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  • Eph3_12
    Eph3_12 Member Posts: 4,781
    edited January 2011

    Thanks MissBianca!

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  • MissBianca
    MissBianca Member Posts: 2,193
    edited January 2011

    plumeria_65

     Have sweet Hawaiian dreams tonight Meece....Hawaiian plumerias....they smell like heaven...

    rainbow-along-the-na-pali-coast-kauai-hawaii-from-the-kalalau-lookout-brendan-reals" 

    Real rainbows....I hope you see one....

    waterfalls7-1 

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  • Meece
    Meece Member Posts: 19,483
    edited January 2011

    I have a plumaria in my green house.  I hope it blooms this year.  Those are gorgeous pics, MissB. Thanks.

    I must focus on the beauty God has placed in this world to distract us from our triels.

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  • faithandfifty
    faithandfifty Member Posts: 10,007
    edited January 2011

    ELEPHANT BAIT!!!!!

    Meecie. Repeat after me, "I have resigned as general contractor of the Universe."

    We don't understand. We truly are dismayed.

    Consider Hawaii a bonus gift for your own mental-health. I know you're going to support your son, but what if you consider it a gift to support 'YOU"??? You deserve to soak in the bountiful goodness of our Creator.

    I have no answers what-so-ever, not even any insight, but Meece -- know that we are all locked together, arm-in-arm, in continual prayer for your support..... thru all of this unthinkable layer after layer after layer of challenge we are here to support you.

    What if? What if, somehow.....Some way beyond our grasp & human understanding --what if there is some way for our Heavenly Father to make this all work together for good..... just as has been promised? What if the maker-of-the-entire-Galaxy can turn this all around & that we have a huge celebration just around the next corner? What if?? What if you, Meecie, are teaching all of us gathered here in the garden?

    Job had nothing over you, Meecie.

    You are loved. You are loved to every hair on your head, every feather in your birdie-wings. We are here to encourage you, to hold you up, to pray for you and to ask for compassion in the midst of it all. I deplore the colossal crashing together of it all simultaneously, I do.

    Let go. Let God.

    xx00xx00xx00xx

    "We know that for those who love Him, for those who are called in agreement with his purpose, God makes all things work together for good."  -- Romans 8

    Strength and courage.

    Strength and courage.

    Strength and courage.

    xx00xx00xx00xx00xx

    (((((((Meecie)))))))))))

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  • Meece
    Meece Member Posts: 19,483
    edited January 2011

    Thank you.  I called to set up my appointment for the mammo and US this morning, but the order hadn't been entered into the system.  My buddy "Daisy" whom I spoke of last year, is in charge of that, so I had to leave her a voicemail.  She hadn't returned my call, so I called back awhile ago, and she already left for the day.  Without returning my call.  So I wait... I cannot make the appointment until she puts the orders in.  I won't hear from her until Monday if I am lucky, and what would be the chances of getting in on Tuesday then?

    Faithie, I am sure these things are working together for something.  At least I must have His attention, for Satan to be so interested in me.  I feel honored.  I still can't help from outbursts of tears right now.  What they are for, I am not entirely sure.

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  • Meece
    Meece Member Posts: 19,483
    edited January 2011

    BTW, by dangling peanuts in front of my nose, I am following the elephant!  I am peanut deprived, having raised two children with severe peanut allergies.  I don't keep 'em around!

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  • Eph3_12
    Eph3_12 Member Posts: 4,781
    edited January 2011

    Miss Bianca, Do you know where that waterfall is?  I lived in Hawaii for 3 years & never saw that.  Took my breath away.

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  • sheila888
    sheila888 Member Posts: 25,634
    edited January 2011

    Joni if its in Oahu my DD should know.

    MissBianca everything about your pictures are so beautiful.

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  • 2Hands4me
    2Hands4me Member Posts: 484
    edited January 2011

    Adding prayers also, Meece. Amen to all the others have said so well! We all care so much!

