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Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
edited June 2014 in Stage III Breast Cancer

 Last night I was thinking about how having the BC diagnoisis and especially stage III, gives us all the fear of watiing for the other shoe to drop.... But you know,  how normal are we!!Laughing  It's only natrual to feel this way.  Here;s another example;  A few years before BC I had a sudden unexpected significant Brain Hemorrhage, and while I was in recovery in the hospital for 7 weeks and rehab for anofther few months, I felt after a long time that there would be another explosion in my brain any moment.  It was very scary.  I do think about it every now and than, and fear this could happen randomly but in the last 3 years I've had BC on my mind and worry about that recurring.  But seriously,  a brain hemorrage is more scary to me, maybe that's why I'm in the land of denial.  Brain hemorrhage and BC I've survived so farWink Yikes  my 50's was a pretty scary decade!

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 Barb

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  • faithfulheart
    faithfulheart Member Posts: 544
    edited April 2012

    You are amazing Barb!!!

    You have really been through alot, life really can deal us a deck of cards!!!!  You have dealt  with yours really well,  you are an insperation to me!!!!!

    xo

    Steph

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  • jennyboog
    jennyboog Member Posts: 1,322
    edited April 2012

    WOW Barb...you have been through your share of trouble and you're still kicking!  It's the truth, BC has been my only thing....before that I was good, no probs so it's hard to think my pains could be old age, I always assume it's BC. Thanks for posting.

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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Member Posts: 1,376
    edited April 2012

    Steph, Jenny, thank you for your words! My my whole point in mentioning this is that when life deals us a blow like this, as we all know here, we become strong, very strong but we don't realize how strong until after we have gone thru it. When I came out of my 3 day coma after the brain hemorrhage, and had no deficits, everyone close to me were totally amazed that I was walking and talking with no issues with seeing or swallowing, or speaking , breathing and eating. I remember even while in the coma, I was thinking I wanted to do all those things but could not open my eyes and wake up, or even flinch and react to doctors pricking me with pins to check my reflexes while in the coma. It's amazing, but now I know why people say to talk to someone while they are in a coma, because I heard everything, and thought to myself, shit, I hear everythig they are saying but my eyes won't open and my body is not moving. When I finally recovered from all of it I laughingly would joke to people about my coma and sleep would have been such an easy way to pass on, but with my luck I'll probably suffer for years with a painful incurrable disease! OMG, how true that has almost become with this BC diagnosisSurprised

    Love

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  • jennyboog
    jennyboog Member Posts: 1,322
    edited April 2012

    Lol, you're a nut Barb!  That is crazy that you heard everything, I always heard the patient did.  I can't imagine what that must have been like for you, that would have drove me crazy.  I'm helping care for my grandma, she lives with me and has alzheimer's, she's on hospice and the nurse said she might have a week or two left.  We have to watch we say around her, I remind my family that she might be hearing us...after listening to you tell your experience, I know she is. Thanks.

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  • SpunkyGirl
    SpunkyGirl Member Posts: 1,568
    edited April 2012

    Barb,

    Your post makes me reflect on the fact that we've been through enough experiences to know that life throws a lot of curve balls.  Sometimes, I find myself dealing with people who don't seem to realize that.  They are still thinking that "That stuff only happens to other people." 

    I'm so sorry for all that you have been through (you are amazing), and I hope that life is going in a positive direction for you and for those you love.

    Bobbie

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