Just a prayer

It's good for you to let it out. I think the fear of recurrence is one uniting factor here and on every cancer related blog. You are definetly not alone. I personally have become involved with the Cancer Support Community very recently (apparently depending on where you are it may be called a Wellness Community or Gilda's club...they are all the same thing) I was shocked by the number of activities and support groups they offered both online and within the community. I highly recommend checking it out.

 If your feeling up to it, you can help current and future breast cancer patients tackle the disease by sharing your experiences in a national movement against breast cancer, with the goal being to fill any gaps in care ranging from social to emotional. To learn more and join check out http://www.breastcancerregistry.org.  

I hope you start consitantly feeling better. 

You are not weak, honey.  God is listening to you and knows your heart.  Thank you for being brave enough to share your true feelings.  I am sending you love and support! God bless you! xo

Annettie,

God bless you and BIG BIG HUGS. Jo-5 is so right. We can feel at a loss when a treatment stops coz it feels like we need to be always doing something. To be doing (apparently) nothing has a sense of loss of control. Its just human nature for all of us to want to have a certain amount of control. As Christians, it takes many years to learn to yield EVERYTHING to God and come to a place where we are at peace no matter what and yes I need to heed my own advice! Its very very hard sometimes. God indeed does see every tear, and Im not talking about crocodile tears. No such thing with cancer. Everything with this deal is where the rubber meets the road. 

Im ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS encouraged with Pauls life and what he had to put up with. Moreover, he was one of the most key NT men of God and his example of lifestyle leaves the phony positivist theory in tatters. A mighy man of God and he had just about everything you could imagine as well as fears.... (its called the suffering gospel, and not many people will preach on it.)

2Co 7:5 For, when we were come into Macedonia, our flesh had no rest, but we were troubled on every side; without were fightings, within were fears.
 

2Co 11:25 Thrice was I beaten with rods, once was I stoned, thrice I suffered shipwreck, a night and a day I have been in the deep;
2Co 11:26 In journeyings often, in perils of waters, in perils of robbers, in perils by mine own countrymen, in perils by the heathen, in perils in the city, in perils in the wilderness, in perils in the sea, in perils among false brethren;
2Co 11:27 In weariness and painfulness, in watchings often, in hunger and thirst, in fastings often, in cold and nakedness.
 

I will include you now in my thoughts to God and in my prayer time.

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