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  • sheila888
    sheila888 Member Posts: 25,634
    edited January 2011
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  • MissBianca
    MissBianca Member Posts: 2,193
    edited January 2011

    Eph , the image info says Koolau Stream, which I googled and looks like it is in Oahu. When I had visited Maui years ago, I swam in a natural pool like that. We had a local guide who took us to parts of the island that the tourists don't frequent, and we jumped off a ledge to get in. It was so beautiful, I've never forgotten it.

    Thank you, Sheila. I love to look at beauty. It relieves me and brings me peace.

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  • sheila888
    sheila888 Member Posts: 25,634
    edited January 2011

    Now Im excited.

    DD & FSIL took me to North Shore from the scenic road and we passed that area.

    If i find it next time I take a picture of it.

    Thanks MissBianca

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  • karen4u
    karen4u Member Posts: 194
    edited January 2011

    Dearest Meece...when I read your post this song came to my mind.  My prayers are with you and as I'm sure you already know, the best way to fight satan is to Praise the Lord.  This week has been tough for me also, today I watched my Dad have his 4th mini stroke this week....2 today.  When we are weak He is strong.....God Bless You!!!

    Through It All    

    I've had many tears and sorrows
    I've had questions for tomorrow
    There've been times I didn't know right from wrong
    But in every situation
    God gave blessed consolation
    That my trials only come to make me strong

    I've been a lot of places
    And I've seen so many faces
    But there've been times I've felt so all alone
    But in that lonely hour
    In that precious, lonely hour
    Jesus let me know I was His own

    Through it all
    Through it all
    I've learned to trust in Jesus
    I've learned to trust in God
    Through it all
    Through it all
    I've learned to depend upon His Word

    So I thank God for the mountains
    And I thank Him for the valleys
    I thank Him for the storms He's brought me through
    Cause if I never had a problem
    I wouldn't know that He could solve them
    I wouldn't know what faith in His Word could do

    Through it all
    Through it all
    I've learned to trust in Jesus
    I've learned to trust in God
    Through it all
    Through it all
    I've learned to depend upon His Word
    Yes, I've learned to depend upon His Word
    I've learned to depend upon His Word

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  • Eph3_12
    Eph3_12 Member Posts: 4,781
    edited January 2011

    Amen!

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  • Meece
    Meece Member Posts: 19,483
    edited January 2011

    DH and I in Kauai in '09.

    Edited to add: hair plastered to heads is not extremely flattering.

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  • Meece
    Meece Member Posts: 19,483
    edited January 2011

    That is beautiful song, Karen.

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  • KAJDerby
    KAJDerby Member Posts: 310
    edited January 2011

    Meece, been praying for you!  My husband got to see quite a lot of Matt until Matt left.  Matt called him from the airport in Okinawa and then again from mainland Japan.  We are praying for Matt and your family during these difficult times!  I have nothing to add to the other posts.  These ladies are great!!!!

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  • Meece
    Meece Member Posts: 19,483
    edited January 2011

    Thank you so much.  matt called several times yesterday including when he arrived in Tokyo.  He should be in Oahu in about 4 hours.  I am so glad your DH and Matt could spend time together, I am sure it was a great re-charge for his spirit, especially at this point in hie life.  God had perfect timing in planning Matt's trip at this time. 

    DIL was to get in locally last night at 9:30 but due to fog her flight was diverted 2 hours away. DS was not happy about having to travel that long in the middle of the night including the fog.

    Thank you al for your consistant support. I feel much better today. GOD IS GREAT, ALL THE TIME!!!

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  • MissBianca
    MissBianca Member Posts: 2,193
    edited January 2011

    What an awesome picture, Meece! You are a great looking couple, and I love your smile. I'm so glad you are feeling better this morning!

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  • mumito
    mumito Member Posts: 4,562
    edited January 2011

    Beautiful photo Meece.

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  • Meece
    Meece Member Posts: 19,483
    edited January 2011

    Not bad for a disposable waterproof camera.  We were trying to hold it away from us and take the pic, when a guy on the shore offered.  Probably one of my favorites from that trip.

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  • Jwatrlily
    Jwatrlily Member Posts: 211
    edited January 2011

    Karen4u, I love that song.  It is one of my favorites.  I've been away from the board for a while as there has been "stuff" going on in my life that has been so hurtful to me and I've had to take time to process everything.  People just continue to want to judge how I am handling all this and say the most hurtful things to me when they think they are helping me.  Now it has recently been my son and a friend. 

