kjiberty, I think I'd rather have the zits.  Just weird; haven't broke out this bad in years.  The occasional pimple, but man, thank goodness for makeup.  Gotta try and look decent for work in teh am. 

My fever hit 101.5 yesterday. that was a scare. But I lie down on my bed and it came down a bit and then I took a tylenol and it has stayed in the 99's since. I have that post-fever headache and wiped out feeling today. My MIL is chemo-sitting me today. I probably wouldn't have a sitter except for that fever spike yesterday - it really unnerved my husband, and me too a bit. I'm not bone-achey tho so I count that as a blessing.

Vicki - why can't you sleep in your fave pose? Is it the port? heartburn? My port is a bit irritating I've noticed. Hard to sleep on my left side. 

Tazzy oh wow those are the scrubbies of my past! made me really miss my ol' dog when I saw that picture because he always carried one around in his mouth. (in hindsite it was probably stuck in his teeth-lol-nah it wasn't) we didn't have the pretty colors though at the time we used them;we just had yellow and maybe a paler orange than the purdy blue and orange ones in your pic!

Wish I could go in the water so I could load up on scrubbies and experiment with them in my swim suit and report back on how they were when I got out, etc . I feel that would be the least I could do while you are in the BGC   but it doesn't look like I'll be able to go in the pool or ocean for a while until this heals up. When I told my hubby about the scrubbies he laughed but said he's surprised I wouldn't try wadding up duct tape because I have a weird facination for the stuff and buy all colors and patterns lol. I loved when they featured it on the tv shows Mythbusters and How's it made. No one wants to tell me when anything stops working or breaks because they are afraid I'll try to duct tape it. I know, it's very strange. Can I blame it on cancer like I try to do everything else? lol 

I'm so sorry you guys have to go thru the sickness, hives and zits, nausea, etc. with your treatments. That sucks. You're all in my thoughts and prayers. 

Vickilind you have the 16 year old preprom zits and I have the 16 year old foobs. Well actually thats a great exaggeration on my part- I have more like foobs of an 11 year old. Lol  If I can get a fill tomorrow maybe I'll be up to those of a 12 yo!

Oh Tazzy I'm so sorry you are having such a rough time. With all the treatments and side effects you are going thru you deserve to just cry, bitch and whine all you want; we're here to support each other thru bad and good, right? Your DH loves you , understands and doesn't take your "blame" to heart. He definilely sounds like a real keeper - hugging you and telling you to get it out of your system that you will get thru it together instead of some of the more dismissive things I see on the boards coming from husbands when the wife gets emotional like oh stop crying you'll be ok etc, etc. My hubby is like yours thank goodness-they love us and they don't like seeing us hurt. I haven't been too emotional throughout all the diagnosis, surgery, etc but Saturday my dh was telling me about some show thats going to be on that is going to explore the relationship of dogs to their owners. We are both major dog lovers. Then he's like oh I don't think you'll want to see this part and goes on to read the synopsis detailing how they will talk about the dogs that have to be put down and how it's done. I just had so much emotion pent up that when he read that part I went off on him and started crying and whining . I know normally I would have just voiced anger that so many dogs have to be put down and we'd have talked about the rest of the article. Instead I told him he ruined my day reading that to me, that he should have known how upsetting that would be to me, etc etc and proceeded to cry like a baby. Poor guy kind of just looked at me, said "i'm sorry and hugged me while I cried it out. It just felt good to cry and 10 minutes later I was fine. I'm afraid to fall asleep now though for fer he'll have me committed to an insane asylum like he probably should.lol   

I'm glad you are feeling better today

Hello,

I've recently joined this site after being diagnosed in May.  I have been posting questions here and there but just found your link this morning which helped with alot of my questions and anxiety. I am trying hard to stay strong and positive but I have to admit it has been a struggle as lately I have been feeling sad, depressed and anxious. I wish I could say diferently.

I had a lumpectomy last Tuesday after agonizing over the lumpectomy vs mastectomy decision up until that point. My BS at the University of Michigan Cancer Center suggested that I take it slow and proceed with the lumpectomy with Sentinal Node Biopsy and take it from there.  

Well my Path reports came back and I didn't get clear margins, they also found DCIS n addition to the IDC with 3/8 nodes positive. 

I have an appointment today in about an hour to discuss next steps.  I'm sure that that discussion will include re-excision vs Mastectomy and proceeding with axillary lymph node dissection vs other treatment.

I realize that this is a decision that I have to make but it does help to hear from those of you that had to face this as well.  I think I just want the Mastectomy and clear this cancer out as much as possible.  My BS already said that I most likely will face Chemo and rads either way. 

 Thanks for this thread. Best wishes for all.

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2Fried... hope we both get committed to the same asylum then is all I can say  Happy to hear you also have a wonderful DH.

And for me anyway, I dont realise how much emotion I have in me, until something really small triggers it and then the tears just fall and fall and fall. And yes it does feel good after.

I think the whole week just came to a head yesterday.. the appts with the RO and BS and disappointment of that outcome. Just the whole bloody fatigue thing. 

All of us with supportive, intuitive partners are so fortunate. I cannot imagine having husband who isn't  supportive through this...I really cant. One woman I heard about, her husband refused to even talk to her about her diagnosis.... I have to be honest I think I'd be kicking him into touch along with my BC.

I try not to stay 'down' for too long. If I'm in the hole for too long, makes me feel worse and doesn't change my situation. But I do allow myself the time to get it out of my system that's for sure.

