Unexpected silver linings and breast cancer

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Alicethecat
Alicethecat Member Posts: 535

Hi everyone

Has being diagnosed with breast cancer led to any unexpected silver lining for you?

Here are my top three:

1. My ex-fiancee of 30 years ago made a trip over from the US to see me in the UK.

2. You find out who your friends are.

3. The chemotherapy treatment seems to have come on leaps and bounds from ten years ago, says a friend who survived oesophagal cancer and was diagnosed as stage 4 but is alive and kicking ten years later.

Is there anything you'd like to share?

Best wishes

Alice

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  • Moderators
    Moderators Member Posts: 25,912
    edited May 2012

    What a great idea for a thread, Alice! Thanks for starting this :)

    --The Mods

  • fredntan
    fredntan Member Posts: 1,821
    edited May 2012

    I never knew how much my DH truelly loves me. He has been my pain in ass for 24 years. But in this last year he has really been there for me. He cant do housework etc, but i have cried into his shoulder more times than i can count now, and he can allways make me feel better.

  • hawaiik
    hawaiik Member Posts: 69
    edited May 2012

    I wouldn't recommend it as the best way to go about it (LOL) but I got really nice Boobs out of it! I love the phrase "silver linings" That is exactly what my PS said when she saw me, while aknowledging the difficulty of the situation she said she hoped she could be part of the silver lining in all of this. I also do more what I want instead of what others want now. I also am actively learning how to be happy even in difficult circumstances with a therapist, that can only be good no matter what is going on in my life. I also found out who my friends were and weren't , That was an eye opener!

    Great Idea! 

  • dobie
    dobie Member Posts: 424
    edited May 2012

      Before BC I worked a full time job, flipping night to day shifts weekly, doing 12 hour shifts.  When I was going through radiation therapy I continued to work but was able to rearrange my schedule so I was working four 8 hour days, no night shifts.  When I got to the end of my radiation, I felt better than I had in years.  I asked the Rad Onc if there was anything else she could radiate cause my schedule was so good and I felt so good.  She said, "Honey, you need to re think your lifestyle!"  And I did.  It took some real finangling, but I cut back my hours and do not work nights anymore. I find I don't miss the extra money and I am happier and feel better for it.

    Also- Often people do not have an opportunity to let you know that they care about you.  When I was going through treatment, many people at work, good friends as well as casual aquaintances and family members came through with words, cards, actions and support in surprising ways.   I realized that alot of people really do care about me.  That's a good feeling and good to know about yourself ( that you are loved)  and about your peeps.

  • alex56
    alex56 Member Posts: 136
    edited May 2012

    Yes, absolutely!  I don't proscrastinate anymore (except on my taxes).  I took an EMT class and now am a volunteer ambulance attendant in my community.  My friends and I get together regularly now and in my family we all set aside time to be together even if it's for tacos and a movie at home.  Out of the blue people would offer to drive me to radiation or bring food over just because they wanted to.  I feel blessed in so many ways.

  • Chantal10
    Chantal10 Member Posts: 105
    edited May 2012

    I love that I get to celebrate every day as if it were my birthday! A new awakening is my special blessing. These new boobs are great looking, painful, but pretty in clothing. :)

  • sewingnut
    sewingnut Member Posts: 1,129
    edited May 2012

    My skin has never looked better. Must have been the inside out chemical peel :)

    I would never have, in a million years, cut my hair short. But now I'm kind of liking the wash and wear hair. I had naturally curly hair before chemo so now I am embracing the curl :)

  • Jayme33
    Jayme33 Member Posts: 24
    edited May 2012

    I can totally relate! 32 years with my guy and he drove me crazy for most of that time. Frankly...was not a good husband or father for that matter. But when diagnosed, he cried for me, held me and has been my rock through the last 3 months.A nice silver lining indeed.

  • mdg
    mdg Member Posts: 3,571
    edited May 2012

    For me it was quitting my high stress career (something I would have never done before BC) and becoming a stay at home mom to my five year old son. I have embraced being home and doing more for my family. The old career and money that came with it don't matter anymore. I also did find out which people I could really count on and was surprised at some of those that I thought I could count on before all of this. For those people that mean a lot to me....I always tell them I love them instead of assuming they know. I am pursuing a creative business for fun too which is something I wanted to do but never had time for before. I also am paying it forward to bc gals. So many bc gals supported me through this I am returning the favor and becoming a volunteer bc peer to peer counselor. I also want to volunteer to teach fitness classes to bc patients at my local cancer center (I have taught aerobics for years). I want to help others feel healthy and physically good through the cancer journey. I also started gardening and take time to stop and smell the roses more. I realized that life is not good....it is GREAT!!!!!!

