful, but this is so stressful for him, I keep apologizing to him.....anyway.  Thanks for being here.  It truly helps.

I like very much how you've framed your hollywood pics, DUNE.  And I liked your wisdom on keeping stress down.  ALL, both docs increased dose on all my meds, altho it took some persuading.  I was a happy camper to get home.

Soooo, we're doing movies too?  Speaking of Meryl Streep, she is magic, to be sure.  Two very good movies with her in it also are "Silkwood," and "The French Lieutenant's Woman."  Silkwood is a current-day story about some friends who live together and work in a nuclear type place.  The French Lt Woman is a movie within a movie, a time period piece about lovers, which they mix with the REAL actors getting involved with each other, too.  Some other movie favs that come to mind that are wonderful, "The Natural," "Chinatown," and "What's Up Doc."  The Natural is a Robert Redford movie about baseball, Chinatown with Jack Nicholson is a 1930s classic detective story, and What's Up stars Barbra Streisand, a screwball comedy, really funny.

CHH, about your friend with cancer, what to say and not, I think listening and sympathizing without getting upset is a good idea; my brother sent me gifts... and I would have liked flowers from people, cards; and of course my finding this website was a lifesaver.  Also, specific to myself, when cancer comes, so too comes the fear of death, which is not something many people have experience with, their own mortality.  See, I went thru all the steps of grief and so had to reason thru many changes, but death was the one thing I could not deal with.  And so I put it on a shelf until I could deal with it later, which for me was I asked the Christ to please take that from me for a while, and He did.  Later, He gave it to me in bits and pieces when I was ready.

By the way, that was a fabulous pic of the possum, so sweet, I do surely love pet families, as that is what we have always had, altho Richard's grown daughters in Florida we stay in touch with.  But it's what's in the home that kind of gets us through our days.  When we were younger, at one point we had two dogs, two rabbits, an old cat, several birds, and several tanks of fish.  Now we just have one dog and have yet to set the fish tanks back up.  Neither of us have gotten it together enough to complete hardly any projects over the last five years, both of us have tore-up backs and the pain makes us mighty slow.  I'm REALLY hoping my new meds will make it easier for me to finally get this house straight, to get some of this weight off by doing lots of walks, and in general trying to be regular humans instead of bums.  Love Marlon Brando's failed boxer character "On The Waterfront," where he's in the car with his brother, and he goes, "Ya should have taken better care of me, Charlie.  I could have been a contender.  But instead, I'm a bum, which is what I am."  Our whole family knows quotes from movies by heart, just love watching them becuz I get all plugged in and the world falls away and it becomes almost a real life experience I've had.

I've gone on too long.  Love all you girls so much.  GG 

Don't forget about "Mama Mia." As always, Maryl Streep is fantastic. Of course it may upset your Pierce Brosnan fantasies. The man can NOT sing. OMG! I LMAO and cover my face at the end when he sings. Oh, and the movie is LMAO funny and leaves you feeling great.

Thanks, GG, for the mention of Silkwood. I think that is the one I have been wanting to find. It's not on Netflix gosh darn it. I'll put it in my wants list and get ahold of it sometime when I have money again.

Thanks dunesleeper, no news last night from my BS, so looks like Monday would be the soonest now.

Trying to stay distracted, not very easy though.

Happy Saturday everyone. 

Just a quick note ... crazy week, no time to catch up.  Just wanted to let you know that you are all in my thoughts and prayers. 

Vicky