Starting Chemo May 2008

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  • Roxi65229
    Roxi65229 Member Posts: 462
    edited August 2008
  • rock
    rock Member Posts: 1,486
    edited August 2008

    Karin -- Congratulations on the first rad treatment!  How did I miss the Monday problems?  I'm sorry that I missed that.  If I knew you were in the mood to party I'd have invited you to come out with me tonight!  There WILL be other occasions, though. I promise to raise a glass of diet Coke? mineral water? Bad house wine? to you, and to all the wonderful May women.  (I'm really curious what rads are like.)

    Linda-- LAST CHEMO?? That's it. I'm DEFINITELY having alcohol tonight no matter how wonky my tastebuds.  I will make everybody in earshot toast you guys.   

    Everyone -- I wanna write more but I need to head out.  I'm feeling more cheerful than I've felt in awhile. Has a lot to do with you guys, believe me it does.  We will find our way, I know we will.  Individually and collectively, privately, publicly, tearily, happily, anxiously and confidently.

  • Roxi65229
    Roxi65229 Member Posts: 462
    edited August 2008
  • Roxi65229
    Roxi65229 Member Posts: 462
    edited August 2008

    Okay, having a real problem posting my picture. I should of tried it at my office on my PC instead of here on my mac.

    Yeah Linda! We're dancing now! 

  • ewesterman
    ewesterman Member Posts: 417
    edited August 2008

    One more to go. Hurray. Steroid happy and happy happy. It's like a poo poo poo platter instead of a poo poo platter.

    Gracie, sorry about the long day. Mine ran from 9-4:30 so I just got home. On the kidney (Landon?)  My son, Adam, who is 11.5, has one kidney. He had a blockage either in the womb or at birth which is probably Landon's deal. We took out his non-functioning kidney at 5. Listen, Grace, tell you daughter the surgery is very, very, very easy. Tell her the docs do it all the time. Tell he the scare is during the surgery but Landon will be fine...very fine. We all have 200% of what we need. Landon's other kidney will go strong and well and right into an adult kidney as Adam's did. What he'll have to do is: no motorcycle riding; no jumping while horse back riding though regualr is oaky and nos wrestiling (as an organzied sprort in school). If he snowboards, suggest skiing instead. He will have to not drink lots of dark liquids as those are harder on kidneys so no coca cola now and less, less, less, coffee and red wine as he grows old ...no ibuprofen or other NSAIDS (non steroidal anti inflammatory drugs) Tylenol instead. What this means to your daughter is that he'll have to play lots of sports ...no select. The key for him is not to damage his joints as it won't be good for him to pop ibuprofens a lot in his 40's. This is easy stuff. Please remind your daughter this is NOT kidney disease...just a blockage...a fluke no BIG deal. Have her contact me on my blog if she wants to talk more. Adam lead a wildly normal life. He fell off a banister while in the play Oliver a couple of years ago and he fell on his arm and I sat in the audience relieve he didn't fall flat on his back. That's it. He plays baseball like a wildman, skiis, plays tennis, is into dance and drama and does climbing walls and everything else boys do. The secret is I am thrilled he'll never be able to wrestle. I have also outlawed football which suits him fine.

    Sable do NOT NOT NOT pull that lip hair or I will have to Roseanne Rosana Danna you.  Congrats on the hair wherever it comes in. This can only mean god things. ONE MORE TO GO!  WOO HOOOOOOOOOO. Maybe we can photo shop our pole dances together.

    Sue, woof, woof, woof. Sounds beautiful.

    Adrienne, You dream weaver us and I will MacArthur Park you back...one day we can all put on our songs that get stuck in our heads.

    Noelle, will get the washcloth in the tub for tomorrow's shower. Please keep ranting. It makes me  want to listen.

    Rock and Otter stick around for a while....aren't you wanting to see our pole dances? We would miss you terribley.

    Karin,

    Congrats on completeing first radiation today.

    Angels, Alps worked well for me though a very long hike. Welcome back to you too. 

  • otter
    otter Member Posts: 6,099
    edited August 2008

    Pole dances!  More pole dances!

    I didn't take any photos of myself, so I'm re-living this experience vicariously through all your pics.

    Post more pics.

    otter 

  • Sable
    Sable Member Posts: 738
    edited August 2008

    too late hair is done gone... if you can't use the road map and come in the right spot out you go! LOL

  • ranD
    ranD Member Posts: 373
    edited August 2008

    HEY THERE ALL!!!!!

