Do you somtimes feel like you're going crazy?

Nancy, what you're describing is completely normal for the situation.  Dealing with breast cancer, surgery, chemo, radiation and often a number of unpleasant surprises (like your experience at the RO's office) is nothing short of surreal, especially when most of us don't even feel the least bit sick when we're diagnosed.  I actually think the dream-like aura is our mind''s way of coping.  It kind of lets in just a little bit at a time and "cushions" the rest of the bad stuff with that dream-like feeling, like it's not really happening.  Then the reality of it all kind of hits in waves of sadness and fear and even misplaced anger at our DH & kids.  So be prepared for that, too.    (((Hugs)))   Deanna

Hi Nancy............Had that dream about 2 months ago...........hmmmmm, only like you....it wasn't a dream, it was real...........Believe it or not the more you find out the easier, and harder it gets...........Easier, because the wondering, anxiety, and the "what if's" are now reality............Harder because you have to face head on what your are going to be going through for the nex several months..............Whatever emotions you feel.......................feel them, regardless of what they are.............listen to the kind words of   people who truely care.............ignore the idiots who will say things that will knock your socks off (they are not people who care)..............Be ;your own advocate............ask questions until you understand exactly what they are going to do...............like I said to other ladies.......Dr.'s put their pants on the same way we do......one leg at a time............they are educated, they are not God.........I love my Doc's, but would not hesitate to ask, or say whatever I think or feel.

Now, you put on your "big girl panties", "face this beast head on", and remember one thing.............You have cancer.........it does not have you........

Come back often, we are here for you........You won't find a better friend anywhere, no matter who you talk to on this site................hugs and prayers for you.....hang in there

Absolutely crazy-making. And I had an unshakable belief that I wasn't "the cancer type," whatever that's supposed to mean. I guess because my stress reactions were so obviously digestive upset and joint pain, I assumed any bodymind issues were coming out in other ways. But cancer has its own origins, maybe in toxins, maybe the HRT I took for 15 years, or maybe it just struck me out of the blue. Honestly, after a few months I appreciate it as a wake-up call, but  that's easier for me to say because my Oncotype DX was borderline between low and moderate risk so my onc didn't push chemo. I coasted on THAT good news for a long time. I'd be just where you are if I was doing chemo, but I've been so inspired by everyone posting at this site, women in all stages of disease and recovery, I trust I'd find the guts to do whatever it took, and will in the future if I have other obstacles to deal with.

You're not alone. I feel like I have been swimming underwater this past week. And I have no brain. I forget the silliest things. This morning I drove back to put on deodorant because I wasn't sure ifI had done it or not. It's like when I was pregnant with my daughters and had pregnancy brain! I think my mind copes with the overlaod by just temporarily shutting down...