Chemo May 2011

Oh and did I mention I hate looking like a cancer patient too?



Cyborg? You ok?

Today was a crappy day. We had fireworks here in town, but I couldnt go because too many people. I havent missed a fireworks in 20 years. It is a big event here. I love to watch fireworks. So does my daughter.

UGG!!! Well next year daughter and I will go and make a day of it.

Candice

just woke up again feeling crappier....wel l my chihuahua came up out of the covers, snuggled up to me and rolled over on his back, head on pillow, Made me feel better. 

Bkj, belly rubs to your chi. I hope you turn the corner today. This was my toughest AC as well as I expected. Even when we know what's coming and with all the mental prep it still knocks us down... We are only human. Much love and support.

Blondelawyer, this round is also seriously kicking my rear! I hate that look on other peoples faces when they see you for the first time. At least you tried to get out and do something, sorry it ended with you not feeling well.I can't even imagine how overwhelming it is for you, so I am just sending you internet huggs.

{{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}}} To all the May ladies having a hard time. This too shall pass. It will get better.

Ditto me what y'all are feeling...trying to put on a good face for son's b'day weekend (29! - how did he get that old? Oh, yeah, I got older, too!) and his girlfriend and friends and family up for 3 days and I'm grumpy but trying so hard not to show it...wan a crawl into a corner and wait til next April when this is over...thanks for the venting - it's good to know we're all in the same boat.

I am girding the loins for my first round of taxotere tomorrow. So relieved to be all done with the FEC that I am almost welcoming a new set of SEs rather than the nausea . It was getting worse with each round so coming into the last 3 taxotere from a much lower base level of fitness. Worried about losing nails as the cancer centre does not ice, but have applied nail strengthener and am fasting to reduce the SEs like nausea and neuropathy. Hope it works!

Chemo brain is a pain! I make notes and lists and put timers on to keep the mind on track - and play lots of scrabble. The worst is that I struggle at time to find the right words verbally - my oral presentations during chemo have been hilarious! - lucky only to small groups! the days after tx are the worst.

Mentally doing fine during tx - i worry about the time that all treatments are over and I start thinking about recurrance. It sems easier when you are doing something, no matter how unpleasant, to fight this disease. I will not do well psychologically with finding that it hasnt cleared everything  everywhere. I had a BMX so it would be distal mets that I worry about. My sis in law is 5 years out and I have seen how that fear tends to play out at every lump or pain.

After treatment I plan on focussing on the healthiest lifestyle possible.... diet....and sigh...exercise. Only 3 months of treatment to go till I can get my new foobies! 

Take care everyone!!!! Robyn

Chemo brain is funny.  Especially recalling words.  I find at times I cannot think of the simplest word, like elbow.  I had to ask my husband what they call it and point to it.  I knew the outside was the elbow, but what was this - pointing to inner elbow.  I hope this word recall resolves once it is over.  I am usually an articulate persons.

ANyways, wishing everyone a safe and happy 4th.  And of course ((((hugs)))) to all those in the chair next week - and those that arent for that matter.

SE free week to all.  Thinking of those in the chair tomorrow along with me.

Back from treatment #3.  One more to go!

Hugs to all of us.  May this be a minimal SE round for everyone.

Bkj66 I have this week off, I start Taxol next Tuesday. So glad that you are down to your last AC!

Beaglesgirl-will that be your first taxol? Are you doing 4 or 12?

MamaV-sounds like you were in for the long haul also! Glad you are almost done. Sorry you had a meltdown, hopefully you are doing better now! I ran errands today for about 3 hours and it about did me in! It was mostly driving.

Bkj66, I am doing 12 weekly taxol like MamaV is just wrapping up. I am worried about the length because I did 4 DD AC every 2 weeks and it seemed like it would never end. Hats off to all of you who having to endure 6 tx of it, that's brutal stuff. Praying for a milder experience from here till the end.

I get the chair tomorrow 3rd of 4 of a/c .How can someone be dreading and excited to get it done at the same time??I also have got to get my pic line re dressed diferent the burning and iching of changin it drives me as crazy as the nausea and weakness .Well to bed i go and hope & pray  for a good  week  for us all. Oh yes after my a/c i get toxol for 6 weeks do u think  i will get to watch my grandbabies age 2 and 3 .So far on my good days i watch them on a/c like last week for 3 days and today .I hope and pray i still can but since they are weekly i dont know??