Another "Chemo or No Chemo?" Dilemma!
Hi, I'm new here and this is my first post. I was diagnosed in December with IDC, grade 2, stage 1, ER/PR+, Her-2 neg. Had a lumpectomy with 2 nodes removed. Node negative, clean margins, tumor was 1.5 cm. Later found out that I'm BRCA 1 & 2 neg. (My mom and her half-sister are both BC survivors.)
Thought everything was ok, just had to do rads, hysterectomy (voluntary), and 5 years Arimidex. Then I got the Onco Type results, a score of 21, a 13% chance of recurrence (with Tamoxifen). My MO said that the percentage would drop to 12% with Arimidex, and it might drop a little more with a hyster. But of course I had to be right in the "grey area!" My MO thought that I would benefit from chemo due to my age (I'm 40), so he recommended 4x TC. He also said that it was my choice, and that he would feel comfortable with me not doing chemo since my score was on the low side of the intermediate range, but he is recommending chemo. The recurrence odds would drop to 9%, maybe even less.
Here's the problem - I'm terrified of chemo! I know that TC chemo affects everyone differently, but I'm just afraid that I'll be one of the unlucky ones who will have a really hard time with it. I can't seem to get over the mindset that chemo drugs are "poison." If I had an Onco Type score over 25, I would probably be doing chemo. But being on the low end of the intermediate range, I'm just not sure that the 3-5% difference is worth it to me. It's kind of a hard sell. Sure, if I do chemo I will get the peace of mind that I have done everything I could, but at what cost? Potentially bad side effects that might become long-term? On the other hand, what if I don't do chemo, and the cancer comes back? Would chemo have kept it from coming back? Who knows? This has been the hardest part for me, because I don't deal well with "unknowns."
It's almost been 2 weeks since I got the Onco Type results, and I really should make a decision soon. It's been excruciatingly difficult! I keep going back and forth. I know that my fear of chemo might be clouding things, but I honestly don't know if the potentially bad side effects of chemo are worth the extra "insurance." I would appreciate any feedback or advice. Thanks!
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Hi nice to meet you, I know how you feel I was the same. I said no to chemo and I'll have everything else. Then I thought about it and if I wanted the best out Come ( for me) then I had to have it.
If i I was a lower stage knowing what I know now and how the chemo has worked I would always have chemo.
Yes it can be hard and not nice but I have had two now, the first week for me is a right off then the other two weeks I'm back to normal and fine.
Chemo does zap the little buggers you can't see so that for me is good.
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Forget about Oncotype - forget about the stats etc. How about traditional prognostic indicators like LVI - did you have that? (For me the presence of LVI was what tipped the scales in favour of chemo.)
What does your gut tell you to do? If you get a recurrence will you be forever beating yourself up over not doing chemo?
I had a bad time on chemo and only did 4 of the planned 6 doses. But I am comfortable with the fact that I did have those 4 doses. Some people have no problems at all with chemo - I know plenty of women who continued to work throughout their treatment. Nobody knows what lies round the corner for us. Personally I am of the school of thought that says chuck everything at it. I know it isn't very sophisticated or nuanced but hitting it with everything that is going helps me sleep at night.
Best of luck with your decision!
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I had Chemo but it wasnt the problem that radiation was for me. The first 4 were a little tough but after that it was smooth sailing. I did lose my hair however its back and now looks the same as before. Wore lots of hats and not many people would know I had no hair. Every Mon would drive in for chemo then after meet my friends for dinner and we would go to the casino and I felt fine. About thur I would get something that felt like the flu and lay down for the day. I did watch what I ate and had weird smells. My face had always been on the oily side so I broke out however that is gone and my nails are hard. I considered it doable and I was scared to when it started but they had a nurse sit me down and tell me everything and gave lots of meds. I did gain about 20 lbs (its gone) from the steriods. Did not take the benedryl cause it made me feel drunk. The nurses were great and it was like a big social gathering on Mon, cried when I had to leave them. Sure dont know if this helps but you must make your own decision. This whole BC ride is scarey.
