a year out from Chemo and feel worse now

I am currently in chemo, and frankly very scared for it to be over. Mentally you have to learn to trust a body that failed you, and physically you are recovering from mutilating your body with chemotherapy for a year. Give yourself a break. PM me if you ever want to talk. I am so there with you, though in a different phase right now. But I get the lack of support and the trying to find a normal.

Hugs.

Tammy - the only people that will "get it" are those that have endured BC and the treatments.

This is a common complaint by many - we are done with treatment so we should be just fine - we should be back to where we were before BC.  It doesn't work that way.  Our bodies went through so much with chemo and radiation that it takes years and I have not met one person that went back to where they were physically and mentally prior to dx.

It took me two years to have enough energy to clean my house, iron clothes, mundane tasks.  My brain is still stupid 2 years later.  I still deal with chemo fog.

I have more energy now but if you had known me a year ago I couldn't walk 30 minutes without being exhausted.  I took naps every single day for 3 hours.

We won't be the same - we have a "new normal" but people on the outside don't understand, family doesn't understand, our husbands don't quite get it either.

Case in point - went to the dentist and I need to have a molar pulled.  2 years ago I had a root canal and crown on that tooth - this was right after chemo and to this day I don't remember going to the dentist to get that done!  Now I have a decision to make whether I get a bridge or an implant.  I was told a bridge would last 10-12 years, an implant 20 years.  And what thought went through my mind???  Will I even be alive 20 years from now?  That thought would have NEVER crossed my mind prior to BC.

Stick around here and vent all you want because we understand how you feel.