    Justa minor clarification:  this was my 2nd taxol, the finger thing started after the first one, the weird foot with the 2nd.  The finger thing is really just the  tips and just the first 3 are still weirdly numbly.good description, yes? lol.

    Good news, bone pain is gone, yippee, just took my Alleve for the last neulasta shot tonight. But this time around, I am so tired, I can barely get thru grocery shoppping without a nap..jeez, I evern got a sweet tea at mickey d;'s to see if the massive sugar rush could help! No luck just left me sick to my stomach...or maybe it was the fries and burger i sneaked in. bah hahahahahaha.

    Okay, back to the olympics, we asre waiting for the BMX racing...randie

  • drcrisc
    drcrisc Member Posts: 836
    edited August 2008

    Sable - Be careful with those tweezers!  And Eddie's threat of Roseanna Roseanna Danna...Wishing both of you no se's this weekend!

    Randie - I have nothing for you and the numbness (haven't been there yet) but sorry it's irritating and putting you in a quandry.  Speaking of Olympics, I just watched our track stars (both men and women) drop the ball, er, stick in the relays.  Whazzup?!

    Adrienne - When you said "numbies" I could only think of my sister breastfeeding.  Odd association, but her children called them (yes, I said called them, spoke it out loud, asked for it by name!) "nummies". 

    Linda - Good to hear from you and WOOOO HOOOOO!  I will toast a Bailey's to you and Angels, speaking of, where are you and your pics? 

    Roxi - Sorry you had problems with posting yours.  Do you have the photobucket instructions?

    Karin - Did I miss you were starting rads today?  How was it??

    Rock - Go out and enjoy yourself, girl.  We will be here when you get back - but you do have to come back every once in awhile!!

    My 9 y.o. dd is having a sleepover with another girl from her team.  It's just the 3 of us (since I'm radioactive from the PET scan today the little one stayed at my mom's) so they have the CD player cranked up and are singing and dancing away!  It's hard to be depressed with them around.  But I may need that Bailey's in another hour...

  • rock
    rock Member Posts: 1,486
    edited August 2008

    People, I wanted to let you know that I am probably going to scale back my presence on these boards for a couple reasons (e.g., turns out more than one of my "friends" has been tracking my remarks on this site, I'm going away next week anyway, time to move on).  I'll still check in because I absolutely 100% do care how everybody is doing. But the feeling of everything I write being read by people in my non-cancer life . . . I can't help being weirded out and hurt. (And I don't like the idea of them reading what other people say, either. So maybe if I'm not here...they'll stop. I am so very sorry about this.)

    I mean, if a friend leaves her diary out, you don't read it, right?  Like I said before, it isn't as if I'm ashamed by anything I've said here or that it's so incriminating. It's just that I thought I was saying it to YOU (and to similarly situated women with breast cancer).  Rather than look at every one of my friends and wonder what they've read, I think it's better to just pull back.

  • Hood1980
    Hood1980 Member Posts: 537
    edited August 2008

    I know how you feel Rock and your experience has made me question myself too about what I write & my participation on these boards.  It's a shame that it has to be this way, but I (& I am sure many others!) will miss you!  You have a way of reaching out to everyone with your sense of humor & kind words that are very encouraging!  Good luck!

  • Gracie713
    Gracie713 Member Posts: 302
    edited August 2008

    Rock--I hate that you have had to come to this decision, but can understand where you are coming from.  You have truly been an inspiration to me and I'm sure many others.  Please check in on us, I miss you already!

  • Sable
    Sable Member Posts: 738
    edited August 2008

    Rock that sucks! I'm really gonna miss your humour in here :O(

  • sueper13
    sueper13 Member Posts: 1,224
    edited August 2008

    Rock,

    NOoooooooooooo!  I will miss you too much! You will miss us too much! I am so sorry things are the way they are....and that you have reached the decision you have.  You will be seriously missed forever.

  • angelsaboveus
    angelsaboveus Member Posts: 298
    edited August 2008

    Rock, I will miss you too, but totally understand where you are at, sometimes it good to take a break anyway and you can come back in awhile to check in feeling better about things. You have no reason to be sorry when dealing with other peoples actions that you have no control over, we all get that!  Where ever you are going next week hope you feel at peace and can enjoy Laughing

    Well, i survived the Swiss Alps, thanks everyone for all the well wishes. It went all very smoothly, it was a full room yesterday and the nurses were running all day, so it was just a quick hug and i was out of there.  Steroids let me sleep till 2:00 am this morn then wide awake, only one more day of those thank goodness

    Still bi weekly blood tests ahead and my onc wants me to start nuepogen this Sat. so maybe we can control my really low count i had last time wbc went down to 0.65 and neutrophils were at 0.09 so hope this will help starting a few days earlier. So business as usual for the next couple of weeks. He sent in a letter to rads that chemo was done so hope to hear from them in the near future, if not i will get on the phone and bug them. Want to keep the ball rolling. 