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Carrie, if you change "December" to "November" and "mom and her half-sister" to "maternal aunt," I could have written your first paragraph--our details are the same. And I had (and still have) exactly the same attitude about chemo. I was very fortunate that my oncotype score came back low, but if it hadn't, I'd be going through exactly what you're experiencing, and I feel so much sympathy for you.
And for what it's worth, I think you'll probably end up doing the chemo, just based on the struggle you're going through. If chemo wasn't right for you, I think you'd know it right away and be certain of your decision. That's just based on thinking you're like me, and feeling sure that I'd go back and forth but eventually submit to doing everything I could to prevent a recurrence.
Best wishes with your decision, whichever way you go, and know that there's a stranger sending good thoughts your way.
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crking71, I understand your dilemma. All of us hope to avoid chemo but most decide reluctantly to do it anyway.
You say if your score was a little higher you would do it. Your concerns about side effects and 'poisoning' would still apply, but you would look past them because of the potential benefit.
Do you have a husband and children to consider? Do you have a support system to help you through?
If your main concern is side effects, you could try the chemo and see how it goes. If it is not tolerable, you can stop.
Unfortunately, I have seen stage 1 ladies here progress to stage 4. They probably weren't offered chemo.
I did a harsher chemo than is recommended for you and my side effects were mild. I didn't have to work though. I did not have the option of the oncotype test.
I would do it again but I would seriously consider using cold caps as the hair loss and waiting for it to regrow has been the worst side effect. -
Crking, I don't have advice on what you should do. I do want to give you another way of looking at this. I read on these boards once that someone said her onc told her, "Chemo is not the enemy. Cancer is the enemy."
If you start thinking of it that way you might be less stressed with your decision.
It's never easy, is it? Best of luck, whatever you decide.
Leah
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Carrie,
I was so terrified to start chemo you could hear it in my voice. My family doctor called me in some ativan which took the shakes away.
I can also understand not wanting to do it because it is such a small amount that would decrease the recurrence rate.
It is also not a guarantee that you will not reoccur. However, you are awfully young and with it running in your family that puts a new spin on it.
Also, with 4 of the treatments it is not likely that you have permanent damage. Usually 6 of the Taxotere/Carboplatin is what is ordered.
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Carrie, your MO said he is "comfortable" with your not having chemo but he is recommending it anyway because of your young age? Wow. I can see why you are having a tough time making a decision based on those mixed messages. Like, if HE's comfortable with your not doing chemo, why shouldn't you be?
You might find it helpful to check out the NCCN's new Clinical Guidelines regarding chemo at http://www.nccn.org/about/news/newsinfo.asp?NewsID=171 The article is titled "Fewer Women to Recieve Chemo for Breast Cancer." Of course everyone's cancer is unique, but it might at least give you some info to justify asking for further discussion with your MO.
YOU are the one who needs to be comfortable with your decision.
Aza
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I found chemo to be no fun, but hardly the end of the world. I did twelve rounds. There was no doubt that I needed to do it. I was in a great mood most of the time, because so much less dreadful than I had assumed going in.
One thing to factor into your decision is that breast cancer tends to be more aggressive in younger women. Something to think about.
Two years after chemo, I am just fine. A couple of very minor lasting effects.....my hair is a bit less thick, and the bottoms of my feet feel a bit "starched". I look and feel wonderful. I have taken my life to the new place I could only imagine a few years ago. I am living my dreams.
The first chemo cycle was the hardest for me. After that, I knew I would be just fine, and I was.
With only 4 chemo infusions, I would look into Penguin Cold Caps to keep my hair. I think they might be well worth the time, expense, and hassle. Otherwise, I sported some cool wigs, and in fact am regrowing my hair into that style.