  • Jejik
    Jejik Member Posts: 191
    edited May 2012

    For about a decade before I was diagnosed with cancer, I had very bad episodes of bipolar disorder...mostly lows, I was in and out of the hospital for suicide attempts and in more psych wards than I care to remember. Things got so bad I had to quit my job as a lawyer, something i had worked so hard to achieve, and I just didn't see the good in life anymore. I felt like bipolar was a death sentence. That if my mind wasn't functioning perfctly, life wasnt worth living.

    After being diagnosed with stage Iv breast cancer, and going through chemo, surgery, and radiation, I find that having bipolar isn't such a burden anymore. I am not sure how to explain it, it isn't like the bipolar has gone away, of course, but things never seem as bleak as they used to. I guess it took my life permanently hanging in the balance for me to understand how strong I am, and how worth living life really is.

  • 1Athena1
    1Athena1 Member Posts: 6,696
    edited May 2012

    Some bad experiences have no silver lining for me, but BC isn't one of them. I got: 

    --Two nice new breasts!! (no erogenous zones compromised, as I regained sufficient feeling).

    --More self confidence and insight into my values.

    --I no longer smoke.

    Great thread, btw.

  • karen333
    karen333 Member Posts: 3,697
    edited May 2012

    I got a trio of silver linings: a new bc sister who I adore, she is such a good person, a handpicked cancer team who are great in their respective fields, an appreciation for family and I got a fourth: I stand up for myself now in the important areas, a lot of areas got downgraded to "not important".

  • YramAL
    YramAL Member Posts: 1,651
    edited May 2012

    Before my diagnosis, and to tell the truth, even now, my daughter and I have a really rocky relationship. But my breast cancer diagnosis showed me, and her, that she did love me, and she helped me out quite a bit during my treatment. Things are kind of back to normal now, but I can look back and see all the nice things she did for me during that time.

    Mary 

  • 1Athena1
    1Athena1 Member Posts: 6,696
    edited May 2012

    Another positive I would add:

    --Cancer gives you courage. We all grow up thinking cancer is "the worst thing that can happen to you" - Well, it did, and I am still here. So if it happens again it won't be quite so scary.

  • Blessings2011
    Blessings2011 Member Posts: 4,276
    edited May 2012

    I think my BC dx saved my life, in many different ways.

    Physically, I have lost 32 pounds and have 40 more to go. I work out at the gym and ride my adult trike, and now that I feel better, I feel STRONG and CONFIDENT - words I would never have used to describe my body. I will be 62 years old with muscles AND perky boobs. I am off all my daily meds except for thyroid. (Arimidex starts in the fall, after exchange.)

    Emotionally, I am filled with a sense of well-being. I survived cancer. It could return, I am well aware, and things could be much worse. But today it's a gorgeous day and I am grateful. My husband promised that we were a team and would face things together. We have. It's brought us closer together.

    Spiritually, I have learned to trust God more fully than ever before. Through all of this, He never left my side. He will be there for me no matter what the future holds.

  • 1Athena1
    1Athena1 Member Posts: 6,696
    edited May 2012

    Adding this thread to favorites....keep 'em coming!

  • LuvRVing
    LuvRVing Member Posts: 4,516
    edited May 2012

    Let's see...

    We moved back from the midwest to New England to be with our kids and grandkids. 

    We moved my mom (with Alzheimers) back to her home state so she can visit with her siblings while she still knows who they are.

    I met a new "sister" through BCO who is from my home town and went to the same high school.  We hit it off, our DHs hit it off and  now play golf together.  When I was a teenager, I knew her DH (before they were married) and his dad - they owned a pizza shop right across the street from where we lived.  They know my whole family, both sides, and most of my relatives!!!  She even worked for the OB/GYN who delivered my youngest child and who ended up being my step-uncle when my dad married his sister.  Believe me, when we first got together for an evening last June and started swapping stories, the coincidences were startling.

    And because of my age (now 62) and cancer stage, I was approved for SSDI and will be eligible for Medicare later this year.  That means my DH will be able to retire a little earlier because he won't need to carry me on his employer's medical insurance.  We were worried that he'd have to work right up to the age of 65 because I wouldn't be able to get insurance on my own, and COBRA for two would be so expensive.  Now he'll be able to hang it up at 63 1/2 or so.

  • CityFi
    CityFi Member Posts: 95
    edited May 2012

    What a fabulous thread!

