Can I whine please?

cinnamonsmiles

So the cancer is out, fall and winter is here so I don't have to do much with my arms, so the PMPS had settled down. I have so many other health problems that need to be investigated because they are on hold til I was done with the cancer surgeries, then the stupid PMPS, now a hysterectomy next week.

Today during my pre-op appt. with my family dr. she said she was worried about my high blood pressure. Its been taken in the leg and is higher, of course, and especially when I haven't laid down for a bit before they take it. I tried that logic with her, but she is concerned enough that she wants to put me high blood medication medicine. Just what I wanted, another stupid health problem. I know part of is my weight, since I found cancer I have gained about 25 lbs which I really don't need since technically I am considered obese anyway. Cuz of all the stupid meds I am on and neurological dysfunction, I don't drive, so getting to the YMCA is hard. When my stupid PMPS is acting up, I don't like walking cuz it hurts the arms and back and chest. So I do light activites, sit, eat, do an activity, eat. Things are so hard right now. Very rarely do I whine like this. But what else is gonna happen?? When I am healed after the hysterectomy, i am seeing a neurologist for my memory/concentration/verbal/neuromuscular problems and the undiagnosed brain lesions I have had sitting there since 2007 and were still there last fall when I had a nother MRI. After my mastectomy, I had no idea that the amount of pain I was in was not normal. It took me until a call to the ACS to find out about PMPS. Im so sick of drs, tests, being sick. Plus I am  biploar with severe depression, anxiety and agoraphobia. Isn't that enough??

Thanks for letting me whine, I really don't have anyone I can let it all out like this to. I'm sorry I whined so bad, but once in awhile, its like what the h@##, you know?

Carla9112

Hi there - it is absolutely fine to whine.  I do quite often and then I stop and pull my big girl panties back up AGAIN.  You have to just take it a day at a time even though you can get so down and out dealing with health issues.  I have struggled with my weight my entire life.  It is so hard to get it under control.  Some days I care - some days I don't.  Just hang in there and know that good days are coming.

Hugs to you!!!

encoremom

Whine away....we all do at some point.  I think if we didn't we would explode.  Sending good thoughts your way. 

kmccraw423

Mycinnabon ... we are in the same boat and I'm sick of the whole thing!  Whine all you like.  Its really hard to be positive with you life is hanging in shreds (and that old saying - at least you have your health - doesn't apply).  I, too, struggled with my weight but just six weeks ago got real serious.  I have to keep repeating "Food is NOT your friend."  What happens if I get the weight under control and nothing improves?