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  • faithandfifty
    faithandfifty Member Posts: 10,007
    edited March 2010

    Can I have a boo-hoo party??

    My surface/skin infection has blossomed into a SCREAMING SCARLET, ever expanding mess.

    So that means no foobie-fitting for me tomorrow. Yell

    I went back to the FL BS and she gave me a new script for a new anti-biotic.

    This was after my daily PT.

    So another L-E-N-G-T-H-Y wait at the pharmacy.

    But the real sorrow is that Saint has been admitted to the hospital and will be there tomorrow morning when she awakens on her birthday.

    Cry

    She told me this evening that she has had a confirmation of mets to her liver..... and I'm dismal over my skin's screaming.

    She would absolve me of feeling guilty over feeling down in the dumps.

    Some days I just wanna crawl into a little cave.

    And yes. I vaporized my "movie" that I've been working on for hundreds of hours. Somehow my computer just vaporized it to nothing -- no trace!!!!

    Tomorrow's apt to be better for me.

    Saint keeps everything in perspective for me.

    xx00xx00xx00xx

    Edited to add a picture to the top of the page:

    My new pair of over-alls:

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  • konakat
    konakat Member Posts: 6,085
    edited March 2010
    Yes, have a boo-hoo party!  You keep an eye on that infection!  I sure hope this latest antibiotic works.  And, totally suxs about your movie!!!  And the news about Saint (I'm scared).  What an all round horrible day!  Blech.  Cry  Cool overalls!
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  • Meece
    Meece Member Posts: 19,483
    edited March 2010

    (((Saint, Faith, Kona))) Go ahead and cry.  I have hugs for all of you. 

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  • Marple
    Marple Member Posts: 19,143
    edited March 2010

    ((((Faith))))  Sometimes the only good party is a pity party.

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  • cookiegal
    cookiegal Member Posts: 3,296
    edited March 2010

    When it rains it pours! Ugh!Frown

    We lack a properly sad emoticon.

    When everything settles down take your computer to an expert, I bet there is a copy of the film lurking on some file in your hard drive that you can't see.

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  • carolinachick
    carolinachick Member Posts: 387
    edited March 2010

    Hoping for better days ahead for both Faith and Saint!

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  • Mazy1959
    Mazy1959 Member Posts: 1,431
    edited March 2010

    Faith God bless you. You are so kind and such a wonderful friend. You cry til you feel better and then get mad kick cancer butt. Hugs, Mazy

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  • mumito
    mumito Member Posts: 4,562
    edited March 2010

    (((HUgs and Prayers)))) Faith Saint Elizabeth Sending healing vibes as well.

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  • faithandfifty
    faithandfifty Member Posts: 10,007
    edited March 2010

    I didn't hear from Saint yesterday on her birthday.

    Left her a chipper message from all of us.

    Still wondering if by some chance she was just having a great day with lots of support.

    The solcace is that her sister is there with her this week.

    Will keep you posted.

    Ever onward.

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  • shiny
    shiny Member Posts: 892
    edited March 2010

    xxxxxxxx hugggggsssss

    \Shiny

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  • Meece
    Meece Member Posts: 19,483
    edited March 2010

    How are you feeling, Faith?  Is the new antibiotic doing its job?

    Thinking of you daily,

    Meece

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  • Marple
    Marple Member Posts: 19,143
    edited March 2010

    Hugs Faith.  Wishing you a happy, sunny day.

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  • faithandfifty
    faithandfifty Member Posts: 10,007
    edited March 2010

    I had an appointment today with the BS here in FL.

    She feels that the new antibioic seems to be doing it's job. No miracle cure (as I'd hoped) but progress is progress. The weirdest thing, is that as the scarlet red rash receeds, it leaves what looks like a bruising in it's wake. I really am the rainbow girl. All colors represented.

    Today is week #8.

    I'm super bummed.

    Several authorities, and BCO peeps alike had told me that they thought I'd be well on my way to my 'new normal' by this point.

    Not-so-much.

    I guess maybe I'm kinda-sorta on my way.... but I'm not ready to accept my current level of energy and brilliance as the new-normal.

    I have my "triumphant return" a week from today. How in the world will I get my act together in that amount of time??? Yiiiiiiikes.

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  • Mazy1959
    Mazy1959 Member Posts: 1,431
    edited March 2010

    Faith........If anyone can do it ..you can

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  • Marple
    Marple Member Posts: 19,143
    edited March 2010

    Faith, you always do your very best.  That is one thing that hasn't changed.  Gentle hugs.

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  • Meece
    Meece Member Posts: 19,483
    edited March 2010

    You'll slide right back into your groove, Faith.  We have...well FAITH, in you!