    As a person who had come to believe that we can choose to allow adverse experiences to transform us, being diagnosed with BC early this year forced me to walk my talk.  I'm proud to say I have. Some of the most profound things:

    1. I became consistent with my spiritual praxis. I have always been called to things like Reiki and meditation but never pursued them. Now I pratice both and other things regularly and just as I'm going through the challenge of my life, I've never felt better about myself and my future.

     2. Since I was a young girl, I've had a very challenging relationship with my mother. (Ironically, she herself is a breast cancer survivor.) Honestly, I often felt that she cared for me out of obligation than love. Seeing how she has responded to my diagnosis and treatment has brought us much closer together, and I know the healing is just beginning. 

    3. Like many here, I've learned to get in touch with my feelings and, more importantly, express them. I've cried so much -- more often over the unresolved emotional issues that BC brought to the surface than BC itself. This emotional clearing has been so good for a suppressor like me. 

    4.  As an artist (primarily a writer) my BC journey has pushed me to literally put myself on the line. I'm proud of all the work I've done to date, and I do believe who I am is reflected in it. The things that I'm doing and contemplating as I fight BC are making me more fearless and transparent creatively and that in turn is making the work more resonant with its audience. I'm also expanding into other forms of expression e.g. like dancing burlesque. On that note...

    5.  ... something that hasn't happened yet, but I will anticipate is actually having a better sex life! LOL!  I've always had a good body image and healthy libido, but for various reasons, I restrained myself from being fully and enjoying my body. I've learned a hard lesson in not taking it for granted, and all the emotional healing that I'm doing is priming me for the kind of intimate relationship that I've always wanted yet also feared. As I said on another board, after kicking cancer's ass, how can I be afraid of what some man thinks. And the right one gets the spanking new boobies! 

    And, yes, I've learned that I am far stronger and more loved than I could imagine. This journey has been a great opportunity to deepen my relationship with great people and exorcising others who just can't give as good as they get. Oh... and that means I'm getting a lot of practice in having compassion, forgiving and letting go... things that used to be a greater challenge, especially starting with myself.

    And the blessings are just beginning for all of us, I'm sure!  

  • JoanQuilts
    JoanQuilts Member Posts: 633
    edited May 2012

    Ask me when I'm done with treatment.  :)

  • CoolBreeze
    CoolBreeze Member Posts: 4,668
    edited May 2012

    This is a weird one, but when I was diagnosed, I started a blog.  That was 3 years ago.  I did it so that I wouldn't have to explain my treatment to every single person in my family over and over.  I wanted one place where they could go to read updates and not bug me.

    And, the blog caught on and I have half a million pageviews now.  Blogging has helped me through this process, helped me discover that I like to write, helped me find the humor in many situations I may not have found humorous and has given me an online support system that is focused on just me and I have made some good friends that I never would have without it.  And, someday my kids or grandkids will have it to read and get to know me and what I went through and how I handled it before I died.  So, there is a small legacy there.

    Without cancer, I wouldn't have blogged.  I would, of course, rather not have cancer.  :)  But, it has been a silver lining due to the support and friendships I've received, and the fun I have writing it.

  • bedo
    bedo Member Posts: 1,866
    edited May 2012

    No, I'm sorry, I can't really say that breast cancer has given me anything good, and I think that it caused my daughter a great deal of worry. I think I was happier and some important relationships were better before it.  I now have to keep my job for insurance and would rather travel the world. It put a damper on my free wheeling plans.  Sorry! 

  • Letlet
    Letlet Member Posts: 1,053
    edited May 2012

    I discovered that I loved to cook and I like to bake! The intense concentration that I need to make sure all the measurements are right, that I put them in the oven for x amount of time, that I add ingredients at this time - it obliterates all thoughts in my head, including BC and it gives me a sense of calm and serenity, like I just meditated :)))

    Plus it helps that when I bring my food to get togethers - I get compliments galore. It makes me feel productive and happy that I am able to give some joy (in a gastronomical sense) to the people that I love.

  • Letlet
    Letlet Member Posts: 1,053
    edited May 2012

    When I was diagnosed I saw the absolute good in people. My department of 40+ people, rallied around and donated 5 WEEKS of sick time for me. It was unbelievable.

    I have 2 kids and I am the breadwinner of the family. My husband watches the kids and goes to school at night. When I was diagnosed I had to support my family of four on disability pay.

    Christmas of 2010, I was too sick to go Christmas shopping, there were no gifts, no tree, no decorations. The nurses in my department gave presents to my son and daughter - they made our Christmas! They even made sure not to put their names so that we can say that it was "from Santa". My manager drove all the way from Manhattan to my house and deliver them. When she left My husband and I opened cards that had money in them, enough for groceries for Christmas!. My husband and I cried and fell to our knees thanking God for His goodness and mercy. 

