Alone - recent double mastectomy

I too had a fluid problem.  They were not too concerned though but they did drain it off once.  Very, very painless as the tissue is so numb there.  This is going to get a whole lot better soon.  Hang in there!

As you're read here over and over, you're not alone. There are so many caring people here. You know, sometimes even when there are people surrounding you , you can still be alone, and that's not all that bad. You're still very early in this whole cancer journey and it really does get better.You have a very favorable diagnosis, as far as any cancer can be condidered favorable, and before you know it, you'll be up and about.Look at this down time as planning time for the new you. Go on line and find some support groups that meet face to face. You'll be surprised at how fst you'll become friends with others.

I too am not a religious person but I do frequently talk to someone up above. Sometimes it's my Mom or Dad sometimes it's the Man himself.

You have a therapist and that's a good thing. I'm sure that you'll get some good guidance from him/her but don't hold anything back.

I love Maine!!! Maybe a get together in the spring would be nice. Till then, come here, everyday if you want to, and we'll all chat with you.

Hugs 'n kisses to you and think about changing your screen name to something like Imstillhere!!

Theyaregone ... you've gotten a lot of good support here but I really hope you find someone to offer some face to face support too!  I don't know what I'd do without all the wonderful friends I have.  We lean on each other and pull each other through difficult times & we laugh and celebrate the good times.

In reading your last post I just have to say ... I think you're going through all the normal stages of grief.  I'm not going to bother listing them here in this post.  If you're interested just do a quick Internet search and you will easily find them.  I think everyone goes through each stage when dealing with something like breast cancer.  Some move more quickly through the stages than others.  I hope you get to the acceptance phase just as quickly as possible. For me, it was so freeing to reach it!

Now I'm going to talk to you straight about something you wrote in your last post.  I'm doing this out of care and concern and I hope you will receive it that way ...

You wrote:

Until someone actually tells me I am in the clear and will not die from this, I don't feel safe.

I feel no one can tell any of us that we will not die from breast cancer just as they can't tell us that we are not going to be in some fatal car crash tomorrow or the next day or next week, etc ... I think it is so self defeating to spend our time worrying about what is going to end our life.  It really takes away from living our life, you know what I mean? 

For what it's worth, however, I personally do think it would be okay for you to feel safe that you took a very aggressive approach, which I understand based on your family history, to a non-invasive cancer.  I would feel that would almost guarantee that your breast cancer will not present itself anywhere else in your body. 

I hope your meeting with the oncologist further reassures you!  Be strong!  You can do this!!!!   ((( YOU )))

TAG-From your story of how you discovered your BC it is evident that you are meant to be here and will not die from this.  In my estimation it was a kind of 'miracle'that happened for you.  Before my own BC I would have never thought this way.  I was very un-religious and had been for several years.  When I got my BC diagnosis it was so distressing to me that I couldn't pray to God about it.  I just wasn't feeling it and this was so upsetting to me.  So I prayed to God that he would help me to believe in him and find my way to him and it worked!  I was skeptical but sure enough that transformation happened.  I look at life differently now and am a much better and happier person now because of it.  I even feel that my BC was given to me so that this would be the end result.  And its funny-when  I stopped beliveing in God I would think to myself that he would probably give me some huge challenge where I would know I need him enough to come back. 

So anyhow...I now look at things in a religious way with a Catholic spin.  I believe it was your guradian angel who made you get that test when it wasn't scheduled.   I also believe that you are still in that angel's hands and she has brought you here. Sorry if this sounds a little sappy-I surprise myself sometimes with my religion-speak.   

Yay TAG!  You deserve some good news! 

I commented this morning on your post.    Couldn't stop thinking about you.   You are not alone.   Hang in there.

Tag, I am so happy, that you don't need further treatment. Wish I could say the same, but no such luck!LOL. Sometimes you just got to roll with the punches. Happy healing!

TAG, I am just THRILLED you won't need further treatments!  YAY for YOU!  I too was terrified the cancer would take me out.  I'm sure that is a fear every cancer patient has.  But cancer is not the same as it once was.  All these new cancers, enviromental (like mine) are not the same cancers that were often terminal.  In many cases, just like yours, they are treatable with surgery alone.  My girl, I would say you did have an angel the day you had to get the second mamo.  You aren't meant to leave this earth quite yet.  My guess is God has a job here for you.  I rescue animals and have can drives for spay neuter money.  It's my own little thing and my friends and neighbors started saving cans for me too.  It caught on.  We call it Cans For Critters. Well on a real bad day where I was just freaking out (and you all know those days) my friend told me God has me real busy working here and he wasn't about to take me away from His job.  And somehow I kind of knew that. I think sometimes cancer gives us focus on who we are and what we can do to make God's Earth a better place.

My skin was still so sensitive at 3 weeks but it did get better with time. I had to wear very soft fabric in that area and a sports bra that did not come up too high. The compression bra that I got at the hospital really irritated it.

TAG

As time goes on those foobs will feel fairly normal.  Once you go to the silicone based ones, they are a bit heavier.  I found by wearing them a few hours at a time, then longer again, they start to feel semi normal.  Just like a normal bra though, when it comes off you still have that AHHH factor.  Heat is a no-no for anything that might be inflammed.  It feels good at the time but isn't good.

Just checking on you.  And saying hi TAG!

Good Morning TAG,

Hoping your day is a good one... We have snow here in WV. We have been so blessed with nice weather all the way up until today. Was hoping we were going to skip any snow this winter. Guess mother nature had other plans!! Yuck....hate snow!