**NEW** Starting Chemo March 2009

16 days and and counting till NYC.

Hope all are well..

Good luck Chris ..MRI I think...

Hugs,

Francine

Well...I didn't pass out this time!  Got my bloodwork done at Onc. office too.

See doc next Wed....so I guess I just have to wait and see!

Thanks Francine!

I am definitely having flashbacks also.  So hard to believe it is all over for the most part.  About six weeks ago I felt something.  I didn't call because I had an onc. appt. on 3/11 (anniversary of

1st chemo)  When I get to my appt. (in the city sometimes a 1-1 1/2 hour drive depending on traffic), the admin. assist of my Dr. tells me that my onc. (who is pregnant and probably delivering sometime next week) is sick, was in but went home, my NP is home with her sick son.  She tells me I can reschedule, so I get teary and tell her "I feel something" and was counting on this appt.  I get another Dr.'s NP, who checks me out and sends me to radiology for an ultrasound, I have to get a mammo prior (needed to warrant an ultrasound).  Radiologist tells me she sees no difference, plus most recurrances don't happen the 1st year, but this is inconclusive I need to see someone who (knows my breasts).  I reschedule to see my onc., the office calls one day later and says I better see my BS instead, but welcome to also keep rescheduled appt. with onc. (I say why waste both our times and cancel with onc.  Hallelujia - just got home today from BS appt.  what I'm feeling is changes due to the radiation. (changes can occur for a couple years in some patients).  Also additional breast tenderness is actually breast bone tenderness, again from radiation or possibly arthritis and is normal but a nuisance.  So, being my emotional self, I felt very much like an idiot, paranoid patient and as usual got upset with myself.  My BS is wonderful and assured me she likes seeing patients with false alarms and that is why she is there.  Oh, and prior to my appt. my onc came out to the waiting room to check in on me and apologize for not being there on my regular appt day.  She is beaming and ready to be a mom.  So I had great new today and hopefully no more "flashbacks". 

Hi Ladies,

Got info today from Beth P, Patti, Chris, Diane, Tanasha .I can't wait to meet all of you.

Patti..too bad about all the grief you went through. We all can relate to the same feelings. Being concerned after what we have been through is not ridiculous. Glad all turned out well.

I saw my PS  today..............he took out a few stitches and said all looked well. He said that the breasts are quite similar and when the swelling goes down they should look the same. he said I could also wear a bra. I don't as both breasts  are  quite  firm and I have the iron bra feeling from my     latflap surgery so it always feels like I am wearing a bra/. He said to come back in six weeks. He did give me exercises to keep the implant fluffy. For some reason after the visit I became depressed. This is out of character. Maybe because of all I have been through . I don't know. Well tomorrow is another day.

Keep the info coming and soon I will post all plans.

Hugs,

Francine

Francine: I hope your spirits are lifted today. I think what your feeling is perfectly normal. It's been a long journey for you. Time now to embrace the light at the end of the tunnel and really feel that you are finally done.

 Thanks ladies for all the e-mails yesterday. I think the only one I still need is Michelle's so hopefully she'll pop in and send it to me. Once I get it, I think Francine will be ready to send out the details.

Have a happy day

Hugs

Beth P

Well...results not good.  The found a spot in the breast that already had cancer.  I need to go for an ultrasound and biopsy.  Why do I feel like this is starting all over again.  I don't feel like I can beat this.

I'll keep you up to date.  Please pray for B9 results.

Chris

Chris...You are definitely in my prayers. No one should have to go through this once, let alone twice.

Hi all,

 Chris...   Praying for B9 results for you. . Hang in there..  

All - have a great day!!!

 Beth

!5 days and counting..

She was going to try to schedule it tomorrow!  She didn't get back with me today 

I will keep you all posted and thanks for the well wishes.  YOU give me strength!

I thank you all so much for your encouragement.  If it was a mammo...I could see false positives.  BUT an ultrasound with the contrast???  I just don't know.  I've read that ultrasounds can distinguish between scar tissue  and cancer.  It can tell the difference between cancerous and noncancerous cells.  This just scares the daylight out of me.

Whatever happens..I will deal with it.  Just didn't want to be thrown back to the beginning of the journey so soon!

Arnie: So nice to see you pop by. Glad you are doing well. Gina popped by a while ago and I think she is doing well too. Keep in touch and hugs to you!

Chris: You had an MRI right? MRI's can certainly have false positives so I think the move to US and biopsy is very wise.  And try to remember that the large majority of biopsies are B9. Did you get an appointment? Hugs and prayers

Beth P

Oh Chris I am so glad you are getting in today. We all know that the waiting really sucks.

Hugs

Beth P

JDEKING:  Thanks for the will wishes!  I pray for you father's healing.  It is much easier to go throught this process than watch a loved one deal with it.  I'm sure your Mom and Dad appreciate the time you spend together.