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  • shiny
    shiny Member Posts: 892
    edited March 2010

    Faith, daaaling. You have to know in your heart of hearts that what you do, what you create and what you share with your seminars fuels you and all in the room with so much hopefull warm loving inspirational fun energy that you can only benifit from getting back into what you do best real soon. It will make energy, give energy, and that will be given right back to you by all the people you inspire on the day. You will positively SHINE!!!

    And, you know, it won't matter if you take a few more "water breaks" during your presentation or workshops, it won't matter if you spend less time dancing with the crowd, and spend more time, sat at your instrument, telling a story, the message will get accross the room will buss and you will feel the power of all the good you bring. And you will feel blessed.

    Deep deep cleansing breathing, and fill up with that joy you know you bring make and generate.

    I am just singing one of your ditties right now and willing you in that direction, you seriously talatent woman you.

    big kiss and hug beautiful friend.

    Shiny

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  • marlegal
    marlegal Member Posts: 2,264
    edited March 2010

    and again, my dear dear Shiny, I get to follow your post with a resounding DITTO!!!!  do I have good timing or what??  Faith, you have to accept the fact that you at 85% of your best still leaves many of us feeling that we're not quite at that level.  It's your gift, and I for one am so glad that you found your true calling and can share that gift with so many.  love and hugs

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  • faithandfifty
    faithandfifty Member Posts: 10,007
    edited March 2010

    We have arrived safely.

    Three workshops tomorrow!!!!

    Think good thoughts.

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  • konakat
    konakat Member Posts: 6,085
    edited March 2010

    You will do great!!!!!  I know you will.  Hugs and stuff,

    Elizabeth

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  • Marple
    Marple Member Posts: 19,143
    edited March 2010

    ((((Faith))))

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  • faithandfifty
    faithandfifty Member Posts: 10,007
    edited March 2010

    The conference went very well. Terrific participants. Wonderful feedback.

    Day yesterday with my kiddos with special needs was exhausting, but in a good way.

    Needing to ask for help at every juncture is such a challenge to me...... but I am forcing myself.

    I have a half-day school tomorrow morning @ our Children's Hospital.

    Then I have an appointment with my BS in the afternoon.

    I am having a melt-down over this appointment.

    My infection seems to have receeded, but left a lunar landscape in it's wake and all sorts of bruising where the fluid has apparently built up.

    I am working over-time not to let my imagination create scenerios.

    Then the conversation with Saint...... and that reality.

    And to top it all off, my WB has a double ear infection and sinus infection, too.

    Ohio never has sunshine this time of year.

    ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGH

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  • Meece
    Meece Member Posts: 19,483
    edited March 2010

    Ohio does have sunshine this time of year, and she just got home!!!

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  • Marple
    Marple Member Posts: 19,143
    edited March 2010

    Amen to what Meece said.  (Thanks Meece.)

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  • mumito
    mumito Member Posts: 4,562
    edited March 2010

    ((((Faith and Saint))))

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  • shiny
    shiny Member Posts: 892
    edited March 2010

    Faith, sending my peachiest vibes, and thinking of you.

    I am challanged, just more then usual and taking care of the kiddo's needs SEN issues at the mo, so not on the boards so much, or not writing as much these days (it won't last) but I am still with you daaaling. You did so well daaaaling.

    Just caught up on Saint's thread. xxxxx

    Shiny

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  • faithandfifty
    faithandfifty Member Posts: 10,007
    edited March 2010

    I am holding my breathe, couting to a 1000000000000 in an effort to not be thrown in the tank for the bad mouthed.



    Met w my BS today and was given a lot of BS.



    My chest on the bad side looks like a lunat landscape of bruised hills and valleys. He doesn't want to aspirate any fluid because of the possibility of infection flare up. He says my body will reabsorb thess fluids over the course of the coming year -- maybe sooner if I'm lucky.



    And the pain??? Yeah that's real. I'll adapt, so he says.



    It was all I xould do to remain civil.



    He wanted to remind me that the cancer is gone. What a buffoon,



    We're in the car retourning to FL all I can do is cry...or spit nails.



    If I start typing my real feelings I will be put in lock down.

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  • debbie6122
    debbie6122 Member Posts: 5,161
    edited March 2010

    (((((((((faith)))))))))) Go ahead, spit nails, cuss, It will make you feel better,(almost) If you dont like or feel comfortable with your BS I would ask for a different one, you are entitled to pick who you want. Faith, you have gone thru so much and done so much for every one, every thing is catching up with you, IMHO I think you need to take a rest and get some fatih time. sending you lots of love and prayers

    debbie

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  • Marple
    Marple Member Posts: 19,143
    edited March 2010
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  • mumito
    mumito Member Posts: 4,562
    edited March 2010

    ((((Faith))))

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