2012 sisters

Lostinmo, it really sucks when things change like this, and one has to come to terms with yet another new reality. Then on the other hand, there is me who has been declared 'cured' last week, and I am struggling so hard to believe it. There's this little voice . . . . you all know what I mean. Cancer is a bitch.

Jpmom, enjoy the car buying. We need to be exceptionally good to ourselves. If that means retail therapy, go for it!

Tracy, you have received very good advice here. The walking every day is important. I did not do it enough because I thought I was too weak, but I just should have tried harder. Now I am going to have to pay a personal trainer to get me back into shape. Oh well, I'm currently not spending any money at the hairdresser, so I won't feel too guilty. Lol!

Beth-in-Ten, I cannot give any advice on an IMLN as I did not have one, but welcome here. You will find encouragement and support here. Hopefully someone will come along soon who will have an answer for you about the ILMN.

Tazzy, it's none of my business, and pardon my curiosity, but did you get a TE as well? If you don't want to discuss that, I will understand. Hope you are doing well.

Tina Jason, good for you on coloring your hair! If it makes you feel better, go for it. As for me, I decided to go grey. Had been struggling with the going-grey issue for a long time, because I had been coloring my hair for about 20 years. I did not know how to go about going grey, because I had dark hair. My husband and sons would not hear about grey either. The last few years I had to have my hair colored every three weeks because it grows so fast, and it was getting very expensive. I guess the decision to go grey has been made for me when I lost my hair, and I am actually relieved. My goal is an elegant bob - think Meryl Streep in The Devil wears Prada. My family will just have to deal with my 'blondness', and I will spend the money on a personal trainer. It is my hair and my choice, not theirs. Maybe a sexy new body will make up for the grey hair?

Beth-Welcome and sorry you have to be here but you came to the right place for support. 

lostinmo-Sorry about the change in your receptors to Triple Negative,it sucks to be settling in your treatment and then finds out that it has changed. Regardless of the type, you're going to beat it. I know a lady who was TN as well and went through BMX and exchange and chemo and now she'll be coming up to her 5 year mark very soon. BIG ((((((((((((((HUG))))))))))))))))))))))

Teeballmom- congrats on getting to number 3 soon. Water tastes nasty to me also, but sparking soda does not for some reason. I bought a soda steam at BB&B and make it myself, so i dont have to lug the huge bottles home, i occasionally add an ounce or two of juice to give it flavor.

Lostinmo... sorry about your new dx. Check out the Triple negative forum.. calling all TN's. I will see you there. It means that our cancers cannot be blocked by hormones -yet. They are doing some great research work in this field. You may want to check out this website http://www.tnbcfoundation.org/

Ramols: hope that you enjoyed your day back at work.

Jpmom... happy you are OK... well more than OK - nice to have good news. More good news hopefully. Do let us know what car you decide on - good for you doing that - so exciting.

Welcome Beth-in-Ten. Crapy you have to be here, but a great home to find yourself in. See message to Lost too about being a TN.

Liefie... like you I coloured my hair for longer than I care to remember it is now coming back grey with black patches... how attractive eh? I am thinking I will see what the grey actually looks like before colouring again.

Teeball... sending you good vibes for Wednesday tx - hang in there.. remember chemo kicks cancer's butt.

Tracy... rinsing my mouth out after most meals with a solution of 1 tsp baking soda and cup warm water kept mouth sores at bay. Walking daily is also great advice.

Juneau - I hope you get to love your hair soon.

Sorry if I have missed anyone... I'm blaming these happy pills which makes a change from chemo brain   I still feel as if I am gaining strength each and every day.  this morning I went into my garden and did some light weeding - it amazes me how we adjust and I can do so much more with my left hand than I ever thought. 

I still feel the need to nap in the afternoon so do so.  I am being very kind to myself.

Wishing you all minimal SE days with love and laughter.

Take care

Hugs to you all xxxxx

Good luck to all who are in the BGC today for the first time. Beth, sorry you have to be here. Tazzy, I am glad you are being good to yourself. Teeball, I could drink iced tea even when I hated the taste of everything else. Nkb, good idea on the soda stream, they have really come down on price too. Lomo, kind of strange to have your Dx change on you! gotta change your mindset to match, that's got to be hard. June, glad you could add one more thing you can do yourself. liefie, stay gray and see how it goes, you can always color later. Jpmom, have fun testdriving fun cars. If I've missed you, sorry, much love. I just found out they are no longer holding my job and I have to reapply when I do go back. Of course, just as I am getting to the point of actually being strong enough to actually go back. Sigh, it always happens that way. Oh well, I suspected it was going to happen, so I will get through it. Besides I have my TE replacement surgery next Monday, and won't be able to drive for at least a weak. I squeezed in my cardiac doctor appointment tomorrow, and pacemaker check, so one more thing to check off. Much love to all.

Moonflwr- is it legal to not hang onto your job while you are out on disability? I don't think it is legal in California! We once had someone out for a year with neck pain and kept paying all her benefits until she quit at the end of a year. Hope it works out for you.

Wow moonflwr, that sounds like shit icing on a crap cake. Good luck with all that job stuff. Sorry you are having to deal with that on top of everything else.

Thanks JP, And Dakota, what makes you think I am positive ALL the time, um, I am sure there are a lot of people on these boards who could tell you otherwise! LOL! We all have down moments, that's why we come here. And mostly every one gets down on different days, and there are people who help pull you out of the mud. Just had a bad thought, Can you imagine tis board with all of us hitting bottom at once, wow! That would be LOUD! LOL. So, if you're feeling a bit down today, take my hand, even though I am not as up as normal, I can offer you what I got.! ((((Hugs))))))

Tazzy, and JP, I didn't say, but I liked that description too!

Moonflwr~

Ur right we all have our moments..... This was the third thing recently in my life that has been very negative. Even my dr called to say.... I don't even know what to say to you anymore. I am trying to be positive and think.... Ok everything happens in three's I am done now ,... Black cloud go away.... Maybe I should try the voodoo doll after all...lol... It has to get better.

Moomfler912-Sorry to hear about your job and hope everything works out for you when you're ready to go back to work! This cancer sucks all round. Good luck with exchange!

Thx, soy. But I am not ready for Exchange yet. They still have to replace my left TE that was removed for infection shortly before chemo. Almost 7 months ago. So, I will need fills in both TEs, then wait for the Exchange. And you are right, this cancer sucks.

Hello, heading in on Wednesday for my 3rd chemo, I seem to be handling it well although mentally I'm not doing so good.  I found my lump over a year ago and dismissed it as another fibroadanoma, something that runs in the women in my family, not cancer not one person on either side.  I told my doctor on my bi yearly physical and he said he was certain it was nothing to worry about!!! Wrong!!!!!!

 My surgeon recommended chemo before surgery(mastectomy) because of the size of the cancer. What worries me the most is lymp node involvement.  My nodes on ultra sound "appear uninvolved".  I wont know till after chemo is done and surgery.  I'm just scared of everything right now