Anyway.....good luck. I looked upon this as an opportunity to do something new and exciting with my life, and I got there. I think in a year or so, you will look back and say "no, this wasn't fun, but I am glad I went down that road". - Claire
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crking - this might be a good time for a second opinion - it maybe just the thing that tips your scales one way or the other. At least you would have an opportunity to hear another perspective and gather some additional info. Just a thought...
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In the original post you ask "what if I don't do chemo and the cancer comes back?"
Chemo is not a guarantee that the cancer won't come back. Too many women on this board did adjuvant chemo and still were diagnosed with another cancer, or spread of the original cancer. Another important question to ask yourself is how you would feel if you did the chemo and the cancer still came back, especially if you were left with long term or permanent side effects from the chemo.
The Oncotype test uses material taken from your tumor, which I am guessing from the way your post is worded, was removed before the hysterectomy. Does the lower hormone level as a result of that surgery change what your score would have been had the hysterectomy occured enough months before the lumpectomy to lower your body's estrogen levels? It might be worth contacting Genomic Health for the answer to that question.
It is a huge decision with potentially life changing consequences, you need to make the decision that is right for you, not the one that anyone else wants you to make.
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Hi crking, I am sorry that you have had to join us, but want to try to reassure you.. Our diagnosis are nearly identical, including an oncotype score of 21. My tumor was grade one, which made it less likely to respond to chemo; however, I opted to do as much as I can to keep this beast away. Chemo was not fun, but not as bad as I expected. I am a nurse and never missed a day of work. I too found the radiation to be more tiring. I never threw up, hair and nails were challenging, but a lot of good tips on how to deal with that here. I now have a poofy little hairdo, completely unlike my old hair, and life is moving on just fine. Keep us updated on your decision.
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Aza - interesting article, but there's no date on it. This was just published? The other article that's interesting is the one on the findings of radiation treatment - the one about the radiation changing the healthy cells and turning them into cancer causing ones. It's over in the radiation forum. Really, it just puts so much uncertainty on if we're doing the right thing by getting treatment of any kind.
Link to article:
http://www.cancer.ucla.edu/Index.aspx?page=644&recordid=560&returnURL=/index.aspx
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Crking - I was also in a gray area but was offered chemo and went ahead and did TXx4. It was no picnic but it was doable and looking back I have no regrets. I'm very glad I did the chemo. Good luck with your decision.
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Hi Crking,
There's a poster here by the name of CoolBreeze. She posted a response to someone else asking this question just a couple of days ago that I thought was one of the best I've seen. My links within the forum don't seem to work, but if you do a search for her name and look for her post on Feb13 you should find it.
We're glad you found us, but we sure do understand your fears. Best of luck with your decision!
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Carrie,
We have similar stats. My tumor was the same size as yours. I was 45 last year when DX and had clear nodes. My oncotype was 17. The problem was that I had angiolymphatic invasion present in my pathology meaning there was potential for the cancer to spread by blood. I did do a BMX to be aggressive but my doctors were on the fence on chemo and left the choice to me. I was also told I would have TCx4 and was more scared about chemo than the BMX! I opted for the chemo. It was not as bad as I thought. I did cold caps to keep my hair and it worked for me. I had a few tired days after each chemo. I never took any meds for nausea...didn't have any. I exercised 5 days a week through all of chemo...never missed a workout other than infusion days. I did have some side effects but I am glad I did it. I have a young son and wanted to know that I had done everything possible to kick this. Best of luck with your decision. I agonized over to do chemo or not...I know how hard it is. Hugs!
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Most tend to err on the side of caution/fear (which has more merit for higher stages and less logic for lower ones).
As a stage 1, I followed that tendency myself. Logic lost out to caution/fear because I didn't understand why there would be so much emphasis on overkill by people I thought were more knowledgeable than I was. I do think those who turn down chemo are still a minority mostly because it is hard to figure out why so many choose chemo when the numbers are strongly in their favor to avoid it.
Saying this out loud in a public forum is not popular.
