Waiting for biopsy results, 10 days. Every day feels longer

heklica

Hi everyone.

My mom finally had a biopsy past monday and we are still waiting for results. She has had an ultrasound, mammogram, MRI, chest x-ray, and ultrasound of the entire stomach (liver, kidneys etc) so far. Stomach and lungs came back clear, but all breast screening came back with a suspicious spiculated non-palpable lesion of 8mm without calcifications or a tumor mass. Doctors are highly suggesting that it could be breast cancer. My mom is 58, post-menopausal, and has had a hysterectomy with ovaries removal almost 2 decades ago due to a benign condition. She doesn't have a lump, pain, or any other symptoms.

It has been 5 weeks since the lesion was first noticed on an ultrasound. I cried myself to sleep in the begging, but I'm realizing something as time goes on. The idea of my mom having cancer doesn't seem so scary or impossible anymore. I'm hurt, but so did many other kids whose parents were faced with this illness. And like any illness, this illness has a cure as well.

I guess this post helps me with expressing my feelings. Breast cancer is scary, but like any other illness it needs treatment and it can get better and go away. It will be good, and if it is bad - it will be good. It has to be.

I'm sending everyone a lot of love and positive thoughts. Even before my mom, I would always think about people who have to deal with cancer. I never turned my head the other way, felt sad for or thanked God that it's not happening to anyone I love. Because that's selfish. Cancer is not a death sentence and society shouldn't see it as such. I've read somewhere that cancer is a life sentence. Because you are sentenced to live.

I'm sorry about my rambling, just a lot of thoughts going on in my head right now.

God bless you all. You got this, we got this.

LivinLife

Lots of reflection helping you get to a place of greater acceptance and some peace. Likely that will ebb and flow depending on what you all hear while serving you well as often as you can get and be in touch with that. Lots and lots of progress made with breast cancer treatments so if it's not good news I hope there's a treatment plan- even options - you and your mom find promising... Please let us know once you get more information on what's going on...