T.L.

It has been one week today since TL passed. I left a candle in the window for 3 nights. Wednesday morning, I was awakened from a dream by TL's yelp, the one she used when she was ready for us to get up and start our day. It was not part of my dream...it was so sharp that I sat straight up in bed. I shared the experience with a friend who said she has just read the work of an anthropologist (sorry I don't remember her name) who researched the nature of connection between species. Her conclusion is that there can be a powerful bond which makes each being "more than one and less than two". I love that description.



I had to jump right back into the cancer world Monday with an endocrinology consult at Duke re bone loss issues. That followed my 6 mth oncology checkup and Denosamab tx. The fatigue I always fight was worse. I minced no words about the fatigue and body pain but my docs seem to have no help for either beyond suggesting exercise and ibupropen/tylenol which I already do. The fatigue rarely improves and pushing thru it is simply hard. I find myself angry that docs find it so easy to look through the life-altering side effects of txs. and meds they dispense. It is hard for me to believe there is no help for this kind of ongoing fatigue.



I revived the thread to thank everyone who took the time to write here. I can feel so much love
in your words describing memories of each pet and the pain of loss that never completely leaves. Your understanding was my best support. You're just the best!



October (edited for ipad typos)