Any of us can recur at any time. Most of those who say their chemo is "preventing their recurrence" don't even know if they never would have recurred without it.
I too would consider chemo more strongly if there is LVI.
A.A.
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I'm in the same situation. I just found out a couple hours ago that my OncotypeDX score is 20. I'm 45, HER2+, ER+and PR+ and am being told by my Oncologist that I should do the TCH treatment course. I'm scared of what the Taxol, Carboplatin and Herceptin will do to me. My surgery was back in November and I'm being told time is of the essence and I should start treatment immediately. I don't know what to do. Thanks for your post. I'ts helpful to see what everybody is saying.
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Laura, I think you will get advice to do chemo because of the size of your tumour and it being HER2+. If your concern is side effects, maybe read some of the topics already here on the chemo you would be doing, or start your own topic.
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LauraJJ - I know this is all overwhelming! I am sorry you find yourself here - and I see that this is your first post. Was there a reason for the delay in getting your oncotype dx results if your surgery was in November? Also, I am curious about why an oncotype test with a 3cm tumor that is Her2+? With a tumor of that size chemo is pretty automatic, and usually started within a maximum of 12 weeks after sugery - unless there is an overriding circumstance.
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Thank you for all the great responses! It means so much to me to have support from other women who are going through the same thing.
Greenfrog - My pathology report says there in no Lymphovascular Invasion present. At least I have that in my favor.
PatMom - I haven't had my hysterectomy yet. I will wait until after treatment is completed.
Would the cost of renting the cold cap be comparable to buying a wig?
I am married with 2 young boys (ages 5 and 3), which weighs on my decision, however I stay at home to care for my kids and my husband works full-time, so there is not much opportunity for down-time for me. I'm concerned that with chemo I may not be able to function. My parents have offered to help me out, but they live 2 hours away so it's not super convenient.
My mom really wants me to do chemo. She feels that I should do it so that I could say that I have done everything I could to fight it, so I can be here to see my kids grow up. I feel if I don't do chemo, I will have disappointed her, and that might be why I am putting pressure on myself to do it.
I think that of all my stats, even the onco type score, my age is the biggest concern and possible motivation for doing chemo. I have been weighing the pros and cons a lot lately. I think the worst possible outcome for me is that I do chemo, get the really bad SE's, even long-term ones, and then find out 5-10 years later that the cancer came back anyway, and that I would have to go through all of it AGAIN! That would be even worse to me than not getting chemo and having the cancer come back, because I would never know for sure if chemo would have stopped it. Did I make the wrong decision? Maybe, maybe not. It is such a mind-screw! Ugh!!
I may be getting a second opinion. I actually got my surgeon's take on it, and even though he's not an Onco, I really found it helpful.
Last thing - If I do get chemo, my MO said I would get Taxotere and Cytoxin. Well, I just read a thread on this board about Taxotere causing PERMANENT hair loss/thinning in some women, as much as 3-6%, even more?
Is this still true, because if it is, then that is a deal-breaker! If I am doing chemo, I will not be using Taxotere if that SE is still an issue. Is Taxol a better choice? I know it has an increased chance of neuropathy, but at least the hair would come back, right?
Thanks for letting me vent. I just need to get it all out there. I appreciate all the support!
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I am for the second opinion for you.
Also remember that there is gabepetin to help with the neutopathy from chemo. I have been on Taxotere twice and now have a full head of hair. The 2nd time I was on it for 6 months. I can walk and such and with the gabeptin things all work, 600mg 3 times a day. Taxol is a better choice. It is still a Taxine, but less toxic then the Taxotere.
Don't let your mother influence you decision. Young age is a big factor.
You are correct in that the cancer might come back anyway.
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I am truly sorry for those whose hair did not regrow but I think it's a very tiny percentage. There are over 100,000 members on this forum (not all of whom had Taxotare of course) and it is extremely rare to read that someone's hair did not grow back. I don't think my onc has ever encountered it and he has been practising for about 30 years. I had it and my hair grew back as thick as before.
