Crying all of the time.

heatherbless ~  As women, we tend to think we can do it all.  When we're at 100%, that works, but when dealing with a dx of bc, we really have to learn to let others take care of us, even if that means asking for help when you need it.  It sounds like maybe you haven't leveled with your BF or your family about not being able to function at your normal level, and needing more from them both physically and emotionally.  What Karen said is so true about people not realizing what you need and also being reluctant to call because they don't quite know what's going on at your house or what to expect when they talk to you.  My stats are similar to yours, and I found it helpful to tell people before they asked that my doctors had assured me that they could cure me and that my long term prognosis was excellent.  In other words, some friends & family may not even be clear on how bad your bc is, so aren't quite sure what to say to you.  Letting them know that I had a positive prognosis helped make them more comfortable calling.  Also, some of the best advice I got from my doctors, was to be sure my family understood that I wasn't going to be able to be the caretaker that I've always been, and that they would have to do more for themselves, as well as for me.  It would be wonderful if people just got this without being told, but not everyone does.

The feelings you're having today are so normal and a part of the process, but if you can be honest with your BF and your family about your sadness and anger, they might be more understanding and helpful.  Just be sure to tell them what they can do to help, because not everyone is intuitive about those things.  And remember, things will get better.  You are still in the midst of your tx.  A few months from now, when the tx is behind you, you'll have an entirely different perspective on things. 

Thinking of you ~

I too was depressed and cryed a lot that first year but it does get better.  I promise.  Your family may not know how to handle your diagnosis.  I never heard from my mother but my daughter said when she told her she broke down and cried.  Try calling them and telling them that you need them and need to feel their love.  Also, don't try to do it all, if he plays golf, then you read a book or watch a movie with the kids and wait for him to get home to help you.  Remember this to shall pass. gentle hugs.