November 2009-Starting Chemo

(((cafelovr)))  try this visual. If the tumor was visably smaller, that would have meant that the margins were shrinking in from the outside in. You are swiss chessy which means it is working from the inside out.

Remember the movie where the asteroid was heading to earth (Bruce Willis movie). They didn't chip away at the outside of the asteroid to make it smaller, they stuck the nuclear sh!t in the middle and blew it up from the inside.

If you want to penetrate enemy lines, do you start attacking at the edges or do you sneak spies into the core? That tumor is no longer a solid mass of dread, it is weak and mushy and chicken sh!t.

You are winning.

God Melinda, you make me laugh! I am staying positve. It's just so aggravating at times. I guess we all go through our mopey moments, but alas...it's cold as crap here, but the sun is shining!

You know, I always said what I'd do if I won the lottery. Honestly, if I were to win a few million, I'd buy each Lady Warrior a plane ticket and fly us to the same place for a reunion. You all are my sisters and we are not alone!! Love to all!

(((Hugs)))

((((Cafelovr))))   I agree with Alicia...I couldn't have said it any better than Melinda.  You are strong and I know you will beat this!  When you win the lottery, make sure our destination is WARM ...it is supposed to be 17 degrees in Texas tomorrow which is colder than it has been in many years here.  I'm not sure my bald head and thin skin can handle much more cold.

Thinking about everyone having a tx today, good luck!

I am possibly just not seeing it...but it doesn't seem like we've heard from SharaD in a while.  I miss her humerous posts...hope all is well with her.

((((HUGS)))

Becca, good luck on Thursday...I too have treatment tomorrow...

Sue, yah you.  Done #3..you are over the hump now.

Linda, you are indeed a brave warrior chick...we all will beat this crap. Big hugs for you..

Received Chemo - second to last one - yesterday. Uneventful and a great visit with my oncologist - Dr. Gadi at SCCA. He has me in mind for some bone density research studies which sounds exciting. Anything I can do to help others will feel great.

Both my kids have had the flu - my son was down on the 3rd, and 4th of Jan. My daughter started getting sick on the 5th and today. I've remanded her to her room as much as possible. It's a flu that seems to spread very easily but shouldn't be H1N1 since she was vaccinated against it when I got sick in December. I just hope it doesn't grab ahold of me! 

I'm taking a new nasua med - something starts wtih an E and is very expensive for just three pills $619 - thank goodness for insurance and $35 copays. I think it'll help and I feel more prepared for the SE's this time. I'll have it down by the time my last treatment rolls around. Ironic. 

Was wired and housecleaning last night from the steroids, still wired a bit today but having an upset bowel...

I went "natural" for the first time at work today. No one cares. Feels good - like a huge trust thing wtih this great group of people I work with!! 

I hope everyone else is doing well and managing. I for one am glad the holiday's are over. 

SharaD where are you - we need some more laughs. I kept thinking about your next tip to get to the top of the supermarket queue using chemo breath when I was away on holiday stuck in traffic. I was tempted to pull off my hat and stick my fuzz out of the window to move them out of the way

I drive topless all the time...I crank the heat when I get in and then I overheat...I even rolled down my window the other day and told a guy off after he took the spot I was planning to take..I had my signal on and he just took it...gave him a piece of what is left of my mind..

I think I have less patience lately with rude people...Also the other day in a parking lot a guy parked corner to corner so as to take two spots...I was loading my car and I said  "hey buddy I think you parked a little crooked"  He said it was ok since he was from the country...???? I guess being from the country makes you an ass...I always liked country people..Oh well perhaps cancer brings out the B%#@h in me..

I missed the shopping one ~ Sue.  Can only imagine how beautiful Australia is, and ahhh Summer!  I cannot wait ~

Michele ~ I picture you saying hey buddy .  HMMM can't place the Canadian accent though. Darn that's annoying me now !

Hope everyone that had treatment is feeling ok, and those going tomorrow ~ thinking of u.

Alicia

Alicia, we sound like people from Minnesota, and we add an "ah" on the end of most sentences...

Michele ~ thinking of you today with your next TX hoping all goes smoothly.

Mabelle ~ sorry you are feeling so bad.  I know these next few days will be tough for you.  Hoping you have some pain killers on hand.

Suepen~ good news that your type of bc responds well to the herpecin.  SORRY your BS didn't get you your report.  THAT is not good!

Just looked at the TX list that lovely Warrior Brenda made ~ so many of you had TX this week.  Hoping all of your side effects go away soon.  Gentle healing hugs !

Alicia

Hi all, I'm here and catching up on all your posts...glad to hear that MOST of us are getting through this with nothing more than just little headaches, backaches, foot-aches, ass-aches, sour mouth-aches, toothaches, cramps, the runs, the piles, the cements, the jitters, the chills and "the vapors".

I love all the girls who say they were "expecting it to be worse". What the hell were you expecting, a nuclear explosion? That's about the only thing I can think of that would be worse.

I'm on day 3 so not feeling too freakin' funny today - sorry to disappoint. Day 4 usually is a bit worse but day 5 improves as food starts to taste more like tires and less like hubcaps. Day 6 is always fun as I get out and shop for a new TX outfit, usually making it home in time to hit the toilet .(Why is it that 5 days of stool softeners only seems to kick in when I'm out shopping???? I know where every damn public toilet in this whole city is located, and if your store doesn't have a decent throne, you've lost me as a customer. KOHLS, I love you, and thank you for the soft toilet paper...sorry I used so much of it)

Anyway, Day 7 is Decadron-delightful and then TX day I am so popular as all the nurses greet me with a big smile and then wait for me to rip their damn heads off.

I don't think the compazine agrees with me, it makes me feel anxious or something, I am going to try to get something else.

I did indeed get a NICE gift in my Christmas stocking, but almost spent New Years in jail. More on this later!

Hope you all have the best day yet this year, and please keep posting....sorry but my dry, callous fingers are spending less and less time on the keyboard and more and more time up my ass with a suppository.

SharaD - Good to hear from you, sorry you are not feeling well.  My stool softeners always kick in when I get to work, never when I am home!

Brenda - Thanks, yes that is my daughter.  She looks like me and acts like me (trust me, THAT is not a good thing especially at school )  Loved your pic on the boat, very nice!

Wishing those who have a tx today an easy time with no side effects and hope those that had a tx this week are doing okay.

(((HUGS)))

Toyah

Brenda ~ glad you are feeling a bit better !

SharaD ~ even not feeling good with chemo fingers you make me laugh.  Sorry to hear your Christmas present almost landed you in the clink ~  Hope you feel better

Toyah ~ Love the new pic of you and your daughter - both beauties.

I put a new pic - you all inspired me.  I got some new bandana's in WALMART ~ $1 each.  Beats anything else I have to cover my head.  I spent so much money on wigs and hats and like nothing better then the cheapo bandanas.

Hugs ~

Alicia

aww thanks, feel more like bloated chemo face.  But it is what it is for now !