Calling all TNs

Stars in the Sky

I was worried about suze when I noticed she had not logged on in a few days.  I did not know her well.  I was no longer posting often in this thread when she started posting, but I still read every so often and read her updates frequently.  She, like LJ, was just amazing.  I can honestly say were two of my favorite posters on this board.  Always full of life and happiness while living in the worst of circumstances.  It seems weird to say this, but it seems fitting or comforting (not sure what the right word is here) to know that their courses were so similar and that they both passed so close together.  I imagine them together now laughing and happy, with no pain and no fear.  What huge losses for this thread and this world.

I am having a glass of wine (I absolutely hate wine) and I am raising my glass to each and every one of you wonderful ladies on this thread, in honor of each of you.  I am so thankful to have you in my life and not having to go through this beast of a disease and all the ugliness it causes by myself.  If I didn't have all of your posts to read and know that we are all sharing such raw emotions over the loss of both LJ and Susan, I think I would absolutely go nuts.  Who else, but each other, can ever fully understand what we are feeling over the tragic and untimely loss of these two beautiful and amazing sisters.  May God bless us all.

Linda

Has anyone heard from mbj?  It was March 6th her last post..I am worried about her too.

Thinking of LJ and Suze.  It does seem fitting that they may have "helped" each other leaving so close together.   The best thing I did over the weekend was to save 6 kitty lives from the local kill shelter.   One was close to death so emaciated and dehydrated from lack of care and no one caring that he wasn't eating, one was a pregnant mom about to give birth in a small cage without even a towel to rest upon, and the last 4 were precious little 6-week old Siamese babies just barely starting life, yet so close to having their lives snuffed out by uncaring humans.   I feel so blessed to have gotten them, held them and told them they are safe now.  I named the babies after spring blossoming flowers as they are starting a new life, just as LJ and Suze are on a new journey.

well ladies, it looks like my fight isn't quite over yet.  the biopsy came back as malignant.  i do a staging scan tomorrow morning.  hopefully it hasn't spread, but i think i already know the answer to that.  these past few days have turned out to be horrendous.  the stress is unbelievable.  

love to you all!

the best thing that happened to me today:  my house is clean from the girls weekend allowing me to relax and reflect. 

Ok, Inmate, Hang in there and get a plan.  We are all here for you.  Waiting sucks, fear sucks, CANCER SUCKS.  Holding you close.....

Oh Inmate- hang on to those good thoughts that it hasn't spread.

I HATE CANCER!!!!

Inmate - Honnnnneeeeey!!!!!  Wish I could just come and give you a huge, tight hug.  We won't allow you to go into depression or bad thoughts, every single person has their own unique destiny.  There are lots of different treatments out there and I am certain that one will match with your situation.  I am going to pray so hard that it is only Stage 1 or 11 and a very low grade.  I sure hope that it is a "new" primary - which is still curable.  Sending you love, love, hugs and more hugs.  Hope I could take away all your stress.

No we haven't heard from MBJ.  I want to hear from her so badly.  I honestly thought that Suze was going to write a post to us about regression.  I really depended on her to show us that yes, there are still some treatments out there.  I am still in shock.

Linda - thanks so much for the beautiful poem!  You have a really beautiful kind heart. 

Susan was an amazing, intelligent, resourceful woman who led the way with information, treatment options and some great advice. She helped me be a better advocate for myself. My thoughts go out to her family, husband, children, mom who was there helping her all the way, her father and sister  and to all her friends and all of us sisters who stand here and fight for our lives.

I met Susan for lunch one day and she was so positive and practical. She was a wealth of knowledge and shared such wonderful stories about her family and children. She was as up to date on any research as any doctor I have met and  was so giving of her support and love. I can only say that she and Laura were so helpful to me as I have gone through this journey. 

Yes I love the image of them driving in Suze's car with their great high heels going out to shop, garden, watch cooking shows, teach their children all kinds of practical things and share their warmth, love and kindness with us, as well as have a delicious drink and a great dessert.

The world has lost 2 beautiful amazing women. The tears won't stop. This is so sad for us all I can't imagine how their families are dealing with this. I know though that they are no longer in pain and I am at least thankful for that.I think of them as walking into the light.

Dear sisters we will miss you but you will always be with us.

Innmate..kick this thing as far as you can. We are here for you. Hugs and strong healing vibes.

FC, FC, FC, FC, FC, I don't seem to be able to say anything else lately.  I feel like I am on a roller coaster that won't let me off.  Every little bit of good news I hope for just does not happen . I hate FC and everything about it including F chemo, F tiredness, F everything and F bad news.       

You are so right, Heidi - since MBJ is just beginning to get some strength back, I'd hope for it to continue.

Inmate:  You have so many prayers and so much love from all of us - we will hold you up while you go through this freaking horrible time.  There is much strength in numbers, and babe, you got us all.

Linda