7 years since diagnosis

StacieRae
StacieRae Member Posts: 20

Hi all,

I haven't been on the site in many years, but today is exactly 7 years since I was given a diagnosis of locally advanced breast cancer that presented with a 5cm tumour deep in my right armpit. Within weeks it had spread to the other side of my body and set up shop under my left armpit too. By the time I started 6 months of neo-adjuvant chemotherapy I had a 3rd tumour in my right breast that grew so fast it broke through the skin and my nipple. I knew I had IDC, hormone-negative and HER-2 positive, but it wasn't until much later in my treatment that I learned the differential diagnosis was inflammatory breast cancer. When I did, I broke down completely. I was certain it was a death sentence. I was 41 years old and my son was 9. He's 16 now and I couldn't be more grateful to be here to see him thrive and become a young man. They threw everything at me (AC chemo, Taxotere, Herceptin, double mastectomy and double axillary dissections, and 6 weeks of daily high-dose tomotherapy radiation.) It was a marathon, but I took it one step at a time and with lots of help from family and friends. On good days, I embraced small joys. When I grew stronger, I made plans and focussed on doing the best with each day. I have other chronic illnesses and had many setbacks, drug reactions and bad days. I have sought all kinds of support, including psychotherapy to process the changes to my body and to my life. Much of what happened was difficult and traumatic and I gave myself permission to feel sad and scared and sometimes angry about the path my life took. I came to this bulletin board for information and to see that other women had been through it and survived. And it helped.

If you're newly diagnosed, or struggling through or after treatment, know that you are not alone. No matter how hard it is, or how dire things seem, hope is always warranted. Be kind to yourself, and know that statistics apply to groups but not to individual cases. Also remember that there is progress made in treatments and therapies all of the time.

I celebrate today, with my family... but also for all of the brave women I am rooting for. My heart is with you.

Stacie (Ottawa)



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