Anxiety

I had LCIS, complex sclerosing lesion(radial scar) intraductal hyperplasia and sclerosing adenosis, in March 08 after lumpectomy(mammo & ultras. said "no mass, cyst"), I had radiation.  Before treatments were over, I discovered lump in Rt breast which surgeon couldn't feel in June, my mammo & ultras. didn't show it, so I let it go.  3 mos. later at follow up for Lt, my surgeon could feel the Rt lump, he then did lumpectomy, came back as adenosis.  Then I have a 3 year old son, whose dad is trying to 'take custody' & get me to pay child support, tho' he hasn't paid any in over 16 mos.  3 mos. later I feel more lumps in Rt, which gyn.can feel, but surgeon can't, mammo & ultras. don't show them either.  I'm really scared it's serious, I asked for MRI, which I had today. At procedure, they couldn't get IV in my Rt arm, so they did the left, halfway thru when they began the contrast(dye) flowing, it began burning & hurting, they pulled me out.  My inner arm (where it bends swelled to the size of a golf ball or more, the tech said the dye exploded into my tissue. They then put IV in Rt and finished MRI.  I CAN'T SLEEP either. Sorry I'm no help, just relating,  Good luck to you.

When I got my mammogram (that ultimately )showed the cancer, I thought I would die from the anxiety, as my sister had been diagnosed a year previously. To top it all off, the hospital was remodeling and men with hard hats and walkie-talkies were parading past us miserable, frightened women in paper gowns, sitting in a hallway because the waiting room was off-limits. No magazines, nothing. It was awful. One of the worst days of my life. And then having to go in for the ultrasound the following week was even worse! The best thing was dsicovering Xanax the day of my biopsy. I now only use it to sleep at night, but that day it saved me from a breakdown. I'm starting to think I may suffer PTSD just from those horrible visits.

I know this is an old thread now but I have to share. I'm full of anxiety, just been dx and can't get to my dr. till after my surgery, when I'll be too sore to go anyways.  I do have Xanax for night sleep but I need one during the day and just can't get to see dr.  Its hell feeling anxious all day long. I only have enough for 1 at night, scared to take during the day case I run out. Its easter weekend and drs are off and my surgery is early next week. I'll be a real mess by then, but seeing that some other women feel it too helps me to know I'm not just going insane from all the stress of it. Lord love us for our staying power. We have no choice but to go through whatever is ahead, so I'd like some more meds to help me get where I'm going. I'm scared too, just like everyone else.  Hugs to all, Marg

I was doagnosed 3 years ago, went through 2 surgeries, radiation, placed on Tanoxifen, which gave me hot flashes, affected the most intimate tissue in horrible ways, developed lymphadema, did not feel supported by anyone but my very best friends,(went through lots of other disheartening issues I'll talk about later, became depressed, anxious, sought medical help, started seeing a therapist who asled me on my 6th visit when was I going to get over it?, have trouble sleeping, keep my xanax with me at all times, take ambien several nights a week to sleep, and finally started taking an antidepressant in February of this year.  I can't go to a doctor visit without crying.  I did  join my church choir, which my husband didn't like at first, and have developed a stronger faith, but still have a long way to go.  This is the first time I've chatted and only started viewing this sight recently.  I can see I needed this a long time ago.  Nobody else understands.