Starting Chemo February 2009?

speaking of hubbies..

(this is kind of private but it's kind of funny..)

mr. apple says tonite... "I have a fantasy where you sit and I grab your tit".

he's so used to me only having one.. it came out so easily and nonchalantly..  I got quite a chuckle.

See Rosa, remember what Cheryl says...lol.....

Okay so my back has been hurting and I can't get the nerve issues to stop in my back....here me whine   I am off the clodronate as of right now because of the stomach, digestive issues   I sound like a trucker on it and it is embarrassing.  I was in Florida burping up a storm...and then the reflux has progressively gotten worse over the last couple of months.  So I have to call back and figure out what the trial needs me to do.  I am hoping that they can do a reduced dosage but honestly I doubt it. 

I had my blood work drawn for stage 2 when my port was flushed so I have 16 days until I head for NOLA.  I am nervous and excited all at the same time.  I have been researching nipples like crazy trying to figure out what I want. 

Now I really need to start getting my house ready to leave again for a bit.  I just hope that my DH does okay with running all over the place.  This time my MIL is not coming up so he doesn't have the help that he had last time   I wish that he was going with me....He is a ton of help.....but the kids need someone to be with them and no one has offered to step up and watch my kids....:(  It makes me sad that I live so close to family members but NOT one can help...okay off my soap box.  My sister is going with me but she is just not my DH. 

Cheryl---That use it or lose it is gonna make my man's day too!!!

kerry--- Cellulitis?? How girl???? Hope you are rid of it now!!!

good thing for my sis--She keeps things in order for me!!!  I have sporadic periods--lost track of last one. 

Well, Furies have I got news for you!!!!  GOING TO VEGAS IN MAY!!! Mother's Day weekend with my sisters!!! Gonna see Donny & Marie Osmond!!!!

later !!!

Hello girls. I'm waiting and waiting for my onco to call with CT result on the enlarged node. The tech said they were putting a rush on it and would notify the doc this afternoon. So I called and left a message - and called twice more but never got anyone. This waiting is making me nuts!

Nancy ~ Have you heard anything?  We're here with you, sister! *hugs*

Kerry ~ yikes, cellulitis!  I understand that's very painful!

Jamie ~ so glad you are go for the next part of your recon!  

The bronchitis I had in February left me with a cough that hung on and on.  Last week I went back to the doctor because I had sharp pain in my ribs.  Of course y'all know where my mind went, but he assured me it was only pleurisy.  A shot of cortisone and a round of Keflex later, I'm much much better now.  Darvocet helped a lot, too.

Love you guys!

Nancy~  Thinking of you!  Hope you hear soon.

Thanks Jamieh---it will be!!!!

of course it's the middle towards the end of the month, and I'm PMSing without a period and had a complete meltdown about my mastectomy!!!! I kept saying it's gone, it's gone,why??????? I'm better now, but why did it happen if I've been so good before?

GO KERRY GOOOO!!!!  Run some extra for me.  I decided that I will be back running and at the gym after stage 2.

Bethie~ I think those emotions are totally normal.  I freak out because I had a bilaterial for something the width of my pinkey.....then I remember that that little thing can kill me and I change my mind.  So on those days I feel bi-polar but I always feel better once I rationally think about it.  ((hugs))  Make sure you have some fun for me in Vegas.

Artemis~ glad you are feeling better.  That is a long time to have a cough.  I can't imagine how exhausting that may have been. 

Nancy~ Thinking about you.  I hope everything is okay. 

Michele~ I am heading your way soon.  Would you want to come down for dinner, lunch or just get togther ???  I'll show you my girls....lool......

So I know I was asked about Stage 2 and according to what Dr. S said at stage 1 I will be having a mini tummy tuck (we will use the fat to fill in lefty and in the pole on righty), lipo...my butt is bigger and whatever else he offers.  My pictures are on timtam's site but I really do not think that they do justice to Dr. S's work.  I am in just awe of this man and he is so down to earth it's not funny. 

I would love to meet Maggie also   I have surgery on Thursday April 29 and I should be out Friday or Saturday.  So I will be in NOLA from April 27 (tuesday- May 4 Tuesay) so anytime.....

Artemis~ Remind me... did you have recon?  I'm feeling sad too.  But, I really never have gotten over the initial diagnosis. 

I wished we all lived closer so we could help each other out when we are feeling down.  ((hugs))  I think that as if BC isn't bad enough physically that the mental part is MUCH, MUCH harder. 

Artemis~ If you can't handle it please do not go but if you are going to miss the game and really want to see it go and hold your head high.  ((hugs)).

So I went today and had some retail therapy .  My DH said something about my larger purchases and that I could buy another large item so I went and bought a new lens (used by new to me) for the year   I snapped a couple shots tonight and it is sharp, sharp, sharp.....I just wish that it was going to be nice for the rest of the weekend   I figured that I should buy it now before my DH forgets about saying that.....lol..... 

My back is still driving me crazy.....it's nerve pain that hurts like hell.......and taking pain pills is not an option   Okay enough rambling from me.....

Judy~ How is Julia doing ??

Yeah, wouldn't it be great if we could all get together once a month and have a good natter over a glass or two of wine.

have a great weekend everyone. 

I'm relieved to hear you all mention the recent emotional distress, although I am sorry we're all experiencing it, I have been going through some depression 'spells' lately, too.  I thought maybe it was hormones from this chemo or menopause I'm going through...but I'm guessing that Artemis is right, and it is some sort of delayed reaction to this whole mess.  One bonus is I lost 5 lbs in the last 2 weeks, can't eat when I'm depressed...

I have decided to look into recon again.  Maybe I'll feel better if I get it done, not so awkward about my own body.  I am embarrassed to admit that I still haven't stopped taking coumadin, even though all my docs are telling me to, I'm still too afraid. but I have to do it soon, and then I can start planning surgery options.

Wish we all lived near each other, too; it sure would be great to have you guys to hang out with : )

Hi, Furies ~
Well, I went to the softball game, and it was fun.  There were a few emotional moments like seeing people putting money into collection boxes and knowing that the willingness of people to give has helped develop the drugs that are saving our lives.  It's so humbling and overwhelming.  I feel so very grateful.

Anyway, it was a beautiful day, and Georgia won the first game 7-0.  It was a double-header, but we didn't stay for the second game since my menfolk were hungry for something besides ballpark food, lol.  

Jamie ~ the new lens sounds awesome, and I'm glad you got it.  You deserve it for having to put up with back pain!!!

Bethie ~ have a great time in Vegas!!

BIG HUGS to everyone; I love you all so much!!!

thanks Bethie....if you had radiation, you have to wait about a year I think...not positive on that though.  I had rads on the right side 5 yrs ago, my skin held up great, but the PS says no implant on that side, the skin is too 'thin' whatever that means.  So I'd have to get some flap done on that side.  If I need to get a flap procedure on one side, I may as well get it done on both, right?