You can ask about Taxol or consider the cold caps. Check out that thread as I have heard they work better with some forms of chemo. -
LauraJJ - Are you sure of your diagnosis - HER2+VE? - because the oncotype dx test merely confirms the HER2 factor, it cannot predict the need for chemo in that case, it is a given.
crking71 - my brother used to live in Eugene - I've been there (all the way from Australia) - lovely town. Good luck with your decision.
Sue
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crking - You have a lot to think about. Cold Caps are quite a bit more expensive than a wig and are not covered by insurance. You can sometimes find them used for less. I had Taxotere,Carboplatin and Herceptin. My hair came back - no problem, but I was worried about it. My MO, who has been doing this for 15 years, has only had one patient for whom permanent hair loss was a problem. Taxotere and Taxol are both taxanes, with similar side effects. There are some supplements you can take during chemo that can help with specific side effects of taxanes. There are an enormous number of medicines available to offset side effects, if you do chemo you will find that it is usually a predictable time period that you might feel badly, maybe your parents can just come during that time. Many women work during chemo, and remain productive during treatment. I would advise a second opinion, it might help you decide with less inner conflict. Good luck.
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A source for more information on the possibility of permanent hair loss after chemo is aheadofourtime.org.
Everyone deserves to be fully informed about all the potential side effects of chemo before agreeing to it, or declining it. Too often, MO's seem to downplay the less common side effects, but if you are one of the few who gets that side effect, it isn't nearly rare enough.
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Hello, firstly, I am sorry to hear you have 'joined the club'. You are very young and should consider giving yourself a chance. Heavy 'cocktail' chemo is hard, yes, but so are the other treatments taken orally daily for 5 years, radiotherapy et al. If you decide to take the treatment, then go and get yourself set up for a spa, hairdresser/wig, make-up, new wardrobe (just a few things on sale!) and do it. It is really a waste of energy to be terrified. You are stressing too much. Believe me, I am not a 'zen' person, but, with a bit of work on yourself, you can do this. And, eat good, organic foods! Get your doctor to get you in touch with a nutritionist/dieticien. Work some wonders in just being nice to yourself while you are going through this. All the best and take good care.
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Hello, I saw the heading of your post and felt your dilemma is close to mine. This is my first response to a post. I was diagnosed in November 2011 and had a lumpectomy the same day you were diagnosed. In my case, all my docs thought that the tumor mass was under 4.5cm; unfortunately, it was clocked at 7cm. They took 3 nodes and they were all negative. So, I will have to go back for a mastectomy.
Because the tumor size was so big, my BS recommends chemo for me. I am ER/PR+, Her2 neg. My MO and I decided to look at the Oncotype score irregardless, because like you, I am desperately afraid of chemo. Apparently, when the tumor is that size, very few docs even try for the Oncotype. I just got the score back and it was 15. The MO says "no chemo" and at this point, I am rather conflicted. So, we decided I should look into a 2nd opinion. I'm waiting for the insurance approval for that 2nd opinion consult and that is stressing me out. I think that if the 2nd opinion comes back with "yes, do chemo anyway," then I may go ahead with it; my MO had already stated that she will give me 4 doses, if I agree to chemo. But, like you, the thought of permanently losing my hair will be a dealbreaker.
Good luck.
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I will be getting a second opinion as well, this Thursday. I am anxious to make a decision and start treatment. I am sick of feeling so confused and conflicted, trying to make the "right" decision. It's wearing me down, so I need to decide by the end of this week, and hopefully start treatment next week so I can finally take action.
Good luck to you too SerendipiTea! Thanks to you all for your support!
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Hi... i am also sailing in the same boat ....yet to get my Oncotype result by next weekend....would like to know ur ER,Pr score.......but i think u can opt for chemo as ur r only 40 ....u have a long life ahead....dont worry abt chemo....u just have to remain positive .....take care and all the very best
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