Can I whine please?

So the cancer is out, fall and winter is here so I don't have to do much with my arms, so the PMPS had settled down. I have so many other health problems that need to be investigated because they are on hold til I was done with the cancer surgeries, then the stupid PMPS, now a hysterectomy next week.

Today during my pre-op appt. with my family dr. she said she was worried about my high blood pressure. Its been taken in the leg and is higher, of course, and especially when I haven't laid down for a bit before they take it. I tried that logic with her, but she is concerned enough that she wants to put me high blood medication medicine. Just what I wanted, another stupid health problem. I know part of is my weight, since I found cancer I have gained about 25 lbs which I really don't need since technically I am considered obese anyway. Cuz of all the stupid meds I am on and neurological dysfunction, I don't drive, so getting to the YMCA is hard. When my stupid PMPS is acting up, I don't like walking cuz it hurts the arms and back and chest. So I do light activites, sit, eat, do an activity, eat. Things are so hard right now. Very rarely do I whine like this. But what else is gonna happen?? When I am healed after the hysterectomy, i am seeing a neurologist for my memory/concentration/verbal/neuromuscular problems and the undiagnosed brain lesions I have had sitting there since 2007 and were still there last fall when I had a nother MRI. After my mastectomy, I had no idea that the amount of pain I was in was not normal. It took me until a call to the ACS to find out about PMPS. Im so sick of drs, tests, being sick. Plus I am  biploar with severe depression, anxiety and agoraphobia. Isn't that enough??

Thanks for letting me whine, I really don't have anyone I can let it all out like this to. I'm sorry I whined so bad, but once in awhile, its like what the h@##, you know?