T.L.

jpsgirl96

1Athena1 I was so moved to read your post.  I also had to let my beloved Dylan (16 year old cat) go over the phone - and I have felt guilty about it for years.

OctoberGrace I really hope Dylan and many others are there to welcome T.L. It doesn't make it any easier for those who are left behind...

What would our lives be without them?

Octobergirl

It has been one week today since TL passed. I left a candle in the window for 3 nights. Wednesday morning, I was awakened from a dream by TL's yelp, the one she used when she was ready for us to get up and start our day. It was not part of my dream...it was so sharp that I sat straight up in bed. I shared the experience with a friend who said she has just read the work of an anthropologist (sorry I don't remember her name) who researched the nature of connection between species. Her conclusion is that there can be a powerful bond which makes each being "more than one and less than two". I love that description.



I had to jump right back into the cancer world Monday with an endocrinology consult at Duke re bone loss issues. That followed my 6 mth oncology checkup and Denosamab tx. The fatigue I always fight was worse. I minced no words about the fatigue and body pain but my docs seem to have no help for either beyond suggesting exercise and ibupropen/tylenol which I already do. The fatigue rarely improves and pushing thru it is simply hard. I find myself angry that docs find it so easy to look through the life-altering side effects of txs. and meds they dispense. It is hard for me to believe there is no help for this kind of ongoing fatigue.



I revived the thread to thank everyone who took the time to write here. I can feel so much love
in your words describing memories of each pet and the pain of loss that never completely leaves. Your understanding was my best support. You're just the best!



October (edited for ipad typos)

Celtic_Spirit

I believe you received a visit. I received a similar one once after one of my cats died. She was put to sleep in the morning, and I heard her very distinct meow several times that night as the candle flickered in the window. I spoke gentle words aloud to comfort her in her new state, and soon I felt her leave on her journey. She also was 19.

I'm sorry to read about your fatigue. I felt very fatigued for a month following radiation. It's hard to get motivated to do anything when you feel like that. Last summer, I experienced a lot of pain from Arimidex and got similar results when I mentioned it to my docs. That's very frustrating. Fortunately, the pain has abated on its own. Perhaps your fatigue will improve with time.

I hope when your heart has healed that you will consider adopting another dog. I network with a lot of pet rescues and shelters, and believe me, there are thousands of dogs that need a loving home like yours. I think that sharing that love with another pet is the finest way you could honor T.L.

weesa

Molly, I have checked back here several times, waiting for you to write about T'L's final visit. How wondrous. W.

SharonMH

Hi Octobergrace, So sorry to hear about TL  She sure did sound like she was so loved and she also loved you.  SharonH