    Hope everyone plows through the weekend with minimal SE's and can relax and enjoy !

                           

                            DragonFlies And Destiny

                   If you should see a dragonfly in vibrant

                                  colour pass by,

                 Dancing in the sun and carrying secrets

                                  to the sky,

               Treasure the moment, for if upon your soul

                               it should alight,

               It will reveal your destiny to the stars and

                         let your dreams take flight!

     Sweet dreams everyone ! Innocent

  • ranD
    ranD Member Posts: 373
    edited August 2008

    No Rock........ahhhhhhh. you will be missed.sob sob sob

    I hate it when people act like such, well, people!!!!!!!

    randie

  • ellenoire
    ellenoire Member Posts: 674
    edited August 2008

    Rock, as much as your 'friends' may be nice and all. I actually hate them right now.... and I truly hope they are reading this!!!!!!!!!!!  I am so totally beyond understanding how they think reading this stuff could be helpful to you... and as your friends being helpful to you should be their main objective.

    How completely sucky.

    Rock and all y'all can privately email me anytime at ellenoire@ellenoire.com. Except of course, Rock's yucky friends, 'cause I hate them! 

      I know I sound like I am kidding, but I'm not.

     Here is my song of the day for everyone ( and baby Landan) and most especially my pal who is burying her son this morning. 

     The Lord bless you and keep you
    The Lord lift His countenance upon you,
    And give you peace, and give you peace;
    The Lord make His face to shine upon you,
    And be gracious, and be gracious;
    The Lord be gracious, gracious unto you. 

     http://ca.youtube.com/watch?v=g1R590x9io8&feature=related 

      Going to have a good cry now, and then go for a run.

     Chemoooo to y'all.

     xoN 

  • familyroks
    familyroks Member Posts: 575
    edited August 2008

    Linda - WOOHOO!!  LAST CHEMOOOOOOOO!!  Congrats!

    Karin - doesn't it feel good to feel so good??!!  So glad you were able to get your rads started.

  • Roxi65229
    Roxi65229 Member Posts: 462
    edited August 2008
  • Roxi65229
    Roxi65229 Member Posts: 462
    edited August 2008

    Okay, not the most glamorous, but what the heck. It sure was fun!

  • ellenoire
    ellenoire Member Posts: 674
    edited August 2008

    Yaay Roxi!

    Great pic!  

  • familyroks
    familyroks Member Posts: 575
    edited August 2008

    Roxi - I LOVE IT!!!  Great pic!  And again...congrats on the last CHEMOOOOOO!!!!

  • sueper13
    sueper13 Member Posts: 1,224
    edited August 2008

    Roxi,

    GUTS are more important than glamour any day of the week!  Congrats on your last chemo and your great noive! 

  • angelsaboveus
    angelsaboveus Member Posts: 298
    edited August 2008

    Roxi ....way to go girl !!!  At least you did it , I didn't have it in me, I'm proud of ya!Wink

    Cheers to everyone's last chemo's and another to what lays ahead !.......Innocent

  • MsKarin
    MsKarin Member Posts: 647
    edited August 2008

    Too all - you didn't miss anything. I forgot I didn't post about my troubles with Rads on Monday on this board; I did it over on Rads board. 2 down now 30 something to go.

    Adrienne yes it felt great.

    Roxi love the pic.

    Don't really feel like posting now. I am in mourning over the absence of Rock. She once said to me

    <<< I love it that you, Karin, made a difference in people's lives that you didn't even know.  I love it when that happens. >>>

    ROCK WE NEED YOU, you don't realize the difference you make in our lives.

    To her stalkers on this board, you robbed something from us that is priceless and can not be replaced.

    Enjoy the day, Karin

  • otter
    otter Member Posts: 6,099
    edited August 2008

    It doesn't even have to be stalkers.  In rock's case, it probably isn't stalkers.

    I'll bet it's just that people from her "other" life have discovered her here, and are reading her posts.  I can guarantee that, if someone from my "other" life (sister, mom, former co-workers) found my posts here and read them, and then said something to me about it, I would be uncomfortable.  In my case, it's because I'm too blunt about some things when I should really SHUT UP.