    My son thinks my need for more support from family and friends is because in his words, "you're not getting the attention you think you want so you are being negative and shutting everyone out" and my friend thinks in her words, " you are spending  too much time in your support groups and she told me to "stop reading anything at all about breast cancer because in case you didn't know it, you have it for real life right now" and she told me "you have other interests, look them up instead."

    FOR HEAVEN'S SAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  She does not sit right here by my shoulder (she even lives in Kansas and I never see her) to see where all I go online each day.  I have tons of interests online that I visit every day.  I read newspapers and there is a Face-book page for Ghosts Of North Dakota about abandoned houses, grain elevators, barns, businesses etc with lovely pictures that I visit and enjoy.  I look up tons of stuff that has nothing at all to do with breast cancer,   For all the time I spend trying to be positive about breast cancer, people are knocking me down with their attacks that have no foundation in factual knowledge.  Because I am Triple Negative Breast Cancer I try to keep myself educated as much as possible about new therapies and the latest.  I do research and try to be my own best advocate.  This friend even told me to stop looking that stuff up that it was up to my Dr. to know all that needs known.  I DO NOT agree with this.  Even my Oncologist told me on the first day, "do your research, educate yourself about your breast cancer, read and become knowledgeable and when you see something that upsets or disturbs you, ask me about it and we can get the appropriate medical answers together."  I feel it is my responsibility to know what is going on with TNBC and what new research bears out, clinical trials, etc.  If I didn't do this, I would feel like I wasn't taking the best care of myself as I could.  Am I wrong from your ladies viewpoint to want to know myself, the research and answers in the area of Breast Cancer.  Should I stop reading and educating myself?  

    Meece, I've been following your journey and praying every day for you.  I'll be standing beside you as you go through your tests and get your results.  I would hope that you can and will feel my arm around your shoulder through it all.

    Hugs,

    Juanita

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  • Meece
    Meece Member Posts: 19,483
    edited January 2011

    Thank you, Juanita.  i will keep you in my prayers, too.  I think you are doing well in informing yourself.  I wish I had thought about it when I was going through it.  But to be honest I wasn't even informed enough by my caregivers to know what type of BC I had, and why it would be treated differently.  Oh, they told me what it was, but no comparisons.  Just a bunch of pamphlets.  Do what makes you comfortable.  Perhaps your son said that  because he is used to getting the attention.

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  • sheila888
    sheila888 Member Posts: 25,634
    edited January 2011

    Juanita...i think people people that they were never DX with this beast no way can understand day to day struggles.

    I cant really blame them. When they see you up walking normal they believe its all done.

    I cant even announce to certain family members that it is my anniversary. Their reaction

    OOh that was long time ago everything is behind you now, Don't even think about it.

    WhatSurprised and I really don't pay attention anymore.

    I have my 4 months follow up next month. Maybe I don't melt the way I used too but I get scared.

    Hugs to You.

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  • 3jaysmom
    3jaysmom Member Posts: 4,266
    edited January 2011
    prayin for all you gals {{{meece}}the plumeria is beautiful.. ive never seen multi colored. i have yellow, many. gonna look for those, now..Miss Bianca..
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  • deborye
    deborye Member Posts: 7,002
    edited January 2011

    ((((((((((WHOLE ROOM))))))))))))))

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  • sheila888
    sheila888 Member Posts: 25,634
    edited January 2011

    (((Meece)))

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  • Meece
    Meece Member Posts: 19,483
    edited January 2011

    Thank you!

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  • 3jaysmom
    3jaysmom Member Posts: 4,266
    edited January 2011
    just a fly by to say hi, and letcha all know im keepin track.. your in my thoughts, and in my heart.. these boards save my life these day, Juanita.. kep doin whats' best for you...
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  • Kindergarten
    Kindergarten Member Posts: 4,869
    edited January 2011

    This is uch a beautiful thread, I feel so blessed just reading these posts. Thank you, Kathy

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