Implants after double mastectomy almost two years later...

Dovely

I still really don't like them overal but I'm used to them. My PS did an amazing job. Sleeping can be tough because I was a stomach sleeper. Bright side of that is that it's better for my neck to sleep on my side and back. I sometimes get a little soreness on my left side, the “thinnest" skinned side and the side with the most cancer (I had bi-lateral). I get phantom itches. They look really realistic and great in clothes. Naked they look like implants, but I have very low body fat. I am an avid yoga practitioner and so the muscles in my chest are almost completely as they were before surgery. I miss the feeling of my nipples during sex, although I also feel lucky that I got to keep them. I wish I felt my daughters head on my chest when I hug her. I feel so very fortunate in many ways but there will always be a loss. Thanks for listening, I would love to hear anyone's thoughts who are a ways out from surgery.

exbrnxgrl

dovely,

I have had bilateral implants for 9 years. I think I was fortunate in that my plastic surgeon was totally up front about what my post surgery “breasts” would potentially be like. Yes, I imagine that bring a stomach sleeper would be difficult. As to loss of sensation, I expected this as I understood that all of my underlying breast tissue was being removed and replaced by the implants. I do have a great deal of skin sensation but nothing deeper than that. Since I was prepared for this it wasn’t a surprise to me. Ultimately, my health was more important.

It sounds as if you are still mourning what you’ve lost. I think we all go through that but if it still something that really bothers you, you might consider finding a therapist who works with cancer patients. They can be very helpful in sorting out your feelings and coming to terms with your loss