Feel so negative about everything

I know how you feel, and I am three years out. I've stopped dying my hair so it is white and I feel like an old lady. Not to mention the headaches and body aches from the Tamoxifen. I wish I could have my life back before the BC - when I didn't have to feel guilty about everything I put in my mouth for fear it will bring back the BC; when I didn't have to feel guilty about not exercising.....when I didn't have to just plain worry about cancer......I want that life back....

You are not alone.

(((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))))  The aches and pains are hard, I feel blessed to have been able to endure all the treatments....but do miss my energy filled days!

I finished rads in Feb. and for me it took months before I could get through a day without a long nap...  no interest in sex but no man in my life so in a way it doesn't matter, but I do miss having a sex drive (and a man in my life, for that matter)   I'm on Arimidex, not T., I do have some joint aches and pains but they come and go and with the addition of some supplements and exercise, they're very managable.   Still, I felt like crap for what felt like a very long time.

But -- I did slowly see progress in my energy and well-being.  The biggest thing for me in healing from all the treatment is that my joy came back, and I'm so grateful.  I still have days where I want to cry and/or have absolutely no energy, but overall I'm going in the right direction... I also have days where I feel pretty darn good (at least until I start to crash late afternoon/early evening!). 

So... yes, I know exactly how you feel.  But if it helps, things do get better.  Big hug.

I just posted a post *down in the dumps*!  You are not alone!  I've had a year of fear, setbacks, and depression. Got BC last year in Sept, had a double mast. Had expanders put in, struggled with infections, got right to the point to where it was time to get my breast implants and had to have one expander taken out, then 2 weeks later, the infection had spread to the other expander and had to have it removed. 4 weeks ago had new expanders put back in. I'm in pain and feel very alone. I feel like my family and friends have pulled away. I've got one sister that wont even call me!!! Still can't figure out what her deal is!!! I feel if I ask her if something is wrong, she will down play it and get defensive, so I'm just not going there. I feel that people, including my family, think that since I'm not dying, and the cancer is *gone*, then there is no need to worry...that I'm getting new boobies, so yeaaah for me!!!!  BC is a sad and lonely disease. I don't ask for anything, I know this has been tough on everyone, but they can get on with their lives, stay active, keep busy, while I'm stuck here trying to recover, in pain, going to bed every night praying to stay cancer free. Here's a big hug to you! Remember, we have each other, people here understand. Stay strong and keep us posted on your progress. We care!!! (((BIG HUG)))

i suffer from depression and anxiety attacks.  never had this problem before bc.  i know the chronic pain does not help and also feeling like an old lady - i used to feel 15 years younger and was in top physicalshape.  now i am 30 lbs overweight and need daily naps.  i don't like who i have become.  thankfully my dh loves me so much.