Calling all TNs

Love that idea, Heidi.

And, I also like what others have said about planting something in their own yard this spring in memory of LJ.  I will be doing the same.

I am just so shocked and angry about Laurajane.  I  just did not expect this.  She said 6-9 months not 6-9 days.  She was always so helpful and kind to me and I just cannot believe this has happened.  I don't even know if she got her new deck to lighten her life.   This cancer thing has finally got to me today and I just can't take it all in.  So many tears for her. 

Rest in peace beautful Laurajane.  I will see you in Heaven.     Annie xxooxx 

Tears, so many tears, oh! I can't control myself.......Oh my God.....I am devastated.  Please someone, I can't bear this ladies........I never even knew what she looked like, but my heart is in so much pain right now, there are no words to describe it.  My goodness, who dies on their birthday. 

Heidi, Great idea!

I thought a lot about LJ as I walked today.  Her interests, her personality was never extinguished by this rotten disease and she had a huge impact on us all. She is truly an inspiration on how to better handle this illness no matter what happens in the future.

I've always loved to garden, but I don't believe I'll ever garden again without thinking of Laura, either.  I bought peat pots and seeds today to start vegetable seedlings inside.  The best thing that happened to me today was walking in the sun for thirty minutes and also enjoying my fur babies.  

Annie, I think her very last post here was on March 5th.  She said she was worried about Bak in that post. She was concerned about everyone and gave us so much insight into this horrible disease.  You know what, even though I knew she was at Stage IV, she never made me realize that it was really that bad.  This actually is very shocking news to me.  I didn't expect her to go so quickly, absolutely not.  She was writing about so many wonderful things lately, without mentioning her pain or anything else that she was going through.  So, yes, this is very shocking to me that she would just go away so quickly.  I truly hope God blesses her wonderful children and family at this time.  What a loss!

Heidi- I think the bench is a fabulous idea! I will help!

As I said- we were away all weekend, but I noticed as we pulled into the drive that one daffodil blossomed. I later read about LJ and my first thought was that lone daffodil. Perhaps it was LJ just popping in to say hello. Corny, I know, but quite fitting for LJ.

I miss you already LJ!!

Yes, let's all plant something.

Heidi-good idea! I will donate also.

LJ was always thinking of others, such a good energy. I feel her positive energy around me.

On a sad note, what will we do without our LJ? How did it happen so fast? I so hope she had calmness and peace around her on her last days, along with her family. Feeling so lost....but with the need to keep positive.

Just read Heidi's post about LJ.  Thank you Heidi for letting us know.  My sincerest condolences to her children, as they are suffering a most tremendous loss.  And to LJ:

An amazing woman, an amazing human being - may you continue to soar with your golden wings above us, just as you did here on earth.  I am so grateful to have had you as a friend - and now an eternal inspiration.

With love and much sadness,

Linda

This was LJ's Facebook profile picture. To me, it has always exemplified her spirit. She is standing beside one of her paintings (which I posted several of for her early in this thread). I will look into getting the number, etc. of her children's garden to see about a bench in her memory.

Thank you Heidi.  What a beautiful lady, so strong, so brave and such as inspiration. I feel privledged to have talked to her through the posts  and known about her.

 Inmate I hope your scan went well today. Sending you heaps and heaps of positive thoughts.  Annie. 

Ladies,  I just so badly want to hear from her post something, say something.  Why does it have to be this way?  She was an absolutely gorgeous woman, wasn't she?  How dare anyone ever say again that breast cancer happens to overweight women who carry too much fat or women who should watch what they eat, etc. I have heard these types of things said right in front of me.  Look at her, she is fabulous, perfect body, someone with an immense amount of talent.  She never got to see her deck which probably got started last Monday.  The contractor friend showed her so much kindness towards one of the very last days of her life.  If everything that happens, happens due to our previous karma, then I swear I have no idea what kind of karma brings about such a disease.  Could there possibly be anything positive in this?  I am so disheartened, so saddened, so horribly unhappy today.  I am sorry, I feel so down, ladies.

Hi again....  Its been awhile for me.  I joined this site when I was first diagnosed.  Things have been really difficult.  I found out my cancer had more than tripled in size within 3 weeks.  I had a bilateral mastectomy on 2/9/12, removing 7 lymph nodes on my left and 3 on my right.  Its been a difficult recovery dealing with pain and nerve damage.  My physical looks have really destroyed me...... I look in the mirror and hate myself. And I'm scared my boyfriend isn't attracted to me anymore.  I think he just feels obligated to stay with me because he's too nice of a guy to leave me with cancer.  Yesterday I caught him texting/on the phone with another girl.  It killed me....  Why did I get cancer?  I thought we would be getting engaged this year.  Not going thru this nightmare.....

I start chemo tomorrow. TC; 4 cycles.  Now I'm going to be sick, lose my hair, etc...... I know this sounds shallow, but I don't want to be ugly.  

And, now I'm going to chemo alone, since I haven't heard from my boyfriend since he got caught. I never expected this. I'm completely blindsided.  We've had the best relationship  until now.  He is a really good guy.  Very mature, hard working, professional Dentist.  His whole family has been so supportive, and now they have all disappeared.....

I'm so scared, and so lost.  No family of my own here.... If you al could say a little prayer for me tomorrow, I would really appreciate.  My heart goes out to all of you!! I love you all and pray for each of you every night....  Thank you for this supportive site.  After writing this I know I will be able to fall asleep tonight.

love, Melissa