    I can go on and on. I have a friend who without fail brought food every week for the entire time that I was on treatment - surgery, chemo, RT. She taught me that friendship is as much as a commitment as a marriage.

    I have more stories but I will run out of space!

  • voraciousreader
    voraciousreader Member Posts: 7,496
    edited May 2012

    Hate to be Debbie Downer, because there was nothing special about getting diagnosed with breast cancer. I had life saving emergency surgery, TWICE, before being diagnosed, so I needed THIS like I needed a hole in my head. Smelled the roses, appreciated and enjoyed EVERY SINGLE DAY before being diagnosed! Loved my family and friends ALWAYS. Didn't even bother telling more than a handful of people about MY cancer. Honestly, by the time I got diagnosed, I was sick and tired of getting sick and was sick of having to listen to well wishers. And since being diagnosed, I've had shoulder surgery and broke my foot.... No more courage or strength or sadness or any more or less happiness in my life before or since. Life was good before my diagnosis and honest to goodness, it's STILL the same.

  • AnneW
    AnneW Member Posts: 4,050
    edited May 2012

    I smile at what you wrote, VR. I have had many people ask me how cancer has changed me. I live in an "enlightened" community full of metaphysical overtones. When people asked me that, I got very annoyed. I was a good person before cancer, and I'm a good person after cancer. I have my same goals and dreams and personality.

    There are some great things and great people in my life since cancer, and some directly related to the path I have taken since cancer. I have many friends that I made through support groups. I wouldn't trade them for the world, but had I not had cancer and not met them, there would be others. There are many activities I've started since cancer--rock climbing, Pilates, cycling, and more travel. But I well could have come to these activities without cancer.

    Cancer was a pothole in the road of my life. Twice. I just keep driving where the road leads me and enjoy the trip.

    (All that being said, I would have been lost without BCO, and if there was one thing that came into my life that I need to call a "silver lining", there it is.)

  • Kaara
    Kaara Member Posts: 3,647
    edited May 2012

    I'm 71 years old, and believe it or not, bc was my first serious life threatening illness.  I think before my dx I tended to take my health for granted...that it would always be there, no matter what.  Not that I didn't take care of myself...I did.  Once I got the dx, it was a real wake up call that you cannot control what is going to happen to you, but you can control how you react to it.

    I changed my diet and lifestyle habits to one of an anti cancer philosophy and I re evaluated the priorities in my life.  Being a part of this site has helped tremendously by meeting and sharing with others who have similar challenges. 

  • SelenaWolf
    SelenaWolf Member Posts: 1,724
    edited May 2012

    I, personally, don't feel that there are any silver-linings or blessings in experiencing breast cancer, but that's just me.  What I do feel it has given me is; however, is the opportunity to make amends in several areas of my life ... and, of course, a major reality adjustment.  But "silver lining"?  No.

  • LtotheK
    LtotheK Member Posts: 2,095
    edited May 2012

    I've grown more cynical about some people, and less cynical about others.  If this question were posed from the outside community, I would suggest it is, like many other tactics, a way to make those without cancer feel safe should the bc beast come knocking.  Goodness knows, I got a lot of that along this journey.  There's my cynical side.

    My less cynical side says that the question is coming from our new BC family here.  I agree, BC.org was most assuredly a silver lining!  Coming out alive after such a harrowing experience, another silver lining.

    Taking stock of good things in our life and our personal empowerment are ways to keep our stress and anger down.  I love the reference to "metaphysical" parts of the country--I have a family member in one of those and I get mightily tired of the "positive thinking will cure anything" camp.  But I do think keeping our cortisol levels down and feeling happy can at least make our days better, and perhaps may help us stave off a recurrence under the right circumstances.

    I spent the first six months during treatment scared to death that a couple of close friends were able to walk away from me.  Now, I'm much clearer about life in general. That is another silver lining!

  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited May 2012

    I do have a silver lining to share.  I had never allowed myself to change my hair much since high school--shoulder length, sometimes a bit longer, no bangs, straight, highlights.  When my hair fell out I had no idea what I'd look like with short hair as it started growing back.  I thought I'd look awful in short hair, and dreaded it.  As it turns out, I've had more compliments to my 1.5 inch 'do than I ever got with my old hair style.  The silver lining is that BC has taught me not to be so focused on looks. Looks truly don't matter. It's life that matters.

    Claire

  • BarbRocks
    BarbRocks Member Posts: 37
    edited May 2012

    Having my hair short saves me an hour and fifteen minutes a day which adds up to nineteen days in a year.

    It made me realize that I should go through my pictures and get rid of the ones that my butt looked big.

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