And I get so much from being able to share it with you all.  I love the fact that we can bitch and whine
here and then suddenly out of nowhere someone will make us smile and remember that we are in this together and its OK to have those emotions.

jazlaumir - welcome to the club none of us want to be in. As I am sure you can see you'll get all the support and comfort here.  Take each day at a time.   I know that my feelings can change by the minute.  Especially at the beginning when the dx is so new and raw and so frightening.  My only advice about your appt today is to write down any questions you have beforehand and also to write down your BS's answers.   Take your time as well to come to a decision if you need to.  We're here for ya sista.  Let us  know how today goes.

Jpmom... you are definitely not alone in the meltdowns.... As for posting pics... sometimes it works for me and sometimes not so much. 
Here's 2 ways.  Easiest for me was just to copy and paste the picture... if that don't work and it doesn't always,
create a Photobucket account (free - just google photobucket).  Upload the pics you want (gives you step by step instructions).  Then you see the little tree next to the smilie face on the toolbar here... well click on that and you will need to add in the URL code - you'll get that from the instructions in photobucket.    Hope that works, and you can see why I would make a very bad teacher as I am so bad at explaining things.   Good luck !!  

2Fried... that made me smile.. Super-Tazzy !

allurbaddays; I would recommend calling your MO; that is a high fever and by taking the tylenol, you could be masking the fever.  Seriously, call you MO and report the fever.  Better to be safe than sorry. 

Tazzy, you have a great DH; it takes a man to take all the crap we deal with going through BC and then to deal with all the emotional stuff we dish out.  Give him a big ole metally kiss!

jazlaumir, welcome.  I started with a DCIS diagnosis, went lump, then path came back like yours; no clear margins, DCIS EVERYWHERE, two tumors, yada, yada, yada.  Went back for a mx (mastectomy) and sentinal node (SNB), 2 of 4.

Feel fine with my decision to go with the MX; I just hate my TE (Temp Expander).  (I think there is more on my info page, I think)

Just don't be afraid to ask questions and make sure you UNDERSTAND the answers.  There is so much info thrown at us and it is all so technical and medical.  Take notes, or better yet, bring someone with you to take notes.  THere is a wealth of info on these boards. So many of the ladies have done extensive research and the Mods are great too!

Keep you chin up, or down if you need to.  Keep us in the loop.

Jaz - I had a similar situation. Tried a re-excision and still didn't get it all and ended up with UMX.  Of course, now I wish I skipped the middle surgery but know that I made the best decision I could at the time.  I knew I had to attempt to save the breast and I did. The final pathology confirmed I made the right one, but you really never know until you have it removed!  Sending good thoughts to you...

jazlaumir-Welcome to the club nobody wants to join, we are here to support each other all the way! Regarding you question of re-excision vs mastectomy, you would know what's best for you. Here's my experience, my cancer was IDC 15mm, and I also had the option of lumpectomy vs mastectomy from the beginning and I choose bilateral mastectomy with 1-step to implants ( not everyone is a candidate for this procedure, I was cause I can do a nipple sparing and skin sparing and no radiation). I did my research and found that 1 in 3 lumpectomies has to do re-excision due to not clearing the margins and even though my doctor told me that the survival rate for both is the same, the reoccurance rate for lumpectomy is 6-7% 9when done correctly with clear margins) vs mactectomy of 1-2%. Plus with lumpectomy, I will have to deal with MRIs and CT scans evert few months to monitor the breasts for the rest of my life. 

I didn't want cancer and the fear of it coming back dominating my life every few months with MRIs and CT scans, I want to live my life and that's why I did the BMX. Please do your research before you make this decision.

I am waiting to get Friday's visit to the BGC (I just love that acronym.. thanks Vicki) before I even look at the surgery threads.... telling myself its not denial - just too early.   Plus with my chemo brain I'd forget everything I'd read anyway.

jpmom... that's a great idea about your pictures... I am so going to do that, when it starts growing again.  enjoy your nap.

Hi Jaz... good to know this decision is right for you and you have accepted it.  It saves us lots of angst in the long run... and I'd know that.  Also its going to be happening quick.... for me that owuld be an added plus.

Take care and please keep up posted on how you are.

Jazz:  Welcome.  I had clear margins after my lumpectomy, so for me, I didn't have to make the decision.  However, I had already decided that if I had to the would do the MX route just to get it over and done with. I am glad you are okay with you decision.  

Good evening!

Jazz- Welcome to our group. Sorry that you here with us. I'm glad that you are at peace with the decision.  It was taken out of my hands. I'll have a mx sometime the end of July.

Tazzy- Sorry you were feeling so down and glad your better now. That's why I hid most of the week, just didn't have the energy or mood to even post on here. Would have perfered to just sleep until this was all over. You have a real keeper in a husband. Mine goes to every treatment and appt. with me and asks more questions than I do. 

allyourbaddayswillend- Please call your MO if you haven't yet. I was given strick instructions to call if my fever went over 100.5. Several times I was told this. Hope your feeling better soon.

Juneau-Good luck with your surgery. And your new job when it's time. Boo on not getting to say goodbye to everyone.  I sometimes still go visit my friends that I worked with for 12 years during their lunch. 

 jpmomof3 hope the tx went well and that you enjoyed the benedryl nap. I'm amazed at how fast it kicks in. Your so close to being done!

Hope I didn't miss anyone, If I did I'm sorry.

Spent the day taking my Dad to the eye dr to have his catarcts checked. Then taking my mom to the grocery stores. Wish I could find something new and good to eat. I'm not sure that breaded fried pickles will count. 

Tazzy, I agree; I can see the fear in DH eyes.  I am not only his best friend, but really, his only friend.  He says to me, when I ask him how he's feeling, "numb". 

jaz, it's a good thing you are at peace with your decision.  That will make things easier when as you are going through your course of treatments.

lostinmo, did you try the fried pickles?