    Mostly, though, it's because it means our private world has been invaded.  What we say here is very personal.  Some of us come here because we aren't comfortable talking about these same things, or sharing these feelings, with people in our "other" life.  As was said earlier, finding out someone from that part of your life has been reading your posts here, is like finding out someone has been reading your diary.

    It hurts.  No, it sucks.

    otter 

  • ewesterman
    ewesterman Member Posts: 417
    edited August 2008

    GREAT pole dance. I found it extremely glamorous and I can't wait to be up there with you, Roxi.

    Rock, please reinvent yourself with a new name and let us know on our private blogs or e-mails. Then come back. I respect your setting boundaries and I will miss you terribly. Please, please pop in on my blog, but more important, please be in touch with us as a group somehow as we are all mourning your departure. If you depart because you need a break for you need to be done, I understand. If you are doing it because of those reading this, what a shame. If you are doing it for both, take a break then come back as another and I promise, we will know. Angels, I was up at five. Went to bed at midnight so steroids got me too. However, I was in very little pain. Had my second to last neulasta today. Karin,hope the rads get easier. Noelle, I used to sing that song in junior high...the Lord bless you and keep you... and btw, it is the priest's blessing Yivarech che cah adonai...you know the one we say over children on Friday nights and they say at Jewish weddings...it is also the basis for the song from Fiddler on the Roof...May the Lord protect and defend you. May He always shield you from shame . . . may God bless you and grant you long lives ....etc. Talk to you all soon and may your weekends be fabulous.

  • sueper13
    sueper13 Member Posts: 1,224
    edited August 2008

    Eddie--I love it when you post.  Just love it. I have a confession to make. I had a scare earlier in the week when I went to see the radiation oncologist.  She gave me the results of the chest CT scan.  She said the granulomas are unchanged, therefore they are nothing to worry about.  As I was taking the deep breath to heave a HUGE sigh of relief, she said "there is something on your sternum that we want to look at.  I am scheduling you for a bone scan tomorrow."  I was pretty scared.  I came home and didn't want to talk to anybody.  I didn't even tell you guys, and I hope you understand, but it was like if I said it out loud it was real. So, anyway, I had the bone scan and it was clean, completely negative. So, I DON'T have cancer.  I hope you can forgive me for telling you the CT scan was clean while I had the bone scan done.  Then today I had an echocardiogram and the tech said, "Don't tell them I told you, but your heart looks fine."  So, I am going with that.  The chemo didn't damage my heart.  I am feeling very lucky and blessed and happy.  I feel like I have my life back, and am thinking about the future again in a way that I didn't even realize I had stopped doing.  I still don't feel coompletely recovered, of course, and I am still bald with one boob. But I realize now how many people love me and what a full and wonderful life I have, and what a beautiful man I am married to.  And on top of all this, I get my dog babies back next week!

    Karin, I have my simulation for rads on Tuesday.  How long does it take?  And how are you feeling?  Hope everything is fine.

    Sable, daulink, how you doing?

    Roxi, as I said, guts over glamour, but I think your picture was glamorous as well. I can see your spirit shining out of your beautiful eyes.

    Noelle, if a washcloth counts, I exfoliate every day!  Who knew?

    Otter, good to see you and I agree with every word you said. 

    Tried to do some research today about soy and estrogen positive cancer. Conflicting opinions, some say it is preventive, some say it causes tumor growth. Some say it's a good thing as long as you started eating it before puberty, some say a small amount is good but a large amount causes tumor growth. Some say totally avoid it (meanwhile it's in everything), some say soy in moderation is fine, just don't take the supplements.  Any opinions? 

    Love you all,

    Sue 

  • NancyD
    NancyD Member Posts: 3,562
    edited August 2008

    Just popping over from March 2008 chemo thread to say, I'M DONE!!! Had my last TAC today. Check out my "lap dance" (my version of the chemo pole dance that has been going around in this thread)  in Rock's The Road to Hell . . . (or "Laughter is the Best Medicine") thread.

    And also note on exfoliating: If you are moving on to rads, don't exfoliate the field area while you are receiving radiation.

  • Gracie713
    Gracie713 Member Posts: 302
    edited August 2008

    Eddie--thank you for the info.  Didn't know about the no ibuprofen.  I will make sure to pass it on to DD.

    Roxi & nancyD--Way to go!!!

    Sue--So glad that all of your tests are negative!!

    Time to hit the couch again.

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